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You may be smart, and you may have lots of friends overall. But there are plenty of people who hate you. They all deal with you, but there's the whispers and the glares, and to be honest, you sort of deserve them. Have you ever wondered why you don't have any close girl friends who go to your school? Why you pretty much don't have any girl friends in your grade? You used to. But you pushed every single one of them away. You back-stabbed, you lied, you cheated and deceived. You're too damn competitive, and you're nosy as hell. You'll lie about assignments, and refuse to help others, because your classmates might just jeopardize your grade somehow. You trample over others to get ahead yourself. Hell, you don't just trample over them, you PUSH them to the ground. Your reason? "I only compare myself to the people I want to be like." And, -gasp-, those people are all older than you. I wonder why. Maybe because you spend so much damn time crushing people into the ground to ever respect someone your age.

You're damn manipulative, and you act like an angel while simultaneously screwing someone over. You butt your way into everyone's business and make everything worse. Even better? You ALWAYS have an excuse. You're seriously the only person I've ever heard say that you'd willingly give up a close friendship to help someone you're closer to. There's a point in helping your friends, but there's also a line you can't cross if it ISN'T YOUR BUSINESS. Stay out of other people's relationships and problems. Just because they involve your friends, contrary to what you believe, doesn't mean that they involve you. Hell, you betrayed two girls who called you their sister.

And amazingly, somehow, in every stupid little argument you butt your way into, you always side with the guy. Is there this inferiority complex here? Do guys present less of a threat because of the gender difference? It's girls who you worry about, because you're a girl, and you're getting compared to them. And so, it's girls you screw over, and guys you get along with. And lo and behold, that why you only hang out with guys. And why a good percentage of the female population at your school hates your guts. You used to have a ton of close girl friends. Then you used them as stepping stools - to better relationships with other people, to better grades. To benefit yourself. And somehow, there was always something wrong with them. It was never you, just them. But why so many thems? How did you manage to be close friends with so many girls, only to suddenly have severe problems with all of them? You're only close with girls that don't go to our school because you can't constantly interfere in their business, and they don't present an "immediate threat" to your grade. But there's a limit to your deception. You can trick a few, but you can't trick them all. And there's a point, however far away, at which your "smoke-and-mirrors" will fail.

I deal with you, but I don't really want to talk to you anymore. I've seen the crap that happens when people confide in you. And it really makes me wonder... Every time in the past, when I trusted you and sided with you, and believed that your friends back-stabbed you... Could they have been the other way around?