Sunday, December 30, 2012

Friday, December 28, 2012

Presents in this Galaxy


I meant to write this yesterday, but I didn't get around to it... 

***** 

Belated Christmas present from Shu! Pretty awesome - Book of Secrets + Khet: The Laser Game. Came back from shopping to a huge box on the porch. Which had a huge bag in it. My mom and I were so confused haha. In any case, thanks blearghle! 

Also got my Galaxy SIII activated! It's insane how much stuff I can do on here! I need to get music though... Sucks that I'm super lazy and sort of busy... Maybe over Intercession? Or you know, if anyone out there wants to make me a mixtape -nudgenudge-. 


Also got my puzzle ring in the mail! It's the right size now haha. =] I can actually wear it everywhere now - super happy. It does make washing my hands a bit annoying though - I don't want to get it wet, so I always have to take it off. Ah well, whatever. It's a minor setback to always having something I can fiddle with.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas! =]


My face still hurts. -sighs- Lasting reminder of how horrible I am at ice skating, haha.

Shopping Spree!


Went on a nice spree to Nordstrom Rack - two of them. Spent so much money today, but at least I got some nice things. =] It was pretty hectic, but nice to actually find stuff I liked. Then sobering to realize it costs $80. Ah well, I get treated every once in a while I guess.

Got a pair of boots, sandals, and a really cute pair of heels. That last phrase doesn't come out of my mouth often, so that should give you an idea of how cute I thought this pair of heels was haha. Best buy of the day definitely had to be a dark brown leather jacket though. It was like $100, but also marked down from $500, which made it a teensy bit more acceptable. It's amazing though, and I love it. =]

In any case, I suppose I have a slight excuse for going on a shopping rampage this break, since I don't really have an opportunity to shop otherwise...

Monday, December 24, 2012

Catching Up


Had a super fun day yesterday. I really need to start studying for finals, but seeing friends again and hanging out is so much more enjoyable...

Met up with Eric and Peter at Iceland for some intense skating/falling. First time falling in this rink = completely wiping out and smashing my face against the ice. It's still sore... I also have a really nice crescent shaped mark on my middle finger - I have no idea where it's from...
Went to Fuddrucker's for lunch, where Tommy decided to join us. Mmmm burgers. Guac on burgers is actually delicious. Actually, guac n everything is delicious.
Headed over the Dublin Bowl for some intense gutter-balling. Until we got bumpers. Awh yeah. Anyways, Pikatu, Tsaichu, Caterpete, and Ponytom were pretty awesome. Yeah, we're that cool. I somehow managed to win overall two games. Don't ask me how that happened, but it did haha.
Chilled at Tommy's for a while - a few games of Hearts, a few of Deuces, a few of Palace. Tommy and Eric had a pretty intense game of Stratego after Peter had to leave too. I also ate most of the grape tomatoes in the house. Ah well, what can I say. In any case, I've missed these guys. We need to get the whole gang ("nerd bus" haha) together and play Publish or Perish...



Grabbed some pho with Jung (just lots of noms today =D) and had a pretty intense 3-hour conversation about our colleges. It was super fun just to catch up and stuff though. I've really missed friends from back home - it's hard to realize until you meet them again...

Friday, December 21, 2012

Hexagons


My over-break orgo pset had an octagon in it. I just have to say it takes quite a bit longer for me to draw an octagon than a hexagon, and it still ends up looking questionable. I guess we know which shapes gets used the most in orgo...

In other news, sent off presents today! Yay! Can't wait 'til they get them. =]

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

It's nice being back.


Catching up with friends, seeing teachers. Walking around San Ramon. And getting a little ego boost when people are impressed you go to Princeton =P. But it's nice seeing how everyone's doing. Being out of the Orange Bubble is relaxing. Though I do have to say that now I'm hating we have finals after break, since all of my friends are done. Blah. Oh well. Hopefully I'll do decently on them... I should study... 

 Finished Matterpie's present! Super excited - going to ship it tomorrow. I want to post a picture but I can't do that until he opens it. In Maryland. So like, in a week. Ah well. =]

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Hey There California!


Back in California! I don't even know what to expect... It feels like I haven't been here in forever but it also feels like I just left. Wow. 

