Even with all of my accomplishments and knowing that others looks up to me, sometimes I still feel completely useless and like a failure.
One reason I like helping others is because it makes me feel needed and appreciated.
Nothing ever seems to be enough. There are too many expectations to fulfill with too many opportunities to fulfill them, and it's just a fact of life that I can't take all of them.
It annoys me to no end when others don't try as hard as they should. If you're going to do something, at least try to do it well. It especially annoys me when the person not trying hard enough is me.
It makes me sincerely happy to just see you every day.
I haven't touched my piano seriously in over a month. I feel like a chunk of my soul is missing, but at the same time, I feel like it's unimportant compared to college apps and everything else going on. And that makes me feel horrible too.
I hate planning to do something and just getting distracted or falling into a little "I just want to sit here and sulk for a bit" lapse.
Despite my seeming ridiculously hyper and happy all the time, sometimes I could really use a hug.
My greatest comfort in life right now is colorguard. I never realized just how much I love it, but I almost want practices every day. No matter how tired I am after practice, or how frustrated, it's just one of those great joys that nothing else can replace.
4 comments:
Who does it make you happy to see? You're really vague :(
You're also apparently really hard to get to respond.
So I'll bug you with yet another question!
Why don't you just go get a hug on the days you need one?
People in general, person in specific. =P I like being vague!
Eh, usually it's a passing thought or it happens at home, in which case, what am I going to do? xD
I think my 92/365 applies to you very well. Hang in there! This too shall pass. & I'll give you a bigass hug later. (;
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