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Sometimes, you really piss me off.

I asked you if I could go over to a friend's house, and you said maybe. I asked again, and you got mad at me for asking again, but said maybe... again. So I wanted to clarify, and you got mad that I was apparently asking repeatedly. Have you considered that that was because you wouldn't give a straight answer? If you said no, I would have stopped asking. In your world, maybe might mean something concrete, but in mine, it means "I don't know."

I wanted to get a bike. You've been nagging me about learning how to ride one since two years ago, and I finally did, no thanks to you. But sadly, I can't get better at it because we don't have a bike that fits me. You finally said I could get one. Now you're saying that if I do, I need to bike to and from school? Really? Fine. If it comes to that, maybe I will. Don't blame me for not getting enough sleep then, because I'll be getting home late (and consequently going to bed later), and waking up earlier. The reason I didn't sign up for an A period spring semester was so I could sleep. But no, apparently I need to use that time biking to school because you don't want to drive me.

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I'm going here someday. =]

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It always hurts a bit when no one replies to my IMs. I rely on social interaction to keep me happy at times... Not always, but sometimes...

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I want my own island. =P

It's So Annoying When...

You decide that just because some of my friends don't get straight A's, or close enough, they can't get 2300+ on the SAT. Didn't you think I wouldn't be good at math when I'd cry by the bed every night because I couldn't memorize my times tables? Didn't you think I'd suck at piano when I'd cry every time I hit a wrong note? There's nothing stopping them from being just as good as they want to be. And if they don't get that 2300+, it wouldn't be because they're stupid. It would be because they probably didn't work hard enough. It wouldn't be because you said they couldn't.

Adversely, all you people out there, don't think you'll do well on things you don't try for. Trust me. I've tried it and it doesn't work. You don't want to fail before realizing that...

Merry Christmas Everyone!

I hope everyone is having a great break, and not planning on doing any homework today (unlike me...)! Snuggle up with a mug of hot chocolate (or whatever you drink if you don't like chocolate... eggnog?) and a good book (or your Kindle. Or computer, so you can play WoW) and just waste the day away. Fuzzy pajamas and socks, and a super fluffy blanket should be helpful too. ;D

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night! =]

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I would become a chem teacher just to say Snape's little intro speech ("There will be no foolish wand-waving or silly incantations in this class. As such, I don't expect many of you to appreciate the subtle science and exact art that is potion-making."), and I would join a track team to scream "FOR NARNIA!!!" at the beginning of a race. Call me crazy, but I think these are perfectly good motivators. =P

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My favorite fruit of the... time? =P They're delish!

I Love My Dreams!

I had a most interesting one last night. So basically, it was one of those overrated good vs. bad type things, except it was absolutely amazing. We were like in the wilderness, with crumbling mountains and HUGE pines, and basically, both teams were trying to get to some endpoint. I'm not really sure if it was a competition or what, but it was fun. You had 7 days total to make it there, so I'm guessing competition.

Anyways, so we had Clarie, Ross (I know, right? xD), and me on one team, then some grown-ups on the other. The cool part is we all had daemons, like those animal spirit partners from "The Golden Compass"? And they had levels too! Anyways, I had a lvl 300-something baby white tiger, Clarie had a lvl 100-something bear cub, if I remember correctly, and Ross had some type of eagle or falcon. I think it was a falcon. I don't remember its level though...

In any case, it was a ton of camping and hiking and running and stuff, with a LOT of heights. Funny how you don't notice normal fears in a dream huh... We used barely-secured ropes to jump over chasms really high in the air and everything!

At some point, I got separated from Clarie and Ross, and sent on my own mission thing, where I basically proved that a ton of people were wrongly jailed (except it was like a Narnian jail with satyrs and all). So that was cool, but at that point, we only had 1 or 2 (I forget) days left to finish the quest, so I asked if anyone wanted to join our team, and we got two new additions: some dude named Lolo with a lvl 716 weasel daemon, and a shapeshifter, who was apparently a noble in the place. It was AWESOME.

I don't really remember the rest, but it was a more jumping, hiking, and such. At one point we confronted the bad team, and that was awesome. I miss my daemon though. =[

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I had another dream about being in some science-y lab too. It was like, marine-like, sort of like one of those walk-through aquariums. Jen was there, and somehow she found a poisonous sea snake like in a puddle or something, so everyone was psyched about that. Until she let it go. In the room. Everyone flipped and the stupid thing bit me. -.- I think Brian saved me somehow, I'm not really sure. But that was pretty interesting too. =P

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Apparently when I was little, I used to sleeptalk, and sleepwalk on occasions. But you could ask me questions and I would respond. And not gibberish responses, but coherent, logical ones. I was SUCH a weird child...

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It's so cute! =D

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Sometimes I really wish I was good enough. For anything. I'm always close to being good enough, but I'm never good enough. A freaking 10 points, a 0.5% away, but never good enough. And let's be honest here. Who cares about the girl who was almost good enough?

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Every princess wants her happily ever after...

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There's something special about getting a gift that's homemade, or has a special meaning (even if it's an inside joke). It's also amazing when people remember little offhand comments you made about liking something, and get you that. It shows that they listen to you and put time into finding the perfect gift.