I got really randomly emotional near the end of the flight - I guess it was a mixture of excitement for being home again, and sadness for leaving Princeton and all the friends I've met there. In any case, I actually started crying a bit; it was weird. 

The actual flight went really well. Two rolling luggages are extremely hard to cart around on public transportation, but I made it! A nice guy helped me put my super heavy carry-on into the overhead compartment too. =] 
Watched "The Social Network" and "Premium Rush" on the plane - both were pretty good/interesting, but not particularly stunning. Though speaking of movies, I'm super psyched to see "The Hobbit" and "Les Miserables"!!! 
Successfully got my bag down from the overhead compartment and my check-in from the carousel with absolutely no problems. Sitting in the airport as of now, waiting for my parents. 

 In any case, I can't wait to see all of my friends, and my parents and sister and kitty! And to visit my high school, eat actual Chinese food, make late night runs to MadFish with Clarie... =] 

 As for all of you Princeton peeps, keep in touch and I'll see you in three weeks! =P (Facebook or Skype!) 

[Also, how do I still have so much crap to do over break?! Whatever, not thinking about it now.]

*****

Edit: OMG I CAN EAT IN-N-OUT. IT EXISTS HERE!

Going Home!


For the first time since September. Wow. I still can't really believe it.

I'm a bit torn - I really want to see my family and friends from home. To sleep in my own bed, pet my kitty, go on MadFish runs and watch movies at Regal. Bike around, visit teachers, chill in SF... But at the same time, I'm happy here. I've made some amazing friends who I won't be seeing for three weeks now. It's going to be different, since I essentially live with them. It's bittersweet in a sense, but I'm excited. I still can't completely process that I'm going home though. Home. California. Wow.

Friday, December 14, 2012

I MISSED CLASS!


It's a pretty big deal, considering it's NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE. That's right, I've never been absent from class - at least, not for an unexcused reason, that is, other than a field trip or competition and the like. 

 I'm sort of freaking out right now haha. Not in a bad way or anything, just that I'm still trying to comprehend that I missed class. Like, I. Missed. Class. It's okay though, since I can get notes from someone, and the professor pretty much said she expected most people to be gone (and actually, there were like five people in class apparently). 

 In any case, since I slept through math, I guess break really DID start yesterday! xD

Wishes and Meteor Showers


Orgo today was a bit rough, and I was just so insanely tired up through being able to take an actual 40-minute nap after writing sem. Everything got significantly better after classes though. =]

LH102 reunion at Twist today - it was super fun. We did rose/bud/thorn and everyone seems pretty happy here, though the general consensus is that classes are hard, and writing sem sort of sucks right now.

TASAnta was amazing. Cathy got me and she found this glass mug that's pretty much a beaker with a handle. It's absolutely awesome and I LOVE it. I completely didn't realize until she pointed it out, because I saw KitKats and I love KitKats haha. But this was completely amazing, and I totally wasn't expecting something this fabulous considering TASA is huge and I didn't know who would get me. In any case, it was super awesome.
Dropped by DO to help people with "gingerbread" (chocolate chip) Catan. All of that orgo has, at least, made me able to cut nice hexagons. I didn't get to stay and play Catan though - holiday party/Marantha's birthday party with the suite!

Our suite Secret Santa was pretty awesome - everyone seemed super happy with their gift. Rory got me and her package didn't arrive in time, but she made this adorable small origami box and put M&Ms inside, so seriously, I would have been happy with that. The box is possibly the cutest origami thing I have seen haha.

Matt and I went to stargaze at Poe Field, and we saw a ton of meteors - it was amazing. I've never seen so many in my life, and a good number of them were bright and long-trailing too. We talked a lot about random things from our lives - scary moments, best friends, surprises and nicknames... It was just nice to look for shooting stars and talk for a few hours.

Despite math tomorrow, I think I can say that break has started. =] I just need to be super careful when packing tomorrow - can't leave anything here! =P

Thursday, December 13, 2012

"What happened??? Exam average was 50! We have to talk."


That awkward moment when it seems like your entire orgo class has disappointed the professor. But also that moment when you're just relieved you didn't fail as badly as you had originally thought.

Edit: I give up. I obviously just suck at orgo.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Three More Days!


