I have a strong love/hate relationship with motivational speeches. I love the learning, the clarity, the understanding. But I hate not feeling enough. I hate recognizing these flaws, these holes in my being. I hate knowing myself, I hate listening and knowing the truth and knowing that I know the truth and still failing so miserably.
My heart hurts. I never feel enough. But what hurts is that other people do. That's my fundamental lie, that I am not enough, but that other people are.
God grant me the clarity and peace to accept these truths about myself, to reject the lies I tell myself, to give me the determination and love for myself to grow. Not to be "better" because to be better is to tell myself I'm not worth it where I am. But to grow. Not for myself, not for others, but for God.
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