Personally, after I figured out what to give for homemade presents, I've felt better about myself. In the past, I've always just made cupcakes and such, because who doesn't like yummy desserts? Plus, they ARE homemade. But it's just nice knowing that you're able to give something special that won't be gone after an afternoon of snacking. =P

It's Winter Break!!!

Time to catch up on SLEEP! Yay! =D

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December 16, 2010

A Period - Complete chillax class, witnesses got called in to find out our team spots. Varsity defense expert again! =D Apparently I really fit the part. xP

1st Period - I got to sleep the whole class because I tested on Tuesday. =P

3rd Period - Calc test, which was pretty damn hard... We got our FRQ back too: 20/23 (forgot to bound a number line for the 1st problem, and make a number line for the 2nd one). But she's curving it to out of 20, so we technically still got 100%. =P The MC was really bad. She's letting us do corrections and get back 1/3 of the points we lost though. So I'll have a 90% on that test (got an 85% without corrections). I was actually sort of bummed about getting a B until I heard the average was a 46%...

5th Period - Mr. Hodges gave us See's candy chocolates! The presentations were amazingly boring... The second project went on for like an HOUR. =\

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December 17, 2010

Mock Trial - Spent the class partying it up. But not really. More just chatting and cam-whoring with Lisa for the last like 5 minutes of class because she wanted to. xD I got food too! I wanted to study for chem, but I just couldn't focus. Meh.

2nd Period - Chem test was alright... The FRQ was surprisingly easy, but the MC sort of sucked. I did alright though, 100% on FR and 85% on MC. My grade went up! =P

4th Period - Mr. White actually lectured... But it wasn't really dense stuff. He made fun of Asians too! D= Whatever, he asked if he could. xD And we listened to Chantecleer; they are absolutely amazing. Their voices are like... not real...

6th Period - We had two quizzes in English; I absolutely failed the 1920s quiz, and I think I only missed one on the Gatsby quiz. Ah well... I have a solid A, so I'm good.

Science Bowl - Pretty amazing as always; Tommy completed beasted... again. I got a few questions though! =P And Zach and I visited Mrs. Dillman at least 3 times to talk about my test, pick up tests, ask her questions... xD

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So giving out presents was amazingly fun, like always. I just gave goodie bags to like everyone, then candy canes to more people. =P Gave out a total of 7 actual gifts this year - Clarie, Ellen (L), Lisa, Robyn, Courtney, Zach, and Ross. Visited Mrs. Dillman and Mr. Hodges to give them their goodie bags since I didn't have them yesterday, so that was cool.
I had exactly two goodie bags left over, so I figured, screw it, I'm not doing anything with them if I take them home... So I gave them to Mrs. Foss and Mr. Sloan! Yeah, I'm a suck-up. xD
Zach and Ross got their presents "late" but really still early, since we have a week until Christmas. =] Dropped Ross's off, then took a nap. Then I visited Zach on the way to the last 20 minutes of Chinese school (only went to get the assignment and drop off last week's homework). And I got my present from him, which is absolutely HUGE. I wonder what it is. It's apparently fuzzy... But then I showed up and got a $2 McDonalds Arch Card, and a $5 Jamba Juice gift card. I find it sad that I can skip half the Chinese school classes and still be the top 5 or whatever they gave the JJ cards too... Ah well, not complaining. xD

So after Tuesday, even though I had my bio, calc, chem, and English tests/quizzes (the first three of which are pretty crucial classes atm), I just sort of fell into a "Screw It" mode. As in, blah, I don't care, break is so close! But I ended up doing alright on chem and calc, and hopefully on bio and English too. =P

I'm amazingly happy. Giving people stuff always makes me happy. =] Sort of sad I couldn't give DV people stuff though... Ah well. Happy holidays everyone!

And happy birthday Simon!!! =D

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Mr. White shared this with the class; it's absolutely AMAZING.

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Thanks Guys xD

So I fell asleep at lunch today, like, legitly conked out. And no one woke me up! D= I'm guessing they didn't know I was asleep or something, but I woke up and everyone was gone, so I was like, "Oh dang." Still wasn't late for class, but meh. xD

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You may be smart, and you may have lots of friends overall. But there are plenty of people who hate you. They all deal with you, but there's the whispers and the glares, and to be honest, you sort of deserve them. Have you ever wondered why you don't have any close girl friends who go to your school? Why you pretty much don't have any girl friends in your grade? You used to. But you pushed every single one of them away. You back-stabbed, you lied, you cheated and deceived. You're too damn competitive, and you're nosy as hell. You'll lie about assignments, and refuse to help others, because your classmates might just jeopardize your grade somehow. You trample over others to get ahead yourself. Hell, you don't just trample over them, you PUSH them to the ground. Your reason? "I only compare myself to the people I want to be like." And, -gasp-, those people are all older than you. I wonder why. Maybe because you spend so much damn time crushing people into the ground to ever respect someone your age.

You're damn manipulative, and you act like an angel while simultaneously screwing someone over. You butt your way into everyone's business and make everything worse. Even better? You ALWAYS have an excuse. You're seriously the only person I've ever heard say that you'd willingly give up a close friendship to help someone you're closer to. There's a point in helping your friends, but there's also a line you can't cross if it ISN'T YOUR BUSINESS. Stay out of other people's relationships and problems. Just because they involve your friends, contrary to what you believe, doesn't mean that they involve you. Hell, you betrayed two girls who called you their sister.