I'm super excited to go back and see all my family and friends from home again! And my kitty and my sister's new puppy! I'm going to be so busy over break still, just with studying and Dean's Date assignments, and internship applications (agh internship applications) but it's three weeks of no classes and less stress. =] I'll be back Saturday night (my flight lands at like 8pm) and I'm leaving on the 5th? 6th? of January. In any case, hit me up and let's get together sometime! 
[Clarie - Yogurtland and MadFish runs? There's pretty good froyo here but the sushi places aren't as good and dining hall food is free... xD And Quickly - the boba here is sadly lackluster.]

On another note, I have an insanely strong support group here. All of my roommates, my friends, even strangers sometimes - they all care and they're always there if I need them. So guys back home, rest assured that I'm well taken care of here, and despite my stress with grades and not feeling good enough at times, I'm happy. =]

Matt - I'm still really sorry I made you walk everywhere looking for me. You're one of the sweetest people I know, and thank you so much for being with me during this past weekend. I really don't know what I would have done without you - as broken and confused and tired and stressed I was when you saw me, I would have been much more so had you not been there.

Life Doesn't Usually Work the Way We'd Like


And orgo almost never does. 

Just a shout-out to Matt for making my night significantly better after the test, because I was pretty much in shambles for a while. You're an amazing person, and I owe you so much. 

Also, today's XKCD pretty much epitomizes my life.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

My Friends Keep Me Sane


Quite literally. I'm beginning to think the reason I'm so talkative and love meeting people is that without them, I would be completely lost and just devastated all the time. 

I had an absolutely horrible episode last night - just laying in bed, ready to go to sleep when this urge to just cry washed over me, with these absolutely horrible irrational thoughts. And before I knew it, I was sitting in the closet with my stuffed animal and my phone next to me. Then I hid under the covers because it seemed slightly more normal should my roommate walk in and be completely freaked out that I'm hiding in the closet. But that wasn't good enough - I wasn't invisible enough - so I crawled under my bed in what little space was left there and stayed there for about an hour. I can't say I didn't realize how much I rely on my friends, but I can say that last night's episode, or whatever it was, definitely reaffirmed that fact. I really couldn't survive without them.

I actually think there might be something wrong with me.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Sometimes I Just Like People-Watching


And looking at the faces of all these people who will most likely be more successful than me. It's calming in a sense, to know that the world has so many people to rely on to make it a better place. In the bigger picture, I guess I don't matter.

Thank you.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

First Study Break Organized!


Organized my first study break for the Wilson Council! Not singlehandedly of course, and it was really just a matter of e-mailing people, but I still feel proud. 

On the other hand, Colorguard is looking VERY real. Eleven people with interest, so we should have a good group! This is much more exciting than multi or orgo haha. =]

Monday, December 3, 2012

Colorguard!


I think I have enough interest to start one at Princeton! Super excited!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Default Mode


It used to be that I was always happy until I had a reason to be sad. And even then I bounced back relatively quickly. 

It's not that I default to a mode of sadness now, it's just not happiness like it used to be. I just tend to be sort of mentally drained and a bit melancholy. In a mood of wanting to sleep all day even without actually being tired/needing the sleep. I don't like this. Two more weeks then I'll be back in San Ramon - maybe it'll do something for me.

You Are the Apple of My Eye



TASA movie night! A much needed break from multi studying. I can't tell if that movie was happy or sad though. Maybe a bit melancholy but also inspiring.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Friendship


I always love going to my friends' performances. Not just because they're all insanely talented and it's a joy to watch them perform, but because I want to be there to support them. My parents never really came to my performances or awards ceremonies, so whenever one of my friends showed up, it really made me insanely happy. I just want my friends to feel that way too.

Game Plan


If I get my orgo pset and WRI draft done in the next two days, I can study for multi over the weekend. And do my orgo lab report. Then I can shove in laundry, read some classics, read some more sources for my research paper... Oh boy.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Simple Pleasures


Amid my insane workload and wanting to get/make nice Christmas presents and having a ton of awesome events I could potentially but probably won't have time to go to, I really do just have to find time to appreciate the simple things in life.

