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My crappy calc grade, shitload of homework I'm putting off until the weekend (which is also a comp weekend), and screwedness for college apps (mainly supplements and especially those for EA) lead to me being sad and very, very worried for my future. I mean, I know I'll get into a decent college, just because I'm not TOO crappy of an essay writer and my numbers are, if I do say so myself, pretty good, but I just want to achieve more.
"Reach for the moon; even if you fall, you'll land among the stars." I've heard that, and while I get the meaning, I'm the type of person who, if I'm reaching for the moon, won't be content with landing among the stars. I'll be disappointed in myself; I was trying to get to the moon. I want to reach that damn moon. Although the saying doesn't even make sense really, because most of the stars are further away than is the moon...
Basically, I'll accept Berkeley and such, but there's always that knowledge that everyone, including myself, expects more of me. It's not so much that they'll be disappointed, although that hurts as well, because I've learned to not live for others. It's that I'll be disappointed.
Anyways, I got completely off-topic. Basically, me feeling sort of like a failure and just being very nervous, but being too tired to and not wanting to do any more work (I'm so so so very tired lately), leads to me watching Heartstrings. Jung Yong Hwa ♥
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