And amazingly, somehow, in every stupid little argument you butt your way into, you always side with the guy. Is there this inferiority complex here? Do guys present less of a threat because of the gender difference? It's girls who you worry about, because you're a girl, and you're getting compared to them. And so, it's girls you screw over, and guys you get along with. And lo and behold, that why you only hang out with guys. And why a good percentage of the female population at your school hates your guts. You used to have a ton of close girl friends. Then you used them as stepping stools - to better relationships with other people, to better grades. To benefit yourself. And somehow, there was always something wrong with them. It was never you, just them. But why so many thems? How did you manage to be close friends with so many girls, only to suddenly have severe problems with all of them? You're only close with girls that don't go to our school because you can't constantly interfere in their business, and they don't present an "immediate threat" to your grade. But there's a limit to your deception. You can trick a few, but you can't trick them all. And there's a point, however far away, at which your "smoke-and-mirrors" will fail.

I deal with you, but I don't really want to talk to you anymore. I've seen the crap that happens when people confide in you. And it really makes me wonder... Every time in the past, when I trusted you and sided with you, and believed that your friends back-stabbed you... Could they have been the other way around?

Christmas Spirit!

So I've decided that for this week, I'm going to wear green, red, and white in some way shape or form. Every day. =]

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If I actually drank coffee, this would make my day every morning... =]

PSAT!

PSAT was good. =] Especially considering I didn't prep AT ALL. Wayyy better than last year. =P Ross did HELLA well; he's scaring me now... First the SAT and now this. xD Anyways, I'm happy. Time for a nap!

Edit - So far, of people at Cal, I know like 7 semifinalists. All did better than 220, so I'll assume there are a few more who scraped by. But currently, we have Ross, Tommy, Robyn, Natasha, Natty, Mehul, and me. It's a good group of people, so as Mehul said, "I'm in good company." =]

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There's something seriously wrong with me. Every damn little thing makes me cry now...

Can't You Just Lend a Hand?

Every time I ask you for help, you make me feel retarded. You act like you know everything, which is why I ask you, yet when I do, you claim to not know how to do it, or not to have done it yet. You'll ask me to do something else, and after I agree, you'll help me a bit, at least up until I give you the information you want. Then you'll suddenly sign off, or stop responding. Can't you just, please, help me for ONCE? I'm sure you can... But this is exactly why I hate asking you for help unless absolutely necessary. Your condescending manner and superior attitude just really piss me off sometimes...

There are plenty of people I annoy for help more than I annoy you, like Eric, Ross, and Zach. But somehow, even though they might get annoyed, or be reluctant to help since they're busy themselves, they never make me feel stupid through any fault of their own. Couldn't you learn a thing or two about helping others? There's nothing special about knowing everything and not sharing the knowledge... And just because you want to do well definitely doesn't mean you should push others to the ground to get ahead.

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Dear God Higher Upper Being(s),

If you could please somehow, miraculously, endow me with the knowledge I need to pass this chem course without extreme exertion, sweat, pain, and tears on my part, that would be greatly appreciated. Meanwhile, I will go back to not understanding electrochem.

Mock Trial Scrimmage 12/11/10

The scrimmage was AMAZINGLY fun!!! The thing about portraying a witness is you actually BECOME the person. Like seriously, even though some of Dr. Crane's conclusions are outlandishly improbable, I still find myself getting offended when people insult them. So I only went in the first trial, and the cross attorney was super b*tchy and argumentative, but I think I held my ground. I was bailiff for the second trial, so no actual testifying, but I got to watch! It was really fun. =]

Highlights/Memories of the Day

First Trial:
1) The prosecution impeached their own witness... Indirectly, but still...
2) Draper wore this super low cut, purple long-sleeve top and stilettos. It was like, "Uh, what?"
3) "Exception, Your Honor... Uh... No exception, Your Honor."
4) The judge wouldn't let me use the exhibit! D=
5) My cross attorney was amazingly argumentative; go Marnie for defending me and objecting!
6) "The wound was situated 2 inches above and behind Angel's left ear, correct?"
"That is correct."
"And it was a quarter inch deep?"
"At its deepest point, yes."
"And does the brick found match these dimensions?"
"...(uh what?)"
7) Nick forgot where he worked... xP
8) Nick's answers on cross were ah-mazing!

Second Trial:
1) "It doesn't matter what hand the assailant used!"
2) Angel Sterling tried to cry on stand... It didn't go well...
3) The clerk was taking pictures while timing. It was weird...

In any case, it was awesome! =]

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Scrimmage tomorrow! I'm so excited! I absolutely love Mock Trial. I get how people compare it to Speech and Debate, or MUN, and such, but I think it's just so unique in its own way. It isn't so much an individual task, and while every "academic team" does require communication between members, Mock Trial really needs that extra push towards a cohesive unit. On the other hand, at the same time, you need to have your own individual independent personality; when you're up on the stand, or get objected to, you need to be confident in your skills, and you need to be able to defend yourself and rely on only your own knowledge.

Plus, there's something special about walking up to a classmate and being able to seriously say, "I'll see you in court." =P

Ahhh!!!