~ Feeling awake and refreshed at 8:00am
~ Looking out the window during precept to see it snowing
~ A fun and fast adviser meeting
~ A nap between classes
~ Having a nice conversation with random people on the way to class
~ Shopping for Christms presents
~ Browsing a record shop
~ Getting my graded labs from Frick, finishing corrections, and turning them in all within half an hour
~ Working on a ceramics piece
~ Chatting with people at the ceramics studio
~ Watching Aladdin
~ Scooby snacks!
~ Washing my feet (hey, after a day in rainboots...)
~ Reading some good old Greek tragedy with a cup of hot chocolate

Despite the orgo pset/lab/test, math quiz, and 10-page writing sem essay due within the next two weeks, life is good. I'm really lucky. =]

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Holiday Season!


It's fast approaching! I need to figure out Christmas presents... Oh dear. I'll probably end up buying some stuff. I might make a few things. We'll see. 

 I still won't have a white Christmas... I can't wait to see my family and friends though! One of these years I need to spend like a week of winter break on the East Coast. Chill in the snow and actually experience the typical idea of winter.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Friday, November 23, 2012

On Passion and Debate


Having opinions on things is good. Being passionate about them is also good. But what's really amusing and sort of sad is how people get so emotional about what they're championing that 1) they're deaf to everything else presented to them and 2) they're no longer forming a cohesive argument and rather resorting to everything (even slightly altering their argument) and being contradictory just to prove a point. Even when that point no longer makes any sort of sense.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Thanksgiving!


I'm thankful to the Fitzpatricks for taking me in this Thanksgiving Break and giving me a family with whom I can celebrate this holiday. I'm thankful to have met all of the amazing people that I have in my life, and to be among some of the nicest and most brilliant people I've met in my life at Princeton. I'm thankful to have a loving family, supportive friends, and enough happiness to last my lifetime. I'm thankful for the help I've received to make it this far in life, from all of those around me. I'm thankful to be where I am, with the opportunities that I have. Life is good; I'm thankful for that.

I got to send a personal text to every single contact in my phone list. It felt amazing and really helped me realize how lucky I am to know so many awesome people.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Thanksgiving Break!


A super comfy bed, a cozy room in the attic, a delicious homemade meal, and adorable puppy... A super big thanks to Rory and her mom for inviting me over for Thanksgiving!

Ankle Mustache!


Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Tiger Compliments!


We have this thing called Tiger Compliments, where Princeton students can submit anonymous compliments about one another that then get published. I got one today, and I have to say that it actually made my day. =]

Hands-On


I really love making things. Actually working with my hands and doing something. Friendship bracelets, decorating pillows, ceramics. I just love physically working with something.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Fire It Up!



Bonfire today, and a really packed schedule in any case (none of which was really productive). Turned in my lab report. That was about the extent of the academic portion of my day. Helped build the bonfire from 8:00-9:15am, headed over to Target and got a sweater/gloves and Wegmans for applesauce/Danimals!/fruit cups, had about an hour for lunch, went to a TASA meeting, grabbed dinner and organized some things in preparation for next week, and went to the Bonfire! 

It was super awesome - being right up against the fence was completely amazing until the whole thing went up in flames and it was insanely hot. We got some intense pictures though. Have to admit, when the Harvard effigy started burning and it spread to the bulldog, which promptly fell off the outhouse, it seemed a bit like a cult. Well, there are worse cults of which you can be a part haha. 

Grabbed some ice cream from Halo Pub and a samosa from Mehek. Omnomnom. I really don't want to do work, so I think I'll just take a nap until the "Arch Sing" (read: frat initiation) at 11:30pm.

Friday, November 16, 2012

I just want to live a simple life.


So why the hell am I writing lab reports about 3-methoxybenzaldehyde? xD

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Hercules + Tangled


I got absolutely nothing done today, but I watched Hercules and Tangled with Matt! Infinitely more enjoyable than orgo lab reports or reading books about the Chinese cultural revolution.

The thing is, I'm not even technically screwed for work either - I'm pretty much good for math in terms of homework (though I should start studying), I read classics (and no IDs have been posted + no precept next week), lab reports and writeups for orgo are due Monday,  and my writing sem predraft 3.3 is due Sunday. The only thing sort of "imminent" is my final revision of essay 2, which is due Friday, and I've worked on that and can't really see anything super lacking in my revision (though I'm probably overlooking something and I'll be working on that tomorrow).

Well today was a really nice break. =]

I need to learn to stop trusting you.


