The Right Mindset

It's been an insane weekend and few days. So many tests and the need to study, and the Amgen interview... It's been good though. I mean, I've been stressed and all, which is understandable, but I've also been a lot happier. Last semester, if I had two tests and an interview, and the tests went the way they did, I probably would have just cried. Now? I went to go eat guac and sing/dance to Beyoncé.

I'm just going to try to keep in mind that I can't change anything which has happened. I wrote my Princeton essay on optimism, and I think I've been doing a really bad job of living up to what I say I believe in. I've complained too much about too little, and forgotten that everything turns out okay. I've forgotten I have the power to make tomorrow a better day. "Am I to approach life worrying about what misfortune will next befall me, wasting what little happiness I could have in anticipation of misery?"

I mean, I can't really compare yesterday, since finding out I probably have an internship (paid! At a top pharma company! Near my family, in the same city my sister works, for twelve whole weeks... I could go on and on!!!) definitely outweighs most anything that could have feasibly happened barring unseen circumstances, I did find out that I did incredibly badly on my orgo test... And as a lot of you know, orgo and I are in a love-hate relationship. It really is interesting and I really do like arrow-pushing, I just really wish it made more sense to me and I were better at it. And it's just such a big part of what I probably want to do in life. A grade this bad last semester definitely would have just reduced me to tears. And I mean, it definitely bugged me, since I thought I knew more than that, but I'm not letting it get to me.

It's making me happier. I think I want to keep this mindset around.