Next week is going to SUCK! Calc test (FR and MC for whatever chapter we're on), chem test on electrochem, bio quiz and test on "The Molecular Basis of Inheritance," APUSH quiz on chapters 3 and 4 of DKMAH, a yoga test on a salutation I never reviewed because I consistently pass out in yoga, and English project due... Blah.

Running total: 4 tests (5 technically, since calc has two parts), 2 quizzes, and a project. Great.

On the upside, I'm excited for the APUSH presentation tomorrow and the Mock Trial scrimmage Saturday! Although the APUSH presentation is slightly a bummer too. Meh, whatever.

Another upside, I MIGHT have barely an A- in bio now! Got 105% on the Mendel/Gene test. Mr. White was all like, "How did you do that?" I looked him straight in the eye, and went, "It's math." I wish every test were like that... It would do wonders for my grade...

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There's something about ice cream that makes it too sickeningly sweet for me to eat when I'm sad. I'd be better off with, say, a... steak. Yeah.

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This is a rant. If you're annoyed by rants, don't read it.

You complain about school. About family. About relationship problems. Just stop. Everyone is going through the same shit you are, possibly more. So you have a crapload of work from your AP classes. So does everyone else. Your parents keep bugging you about grades and getting on your nerves. At least they don't beat you to the ground for a grade that's been the same for the past month because your teacher hasn't updated it, or scream at you for never studying enough. At least they don't simultaneously expect more of you and tell you that you're going to fail. At least they don't abuse you emotionally and physically, at the same time. If you weren't ready for a relationship, you shouldn't have gotten into one. If your boyfriend is pissing you off, work up the courage and tell him. If you don't see him enough, manage your other priorities well so you can. There's not much you can do about feelings you can't help but feel, so there's nothing I'll say about that.

I don't have a perfect life either. It pisses me off when people say, "But you're Erica!" Yeah, I'm Erica, so what? I'm human too. I have problems too. I feel just as worthless and inadequate as the next person. I cry myself to sleep. I beat myself up for not being good enough. I have just as much school crap, family crap, and relationship crap as you do. I'm just like you, I just hide it better.

I post rants, because sometimes I just need to vent, but you don't hear me talking about all the crap I've gone through. You haven't heard about 5th or 8th grade, summer and fall of 2010, or last Tuesday. You haven't heard me cry at 6:00am out of pure, unadulterated fear. You haven't heard about the REAL reasons the things you asked about are there. You haven't heard the tears behind this mask.

And you never will. Not because we aren't friends, and not because I don't trust you. But because you have your own shitty problems to deal with, and I'm not going to add to those.

But please, just keep that in mind the next time you come crying to me because your parents, who take you shopping and buy you Christmas and birthday presents, hate you. Remember that life will get better, and could be much worse, and that this, despite what you think, isn't the end of the world.

But I'm not saying I won't be here. I'll be here forever, with a shoulder and a smile, and I won't say a word. How can I? You have far too much on your own plate.

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Sometimes, I really want to cry, but I don't. Just for you.

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So tests and homework and annoying parents and annoying people in general... Those all suck. But sometimes I wish that those were the only troubles I had. I don't know how much better I would feel if that were the case...

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Why did I even offer that when I couldn't get over this? I think I was so in denial I tricked myself into thinking I had accepted it...

I can't stop this sinking feeling in my heart...

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My parents keep talking about how I usually end up doing the bulk of most projects, other than my physics ones, and as much as I want to tell myself that my partners have done plenty of work, I can't help but agree with them at times...

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I am slightly annoyed now... I feel like I've done way more on this project, and it's a bit irritating. I know she has her English speech and everything, but I was thinking, she's put about the same number of hours into this project as Brian has, and not only does he also have the English speech, this isn't even his project. He presents next week for English, but still... Plus, you'd think she'd be a little bit more willing to contribute more given that she wants to raise her grade in the class, and not "Well... I'd rather work on my English speech, but if you REALLY want me to do it..." I know the English speech is a lot of work, but that excuse has gotten a bit over-used... And it's not like I don't have stuff I need to do, not the least of which is SATs this Saturday...

Of course, don't get me wrong, she's definitely contributed and I'm happy to have her as a partner, I just sort of wish she'd do more...

Inkless Metal Pen! =O

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Thanksgiving Break is Over?!?!

Whaaaat?!?! Blahhh. I like, didn't do anything this week... And I'm so screwed for SATs and my bio test tomorrow. -sighs- Thanksgiving Break needs to be two weeks long, like Winter Break... Ah, I wish... At least I got to sleep a lot! And eat a lot. And procrastinate more than I should have... Blah, I didn't finish all the homework and stuff I wanted to either... Stupid "I'll do it later" mentality... =[

Went to Brian's today to edit the video; it took FOREVER since Andrew gave us the files in a DVD format. We're not done yet either; I need to go over after school tomorrow... Sort of want to drag Courtney along since I feel like I haven't collaborated with her enough on this project, but it would be sort of pointless, since I'm the one who knows the layout for the video... Ah well...

Anyways, hope everyone else's break went a bit more productively and/or excitingly than mine... =] I'll see most of you in school tomorrow!

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"You're cute. Every now and then... There are times when you're beautiful too. From time to time..."