But it's hard, because at one point, you were one of the people whom I trusted the most.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Note to self: People do care. =]

Buying Structures


No buying structures for me! Of course, that doesn't mean I got the structure... But last 10 minutes of class, like 15 people got up and ran outside to get the structure. It would have been pretty amusing if not for the fact that I probably bombed that test. 

Moving on. -sighs- I really wish I could have one math/orgo test that I can take, and not come back feeling like crap and thinking, "Well, it could have been worse, I'll still graduate." I'd just love to walk out of one test knowing I did well.

Edit: I'm sort of doubting my ability to do well in orgo. Basically there's no statistical way for me to get an A now.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Oh Life


Tomorrow's going to be interesting. Two birthdays and an orgo test. Exciting, exciting. I feel slightly more comfortable with NMR and a bit less stressed, but still pretty nervous. Also, drawing structures sucks. 

I love how the thing I miss most about home apart from the people is how I always had craft supplies on hand. Or pretty much having anything on hand, or being able to walk to Target and get something. I have an insane urge to make a pillow right now, but I don't have felt or a pillow to decorate... 

I suppose origami will suffice for now. =P Maybe I'll make a few pillows over winter break...

Saturday, November 10, 2012

BONFIRE TIME!



Boom. Harvard and Yale, defeated. First bonfire in 6 years! =D

Drunken Rages


There were two guys fighting in our hall, just completely wrestling with each other and slamming each other into walls and stuff. Lots of cursing and onward. PSafe came to break it up after one of the guys got shoved rather violently into our door. 

I wasn't really expecting this to happen at Princeton. I mean, I sort of knew it would, since it's college, and people get drunk and so on, but at the same time, I wasn't expecting to actually see it happen, especially in a sub-free dorm. It was more like, I thought I'd maybe hear of a really intense argument every few weeks or months. 

This is part of why I don't drink... Not because I'd get to the point where I'd lose judgment, or because my friends would, but because I'd be around people who do. You got into Princeton; you'd think you'd be smart enough to know not to do stupid shit.

TASA


Shaved ice study break was a huge success - we served over 100 people! All of the food was gone within half an hour though; it was absolutely insane. I haven't had homemade shaved ice in a while - we used to make it every summer. In any case, it was amazing.

Hung out with TASA people afterward - Holder is super pretty. TASA people are super awesome to hang out with too.

I don't think I'm getting any more orgo done today... I'm just tired. -sighs- Sleep, then an orgo-infused weekend! Yay! Also, a picture.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Wherever these tracks may take us...


Snow!


I looked outside during classics lecture, saw that it was snowing, and freaked out internally for the next 10 minutes. Walked back, totally not dressed for the weather, but was way too excited to notice. I'm going to get snow guys! Snowball fights, snow angels, snowmen... And hot chocolate inside while it's all white and gorgeous outside! Rory and Matt insist it's not real snow yet, but hey, when you're from California... 

I'll probably hate the snow after a few weeks of it, and especially when it turns to slush, but for now, I can't wait! =]

Friday, November 2, 2012

Cards Galore


Two hours of Palace (also called Shithead interestingly enough), 99, and Scat with Maegan and Rory. Quite a few random exclamations, including "Are you fucking me?" from yours truly. Definitely one of the most colorful and nonsensical interjections to have come from my mouth in my life. Super fun. =] We need a deck of Uno though.

In any case, must study for orgo and revise my essay 2 for writing sem (and do some research for essay 3) in the last two days of break. I forgot my next org test was so soon - I definitely feel screwed. Ah well, I'll survive (hopefully). xD

The Best of Break


Cards Against Humanity, Hearts, Spades. No-Bake Cheesecake followed with Cup Noodles. Insanely racist jokes and clips of Family Guy. If only this were all that college involved. =]

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

The Aftermath


Princeton looks pretty beat up, what with all the fallen trees, but we really didn't get hit hard at all. Plus we have our own cogeneration plant, so we didn't even lose power... While it was really fun yesterday to go out during the storm and just let loose, it's really scary to think what could have happened had the hurricane made landfall closer to us. 

Praying for everyone in south Jersey and downtown NYC, and everywhere else that bore the brunt of the storm.

Princeton. Beautiful even in disasters.


Monday, October 29, 2012

The Frankenstorm Has Arrived!


Felling trees, ripping open windows... Also, BLACKOUTTTT. But the bathroom light was still on. Hm.


