I never until now realized how much I'd been controlled in the past. And with that, it's not going to happen anymore.

And yeah, maybe it's a little gratifying that everyone else realizes how shitty of a situation this is, and how shitty it is for me to be put here. And maybe this is another of those cases where you delude yourself into thinking people are your friends when your friendship isn't worth enough, even if it is worth something.