Awhs, someone's reluctant to admit he loves her. xD

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There is something up with all of the main female leads in dramas being complete airheads... I mean, I guess it makes more sense in the overall appeal if the girl isn't brilliant, but they might be overdoing it a tad these days... I feel like banging my head against a wall sometimes, watching Ha Ni in Playful Kiss... Ah well, it's cute! =D

Black Friday!

It was pretty awesome. =] I didn't sleep until 10:30 when I got back though. Yeps! Stayed up all night. xD

Anyways, we went to Target at like 3am and there was a crapload of people there. o.o The store doesn't even open until 4, and this is SAN RAMON! It was scary... But most of them were there for a flatscreen TV, so whatever. We got an iTouch for my uncle and I got some pajama pants. Because PJs are THAT amazing.

Went to Kohl's next, where my sis got a pair of boots and some tights. I found myself a very nice, big, fluffy, fuzzy blanket. =D The line was HELLA long though... I wouldn't have gotten my blanket if my sister didn't want all her stuff. I got to calculate how much money we would need to spend for my mom to utilize all her coupons and still get the $10 gift card for spending $50 at the store. xD But anyways, the line took us like 2 hours, no joke. The lady in front of us had a ton of stuff and she couldn't find a cart, and since she seemed nice, I figured that I'd go find one for her. Took a while, and I ended up waiting by the cashiers until someone came along with a cart that they no longer needed, but I got one! =P

We went to some Safeway a bit after to get a few drinks from Starbucks. Soy Peppermint White Mochas are YUMMY. =] Good timing too; after that line at Kohl's, I could barely keep my eyes open. It seriously felt like I was going to pass out...

We went to the mall afterward, and shopped around for a bit. Checked out A&F and Aeropostale, but they didn't have anything special. =\ Hollister was amazing though. =] I got a nice sweatshirt and Jess got a few tees and whatnot. I found like three of the same sweatshirts and spent the wait in line making sure I got one without any flaws or stuff. Yeah, my mom sort of trained me to do that... We passed these people giving out chocolate chip cookie samples on the way out of the mall too; they were sooooo good! Warm and chewy.

So yeah, nothing extremely cheap or such, but I got some stuff, and it made me happy. =]

Then I got home and passed out. Until around 1:30pm at least. Went bowling with Clarie and Laura after; we absolutely FAIL at bowling... It was so sad... But whatever, it was fun. xP

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Playful Kiss ♥

It's so amazingly cute! I miss my dramas... -sighs- I need to do homework, but I think I'm getting addicted again. Ah, these aren't good for my health... They make me lose sleep and do weird things with my heart. But they're so cute!!!

Ha Ni is SO retarded sometimes... Seriously, she's a senior and can't do basic algebra... -sighs- And Seung Jo is rather mean, but he's so sweet too! Seriously, almost every main drama dude is really mean until you know his sweet side...

AHHHHH!!! -obsesses-

Personality Quiz...

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Christmas Present Ideas!

Help meeee!!! xD I seriously have no idea what to get people for Christmas... Especially guys. What do guys want for Christmas? Blah.

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I absolutely hate it when people think they can talk sh*t about my friends. I might be small, but that doesn't mean I won't stick up for them. And if you want to come up to my face and tell me my friend is a loser, go ahead, but I might just punch you. And I may, and probably will, get beat up in return, but that won't stop my fist from flying.

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Sam Tsui ♥

Marching Season 2010!

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I can't believe it's over! It totally didn't settle in on Saturday, but I just spent a good few minutes crying. We did pretty well for a re-building season. I was sort of hoping for more in some senses, but all in all, it was a great season. I love all of you and I'll miss all you seniors who are ditching us for college next year! Thanks for another memorable experience! Get it guys! =D

To my guardies - Thanks so much for working hard this year! I hope I see all but two of you back next fall! As for the two who aren't coming back, I'll miss my amazing captains and best of luck in college! =]

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I love you guys! Thanks for a great season!
Go California High Marching Band and Color Guard 2010!!!

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The Pasta Feed yesterday was really fun too. =] Melanie and Ellen loved their blankets, and it was just an awesome time in general. Yay!

Championships 2010!!!

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1st place Marching Band, Division A
1st place Color Guard, Division A
2nd place Percussion Line, Division A

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So today was pretty awesome. =D Clarie, Ellen, and I slept over at Laura's on Friday, and we have these very nice comfy air mattresses. Woke up at 4:00-4:30 to get all our hair and makeup ready, which sort of sucked, but meh. xP We ate Froot Loops for breakfast! And bagels. And candy. Yes, candy. The bus ride there was pretty boring though; I fell asleep halfway through and just slept. Apparently my makeup was really pretty according to Clarie and Laura.

When we got to Stockton, it was sprinkling and rather cold. Like I-can-see-my-breath and I-can't-feel-my-hands-or-face cold. And hella windy too. So all of guard was really nervous because we don't have the warmest uniform, our equipment leaves are hand and gets pushed places by the wind, and rain just sucks since it makes the flags rather heavy and the rifles super slippery. We got these thin plastic ponchos too, which were nice because they kept us dry for the most part, but also very annoying.

Anyways, our first warm-up went... not too well. My personal one was pretty decent but I guess for the most part, everyone was just getting the jitters out and warming up their bodies. Second warm-up was pretty good, and the actual show was the best one we've had. Not amazing, although I could call it that given our shows so far, but very good. We ended up tying for first with a score of 78.5. So yeah, that was nice. =]

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We went to get food later, then I ditched the guard to play Publish or Perish with band people. It was super fun, especially since I had some pretty epic rounds.