Edit: LOTS of tree-ripping... Apparently over 30 trees fell over the course of the day...

Hurricane Sandy!


Having never been in an actual hurricane before (except the remnants of one once in Taiwan), I'm actually super excited. More so than I should be, considering it's being dubbed the "Frankenstorm" and is reputably going to be horrible. People in NJ and NY are apparently actually preparing for an emergency, like stocking up on food and stuff - the shelves of Walmart are apparently pretty deplete of food. 

In any case, Maegan and I totally stole food from the dining hall today in Tupperware, so I think we're pretty set, haha. Totally ready for a day of work and random card games tomorrow - I just hope the power doesn't go out, because that would be a total bummer.


100% precipitation and 40 mph winds. Bring it Sandy, bring it.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Fall Break!!!


The first night consisted of Cards Against Humanity with 10 other people, a huge game of Settlers of Catan, pool, foosball, more pool. It was completely insane - just going from game to game. Totally awesome though. Stayed up until like 6 just talking with Matt and Hansen (though to be fair, I sort of went hysterical and laughed from 5:30-6) about random crap.

Woke up at noon today and just chilled around with Kiran and Maegan once she got back from Leader Training. Maegan and I totally just hoarded food from the dining hall - bring it Sandy! Watched some Death Note, did some math (very slowly and painfully =P). Got three rather awesome Kiranisms. xP

Apparently Sandy's going to suck - if it comes with the cold front, it's going to be like a snow hurricane. Regardless, we'll probably get like a foot of rain and it'll be sad. But hey, we can stay warm inside our dorms!

Probably going to watch Cloud Atlas tomorrow with some friends, and head to NYC near the end of the week after Sandy wreaks havoc.

Life is good.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

FALL BREAK IT OUT


Well, I technically still have one class and a 7-page draft due tomorrow, but I consider myself on fall break. No classes tomorrow since math got canceled! I'm just happy to be able to sleep in for a week haha. Though it's going to be lonely without most of my roommates here... 

Richard gave me a ride on the golf cart he has, and it's freaking awesome. I love golf carts haha. He apparently needs to get surgery for his collapsed lung though, so it's sort of worrisome. I mean, he'll be fine, but it's still scary. 

In any case, it's Princetoween tonight on the Street. I really just want to dress up - I don't care much for drinking and partying and everything. Maybe I'll just walk around in a costume. Haha. 

Plans for fall break? Other than sleeping a shitton? Maybe head up to NYC and Philly with a few friends, chill and just take a much-needed break. I should study a bit and I have some homework to do, but hopefully there isn't THAT much. In any case, Princeton's not a bad place to be. =]

Golden Spirals


You know, I liked Fibonacci until now. I also thought golden things were nice. NOT AFTER THE MAT201 MIDTERM.

Edit: Yup, that midterm was bad. Oh well, moving onward.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Skipping Class


I always thought my aversion to cutting class was a great advantage, but I feel like I should really learn how to do it... It was such a great asset in high school and stuff - I never missed a day, was never behind... I got to say that I have perfect attendance even though no one kept track of it.

Not ever having an absence has led me to develop this weird "moral" code that pretty much prevents me from skipping class - it doesn't seem worth it, it's disrespectful to the teacher, it's bad time management because I shouldn't need to skip class to finish my other work... My habits have pretty much gotten to the point that they won't allow me to break them, or I'll feel absolutely horrible. But with the math midterm today, I sort of wish I didn't have this "problem," because the extra 2 1/2 hours I could get could really help me solve a few more problems and review some more material. 

I just... I don't know. I don't think it'll change because if I try, I'll just stress about not being in class and feel crappy. -sighs- Well, off to study a bit, then lunch, then precept and study more until the midterm tonight. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Well, This is Interesting...


Is it bad that my most enjoyable classes are the humanities classes? Like seriously, classics and writing sem always make for an interesting class period. I really do enjoy multi and orgo too, I think it's just because I don't understand half the stuff being taught... And I never really get to talk in those classes. I need discussion with people - I never realized how isolating math/science can be if you're in a huge lecture hall, or your precepts consist solely of individual problem-solving instead of discussion and puzzling through things with others.

Relapse


I don't know. I just don't know. Did I take rejection that harshly? Am I being crazy? Am I doing this because it makes me feel better or just because? Do I want the attention? Am I trying to get it? 