So the first game, I was a Contributor, Graham was the Authority, Tommy/Giulio/Ross were Pioneers, and I forget who the Lunatics were. So the Lunatics got out pretty fast, then I was getting beat up by everyone, so it pretty much looked like the Pioneers were going to win, until by some weird chance, I happened to get some good cards when both Giulio and Tommy only had one credibility, so I took both of them out in one turn. xP The game went on for quite a while after though, so Ross just gave up since Graham and I would have eventually killed him.

The second game, I was a Pioneer, and I have no idea who anyone else was except Michael Frank, who was the Authority. Basically, what happened was I ended up facing off with him and we had this epic 1-1 1/2 hour back-and-forth battle until I finally killed him off. It was pretty amazing, but I felt sort of bad since I'm sure everyone else was bored as hell. xD

The third game was AMAZING. Tommy, Tony, and I were Pioneers, Graham and David were Lunatics, Giulio was the Authority, and Michael was the Contributor. Basically what happened after that was, Graham and David both thought the other was a Pioneer, so they kept trying to kill each other, and David thought I was a Lunatic, so he kept trying to help me. We went through a ton of turns with David just passing me cards (it's his ability) and trying to help me, so I thought that was pretty funny. Then Tony was about to die, and I was pretending to be a Lunatic, so I had to do something that would keep Tony in, but not give my cover away. Basically, I killed off Michael (since pretty much everyone wants him dead), and Graham, since David thought he was a Pioneer. But then Graham flipped his role card and David just sort of went, "Wow I allied with the wrong person." Tommy/Tony/I proceeded to kill off David and Giulio in a few more rounds. Then he called me mean for a while afterward. =[ But that was pretty fun. =P

So that was pretty fun. Clarie and Laura thought I was crazy, but meh. We kept having random people come over to see what we were doing too. There were these guys from Las Plumas, I believe, who came over because they thought it was Yu-Gi-Oh. xD Then they sang "Gee" and did the dance too, it was epic.

*****

We went to awards, and it was FREEZING. Tommy, Giulio, David, and I (and Truc later on) all huddled together for warmth. Ross sort of sat to the side by himself. But yeah, it was freezing, and raining, and extremely windy. We ate David's food (he freaking brought his track bag full of a ton of stuff xD) and just bunched together under umbrellas. Ross looked like a little kid in his jacket and drinking hot chocolate though, it was pretty cute. =P

The announcer kept messing up because "it was her first time," so that was really annoying, but whatever. Oh, and DAVID BIT ME. Twice. He blames it on the cold; he says he's not responsible for his actions. But basically, I had my guard jacket on with the hood and I'm huddling against David, and he bites my shoulder, and later on, he bites my head. I was like, "o.o What are you doinggggg?!?!" But it was... interesting?

I got a piggy back ride back to the buses though! I get one from him every season. xP

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Sleepovers are amazing! Especially when they're the day before a MB/CG championship competition!!! =D

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows! ♥

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This was absolutely AMAZING. Best one yet in my opinion, contending with the Prisoner of Azkaban though. Lots of action, and a few scenes are sort of weird, but it's wayyy better than the last three... Lots of humor spread throughout too, so that's nice. =] Anyways, it was totally worth it to go watch and be tired during school tomorrow/today. =D

*****

On the downside, I lost my phone. Again. But I think it got stolen this time, because I'm pretty sure that I put it in my backpack for photos. In any case, it's gone. I suspended service too, so no calls or texts. Just in time for Thanksgiving Break... -sighs- But if anyone finds an LG EnV Touch with a ghost sticker on the back, that's mine.

That really hurt...

Painpainpain

Yeah. My legs hurt. From lunges. That I did on MONDAY. I believe the pain has gotten worse; it sort of sucks. The day after, I was like, "Okay, this hurts, but I can deal." Walking up the stairs didn't really hurt, walking down them did, but if I did a weird hobble step thing, I was fine. School went through like that. Went to Courtney's to work on our history project, and around 6, it starts hurting like hell to walk up stairs. When I got home at 8-ish, I stayed downstairs until bedtime just to avoid walking up the stairs. I went to bed after stretching some, and figured that I would feel a bit better in the morning.

Boy, was I wrong.

I woke up this morning and one of my first thoughts was, "My legs are really, really sore." I got out of bed, and my knees totally just buckled. Walking up to Mock Trial was torture, walking down to yoga was hell. Walking three miles during yoga sucked really bad too... -sighs- Hobbled up the steps to math, and just stayed there so I wouldn't have to walk down until absolutely necessary. History was okay, since it was all level ground, but they still hurt. It got a bit better maybe 45 minutes into practice, but better isn't saying much...

Did I mention that it hurts like a b*tch to sit down though? And even more to get up? Yeah... I hope we all heal by Saturday, or else half the band will not be marching correctly...

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LOL. This is AMAZING.

Kitten Love ♥

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My aunt is coming over todayyy!!! =D

Dear Princeton Review...

I'm sorry, but your review books are false advertisements. Look at this.