 I don't know what I'm doing. Why I'm like this. What happened? It's like I have these brief flashes of not being in control. I'm fine the rest of the time, but those flashes haunt me. I can see their effects and it's not pretty. It's not me. It's not something I would do, so why am I? 

 What's wrong with me?

Monday, October 22, 2012

Oh My Zeus


Teehee. I just wanted to say that. xD In any case, my classical mythology midterm seemed pretty straightforward, though I'm pretty sure I'll get docked for not writing enough... Not enough time in 50 minutes for 10 IDs and 2 essays. -dies- I got a good page and a bit for both of the essays and I should get full credit on the IDs. Hopefully. Eh, we'll see. =] In any case, multivar time! (After my orgo lab that is...) 

 Edit: I legitimately sat in lab doing nothing for an hour, waiting for my turn with the IR spectroscopy machine. 

 Edit: I'm going to fail math. No big.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

The thing keeping me going is the possibility of my being able to help someone someday.

Humanities?!


I have no idea how to study for humanities classes. Like Classical Mythology, for which the midterm is tomorrow. I feel like I know my characters and generally the works and stuff. But at the same time, I could probably know them a lot better. I definitely don't have time to reread all of this though, so now I just don't know. So many names and authors and places and stuff. Maybe I should have taken notes aha. Ah well. Midterms start tomorrow! Wish me luck!

Saturday, October 20, 2012

YEAHHH PRINCETON!



29 POINT COMEBACK FOURTH QUARTER. BAM.

Orange and Black Ball!



It was pretty fun - they had actual food there! I love stupidly not-dancing dancing with my friends. =] Chilling and talking and making up stupid dance moves. So much more fun than getting drunk and grinding... They had good music too! I mean, they had some Top 40 stuff - Call my Maybe, Titanium, etc - but they had Living on a Prayer and Don't Stop Believing and stuff too. It was pretty awesome to have songs that are actually fun to sing along to.

Speaking of that though, a friend's date was totally wasted by the time we found her at the dance... Ended up going into the bathroom and dry-heaving into the toilet. Obviously he couldn't go in there, so I ended up taking care of her for a bit before the Public Safety officer staffing the locker room called Public Safety on her. She ended up getting McCoshed (sent to the Health Center). At least she's okay though.

Played Settlers of Catan afterward for like an hour. Probably shouldn't have - I was totally planning on leaving after like a half hour or hour, but then I get caught up in the whole "drunk date" business. By that time, it was sort of like, I'm not going to get anything done at 1:30am after just taking care of a drunk girl... I need to super study this weekend though. Ahhh midterms coming up! D= But then fall break! Though most of my roommates/friends are going back home, so I'll be relatively lonely here...

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Sunday, October 14, 2012

This is why I learned to not rely on anyone too much.

Life is Hard


What's happened? I never thought I'd actually feel like I have a mask on. I don't know what's going on, but I don't like it. Maybe I was a fool to think I could handle this. Why?

Friday, October 12, 2012

It makes me sort of sad when people forget promises...

The Lion King



It was pretty awesome. The costumes and sets were absolutely breath-taking. The Book of Mormon was insanely funny, but The Lion King just dazzled with all of the aesthetic beauty...

Note: Ten-year-olds on Broadway command my respect.

Note: The ride back was so much shorter than the ride there. An hour and a half in contrast to like two and a half.

Note: I am slightly screwed for homework. And my orgo test. And I get my multivar test back in class and I really don't want it back.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

The Book of Mormon



York is such a quirky place... People from all around the world come to visit, so I guess that contributes. But the culture and everything - I saw pretty much every fashion and anti-fashion statement there is, people dressed in costumes for no apparent reason, people advertising stand-up comedy and strip clubs, shirtless guys modeling in Abercrombie and Fitch... It's such a fun place! 


My aunt and I shopped around Broadway Street and really just walked everywhere. Name brand stores on every corner, and every shop is at least two stories... It's insane, but so much fun! 

Went to a nice restaurant for dinner - the food was superb. Then went to see The Book of Mormon on Broadway. SUCH a crude show, which made it sort of awkward to be seeing it with my aunt and her friends, but absolutely hilarious. So inappropriate. xD 

I super love spending time here. I wouldn't be able to live in a big city like this - the business and the sheer quantity of people would undoubtedly stress me out if I had to live with it, but a few days here and there would be amazing. =] Well, back to the Orange Bubble tomorrow morning! I wish I could go to Boston, but I really can't afford to spend any more time away given how close we are to midterms...