Yeah, I don't think so. Maybe they left their makeup on from school. Lipgloss doesn't look that shiny unless it's been applied right before though, so -coughs-. And like hell anyone is going to be sitting up straight while reading about random cell processes and crap... And Kaplan, you're even worse. Do you see the size of the smile on that girl? Seriously? I don't think ANYONE smiles that big reviewing biology... Hell, I don't think anyone smiles at all reviewing biology... Or any subject, for that matter. I WISH I could be that happy studying for bio; maybe I wouldn't be failing the class then!

Now, here's a picture of a REAL AP Bio student REALLY studying bio...

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My thighs are KILLING me. Freaking lunges...

Call (413) 497 - 0164! =D

Just do it!

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So apparently I can't use two computers at once. A little background info - I was using Courtney's desktop and my laptop for a project, since I was making a PowerPoint on my laptop, but it doesn't have internet at Courtney's so I used hers for research. Anyways, during the about 1.5-2 hour period I was using both computers, I tried to move the mouse icon thing on my laptop with her physical desktop mouse a minimum of 5 times. And each time, I would be frustrated that my mouse wasn't moving until I realized what I was doing. xD

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Dub FX! =D

Sometimes, You Just Want a Hug

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I can hear the Cal High vs. De La Salle football game from my house. o.o Like the announcer, and the cheers. It's crazyyy. =O

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It really sucks when people take your words and derive a meaning from them, one that you didn't mean at all. It makes me not want to talk at all, and it takes a hell of a lot to shut me up...

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There are some days where I really just can't deal with anything. Everyone seems to have problems, and I really want to help them, because I just hate seeing them like that. But then that old feeling comes up again... And I just can't. All I want to do is curl up and sleep. Or drink tea and cuddle with a stuffed animal. At least they don't have any problems that I feel like I need to solve...

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So apparently I'm under "house arrest" for all things non-academic until December 5th. Hopefully I can still go to the Harry Potter midnight showing or else I will be legitly PISSED. I'm still really annoyed though... -sighs-

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I've been having this really weird feeling lately. It's not bad per se, just different. I just feel like there's something I should know but don't... And I've felt like curling up with someone a lot too... -sighs- I don't know. It's interesting, but I have no idea what's going on. =\

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So I was waiting for my mom to pick me up after I was done volunteering and raiding the snack shack tonight, and the moment I get to the front of the office, this girl is being yelled at in Korean by this lady in a van, and so the girl slams the door and like storms off. Then the lady, who is her mom, speeds around the parking lot and pull over near the girl and starts screaming at her in Korean, and the girls just stands there and is like, "Shut up! Shut up! SHUT. UP! I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME!" Then some stuff like "I told you I was staying until it finished!" and "Do you want me to say I'm sorry when you're SCREAMING at me?" And yeah... She got in the car though, but when it passed by, the lady was still yelling and the girl was like, "Can you just shut the f*ck up?"

It was sort of scary. Anyways, I just found it amazing that people actually tell their parents to shut up. It's really crazy...

Cal High Band Review!

So since I slept on the couch, Ellen tried to wake me up at like 5, but that didn't go over too well, so I fell asleep again. Then about 15 minutes later, Tappy jumps on the couch and starts licking my face all over, so THAT woke me up. xD

We had a little bit of trouble getting to Bishop Ranch 8, and some more trouble doing our hair and makeup there (given the lack of natural and artificial light at 6:30 in the morning), but we eventually figured it all out. Laura started feeling really woozy though, so people tried to find a ton of sugary stuff to shove into her system. Then I started feeling pretty sick, but it wasn't TOO bad; I just had a ton of mucus in my throat and stuff.

So we did the runthrough, which was alright. No drops, but I didn't toss the second triple. =\ The actual show, on the other hand, was absolutely HORRIBLE. I caught the first toss, then dropped the next three. I'd like to think it's because (and it probably is) I was feeling so damn sick. At the second toss (don't read this if you get queasy easily; skip to the next paragraph xD) I sort of threw up a little in my mouth, so I dropped that one since I was like... yeah. So then I was all like, well crap, I need to smile and I have vomit in my mouth... So I tried to swallow it. But it came back up. Twice. Which was why I dropped the next two tosses. Then I gave up and just held it in my mouth. While smiling. Blegh.

We had pictures afterward, which was alright, but meh. Laura, Clarie, Ellen, and I all went to the Target shopping area for lunch, since we had a two-hour break before our band review shift, but when we got there, we found out the whole area had had a power outage and was out. =\ Except for a few places, so we got food from Target and Bagel Street Cafe. Then Ellen drove back to the school while Laura, Clarie, and I walked (Ellen can't give us rides yet =[).

Our shift as runners was pretty boring. We went from the Commons, to the band room, to the Commons, to the Event Center, and so on and so forth. Except there was like, a half-hour lull between packets/runs, so I slept on a bench during that time. xD Went home, took a shower, read stuff for English, and slept for a while once I got home; it was nice.

Laura, Clarie, and I sold some stuff during the field shows. Three shout-outs and a lollipop! But it was pretty boring - selling stuff, that is. Watching the shows was nice. I wish we were still doing field though... =[ I miss it a lot... But on the upside, we got free food after our shift/the review was over! Clarie and I totally like, raided the snack shack and got a big plate of nachos, a hot dog, and a bag of chips each. xP Hey, free food!