Friday, October 5, 2012

The City That Never Sleeps


In NYC with my aunt and a couple of her friends! The bustle is a strange relief from Princeton ever-calm atmosphere... There's always so much going on here. Though I do have to say that the speed and the business of everything sort of stresses me out as well... But tomorrow will be a day of exploration and fun, then I'll most likely be heading back into the protection of the Orange Bubble!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Break Time!


Watching the presidential debates. It's really interesting and this makes me wish I could vote this election...

Pokémon!


I've been decorating my walls with Pokémon cutouts. It calms me down, but is SUCH a time-waster... Which stresses me out. So I can't tell if it's a good or bad thing... But now I have Pokémon on my walls, so I think it's a good thing. =]

Monday, October 1, 2012

Lab #1


Well, I finished. But I like spilled half my product. And it was retarded because it wasn't even due to my going too fast or anything. I was freaking trying to label the thing and knocked it over... -sighs- Ah well. it's not graded on yield, but my results are going to be funky...

A Little Heart


And a lot of pain. A personal reminder.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Maegan's Birthday!


Rollercoaster


I swear, every day here is one. You have your awesome moments with friends. Love you lectures and precepts, then you realize you have absolutely no idea how to do your homework, then you figure it out and are happy, then you realize midterms are in two weeks and you're absolutely screwed. Just wow. My emotions are getting a workout.

Studying


This is a problem. I've never had to really crank down and study before without knowing exactly what it was that I didn't get. Orgo's just one big mess. I can do the psets fine enough, but I feel like I only get bits and portions of material, so I have no idea what I don't understand and what I do. Reading the textbooks doesn't help much either. Our first exam is in two weeks. I have no idea what the shit I'm doing.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Waiting


I did so much stuff in high school that I feel like I'm not involved in anything now... I mean, I have CSA, PUCS, and TASA, but those are like, societies and not clubs/teams. I'm sort of waiting for everything to fall into place. Maybe I'm meant to do something and that's why I didn't get into the groups I wanted so badly to join. Maybe. 

 But meanwhile, my friends are amazing. They really help me forget all about my disappointment, and it's absolutely great.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

I miss California.

Rejected


"Sometimes, the happiest people are the people who are hurting the most."

I've heard it all the time, but I never thought about it. But in light of all of the things that have happened today, I really don't know. It was just so easy...

I can't help but feel that I really don't belong here, where I struggle academically and can't even do the things I love outside of classes. It was just so hard to find out I didn't make the team. I said I'd cry if I didn't, and I was only half-joking, but I really couldn't have anticipated the shock and complete despair that washed over me when I found out. It's wonderful here, but I can't help but wish I were a little bit better so that I could at least do the things I want to...

I almost wish I were back in high school, when I could still pretend that I was doing something and going somewhere with my life...

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Sometimes I really wonder whether I should be here...


Edit - And just as often, I find myself in situations that affirm my belief that I don't. Didn't make the Mock Trial team, and I would be lying if I said it's okay. It would be an understatement to say that I'm sad. And now I really don't know what I'm doing outside of classes, since most clubs require auditions and most audition periods are over. I really don't belong here.

Chilling with the Zees


Late nights watching Braveheart, snacking on animal crackers/Cheerios/graham crackers. Running! Horses! This man! FREEDOM! #socialcontract

Best zee group ever.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Tryouts! Tryouts! Tryouts!


Had my Mock Trial audition today. It was pretty chill, and I think I did alright, but I kept getting cut off... My cross was complete crap because I got nothing out of the witness - I was expecting to get at least 3 minutes... Ah well. That's what I get for trying out for both attorney and witness... 

Went to Triple 8 auditions today. COMPLETELY made a fool out of myself. The songs they chose were SO fast and they went through choreo pretty quickly too... In any case, it was fun. I doubt I'll make it, but I'm not a dancer anyways, haha. Danced hip-hop to B2ST!


I'm tempted to try out for like every group on campus... Conversely pretty much every group at Princeton requires an audition. Only the best of the best, of course. This is how we roll.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012