So yeps. A pretty good day except the actual "competing" part (I should mention that we don't get scored for trophies since we hosted the review - we DO get judged though), but once I started feeling better, my day got better too. Funny how that works. =P

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I was presented with a very awful circumstance/dilemma today - What the hell are you supposed to do if you start throwing up in the middle of a show? Like, you can't randomly spit it out onto the street; that's just nasty. People would step in it, and I could just hear the judge's tape now: "Feet timing could use a little bit of work, line are pretty - Oh god, a Colorguard member if throwing up into the street." I just held it in my mouth after deciding that trying to swallow it wouldn't work, and I can't see a different solution... =[

My Rifle Is Out To Get Me...

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How pretty, right? I also have some very nice bruises on my right knee too. And it hit me in the neck today as well. Keep in mind that these look about 5x worse in person. xD

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You Have GOT To Be Kidding Me

I walk downstairs to get my damn chem book so I can do my damn chem homework and my mom starts lecturing me about how I don't manage my time well, and how -someone-, who happened to be in the newspaper, "manages her time way better than I do." Screw that, I just walked away. This is getting on my nerves. Stop freaking comparing me to everyone. Sheesh.

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I find it rather amusing indeed how I can legitimately scare some of my guy friends. Who are about a foot taller than me. But we all know that it's only because they're gentlemen and wouldn't hit a girl, or else I would be dead by now. xD

30/365

This Mandelbrot crap is impossible.

That Was Just Rude...

So Mr. J was asking guard where one of our members was at the beginning of practice, since she's always late because she's with her boyfriend. But even so, we don't bring it up because that's just rude. Then this other girl in guard just says, "Oh, she's outside making out with her boyfriend. She'll be here soon since we told her practice was starting." Laura, Clarie, and I were all like "...WTF." I mean, yeah, we all know where she is, and we aren't happy with it, but we're not going to tell Mr. J that. If you wanted to complain about her consistent late-ness, just say something like, "Oh she's running late as usual, but she'll be here soon." You still get the message across that she's always late, but it's not outright rude... Then when the girl came in, Mr. J was like, "Get in here and sit down. You can make out with your boyfriend on your own time, not on my time." I felt SO bad for her... It was sort of mean for Mr. J to do that too though; that's not something that should be discussed/brought up in front of the whole band...

Then when I tried to talk to the other girl (the one who told Mr. J where our member was), it went sort of like:

Me: Uhm, in the future, you might not want to tell Mr. J something like that, because it's a bit rude.
Her: Well, it doesn't matter, it's a problem.
Me: But still...
Her: I mean, if this gets her to practice on time, then I don't care.

Then a bit later, she comes up to me and says something along the lines of, "And I don't appreciate you talking to me like that. I've been doing Colorguard as long as you have and I know how this stuff works." And then some other stuff; I sort of stopped listening since I was pretty pissed that at point. Like seriously, I don't care if you've been doing Colorguard as long as I have, or longer even. It's just plain rude. It doesn't even really have anything to do with Colorguard, it has to do with manners...

Anyways, that just sort of pissed me off. I have to keep myself from punching something for about 10 minutes after that. This is also the girl who usually acts like she knows everything. And the girl who got kicked out of practice once for talking back to the instructor. Or so I hear, but I'm pretty sure my source (ooh, so secretive) wouldn't lie. But yeah, whatever. I don't care. I just thought that was amazingly rude, and then the fact that she wouldn't even consider how mean it was to say that to the band director, who then humiliated the girl in front of everyone. I'm not saying that it's right for her to be with her boyfriend during practice, but seriously? Please learn some manners...

Happy Halloween!

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Stay safe Trick-or-Treating on the horrifyingly hazardous streets of San Ramon!!! =P

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So trick-or-treating was amazingly fun. Lots of candy and cute doggies. And cute kids. =P Clarie's and my pokeballs kept falling off their chains and rolling down the street. xD We're lucky they didn't fall into gutters.

There was this one rather creepy house with huge figurines of like witches and stuff in front, and it was bathed in rainbow light. It looked hella cool, but it was sort of scary, so I wanted to go, but not alone. And Clarie and Laura didn't go. So I ended up going alone, and this guy meets me at the front, and tells me I need to go around the house (on this porch thing) to get my candy. Oh, and he called Clarie and Laura weenies. So I walk around the house, turned a corner, and there's like a SAW dude right in front of me, holding a (fake) sword thing, and so I scamper past that and there's a mummy with a green light backdrop behind it. Then there was a very warm-looking kitchen with nice, friendly people and big candy bars. =P And then I had to go past all the creepy stuff to get out. xD

Then we took random pictures with people's decorations and stuff; it was rather amusing. We also found a glow-stick necklace thing that we gave to Ross later on. =P

So we trick-or-treated a bit more, and passed by these who guys who thought we were middle schoolers, and one of whom pretty much was absolutely floored when he heard that I was a junior. Why he would be surprised by that, I have NO idea.

Then Clarie, Laura, and I all went to Ross's house to bother him and take more pictures with Mr. Waddles (!), so that was fun. xD I'm sure Ross was regretting the time we took from his SAT II Chinese study session. But ah well.

Anyways, it was a hecka fun Halloween! Hope everyone else had a great night as well!