Gou Ai

Wo chuan yue jin xing mu xing shui xing huo xing tu xing zhui xun ni shi jian di did a did a da di sheng yin
Wo chuan yue jin xing mu xing shui xing huo xing tu xing zhui xun ni shi jian di did a did a da di sheng yin

Zhi tou hai can liu ni wei wo ca de zhi jia you
Mei xiang tou ni hao xiang shuo guo ni he wo hui bu hui you yi hou

Shi jie yi zhi yi zhi bian di qiu bu ting de zhuan dong
Zai ni de shi kong wo kong wei tui suo nuo ruo

Dang wo kao zai ni er duo zhi xiang qing qing dui ni shuo wo de wen ruo zhi xiang rang ni dou yong you
Wo de ai zhi neng gou rang ni yi ge ren du zi yong you

Wo de ling he hun po bu ting shou hou zai ni xin men kou
Wo de shang he yan lei hua wei wu you wei ni er liu cang zai wu bian wu ji xiao xiao yu zhou
Ai ni de wo

Shi jie yi zhi yi zhi bian di qiu bu ting de zhuan dong
Zai ni de shi kong wo cong wei tui shuo nuo ruo

Dan wo kao zai ni er duo zhi xiang qing qing dui ni shuo wo de wen ruo zhi xiang rang ni dou yong you
Wo de ai zhi neng gou rang ni yi ge ren du zi yong you

Wo de ling huh un po bu ting shou hou zai ni xin men kou
wo de shang he yan lei hua wei wu you wei ni er liu cang zai wu bian wu ji xiao xiao yu zhuo
Ai ni de wo

Ai ni de wo bu neng ting zhi mai bo
Wei le ai ni fen dou jiu qing ni rang wo shuo chu kou　
Ai zhi neng gou rang ni yi ge ren du zi yong you

Wo de ling he hun po bu ting shou hou zai ni xin men kou
Wo de shang he yan lei hua wei wu you wei ni er liu cang zai wu bian wu ji xiao xiao yu zhuo

Ai ni de wo yeah~ Ai ne de wo yeah~

Wo Chuan yue jin xing mu xing shui xing huo xing tu xing zhui xun ni shi jian di did a did a da di sheng yin
Wo Chuan yue jin xing mu xing shui xing huo xing tu xing zhui xun ni shi jian di did a did a da di sheng yin
Wo Chuan yue jin xing mu xing shui xing huo xing tu xing zhui xun ni shi jian di did a did a da di sheng yin
Wo Chuan yue jin xing mu xing shui xing huo xing tu xing zhui xun ni shi jian di did a did a da di sheng yin

~ Music for Life ~

I've decided on five, maybe six, bands/singers that rock. There's Fahrenheit, Danson Tang, A Chord (Xie He Xian)/Dong Cheng Wei, Comic Boyz, and JOlin Tsai. I don't listen to S.H.E. that much, so it's not on my top list, but their music's awesome too. Anyways, my current favorite song is now Gou Ai sung by A Chord. He's such a good singer! I never knew that, I always thought of him as Da Shou from Hana Kimi. xD Anyways, he's AWESOME at singing, it's kind of freaky, since in Hana Kimi he's all spiritual and quiet. Haha, anyways, I'm obsessing over tons of songs now, like Zhi Dui Ni You Gan Jue and Ai Dao by Fahrenheit, Ai Wo by Danson, Gou Ai by A Chord, and Say Hey Hah by Comic Boyz. I'm sort of over Jolin a bit, but not so much. I still like Shuo Ai Ni by her. And I still have Planetarium by Otsuka Ai stuck in my head. :D But anyways, Gou Ai is totally cool. It's the song on my blog as of now.

P.S. And now my sister thinks I'm obsessing over guys because almost all of the bands/singers I like are (composed) of guys. xD

Ice Skating!

I went ice skating today with Black Angel, Pink Bunny, Wooky, and Kevin, plus Shao Yuin and her friends. Haha, I seriously can't ice skate. Kevin did really well for a first timer. It was like my 2nd or 3rd time, depending on if you count that time when I was five and my sister dragged me around for a minute as skating. So technically, my 2nd time. Whatever, I can't skate. xD I fell like once or twice though, better than at Michelle's party.
After that we went to some doughnut shop and the Dollar Tree and walked around. In the rain. Then people left and Kevin and I were waiting for my mom, cuz his mom left to go run errands, and so he was asking me what color my mom's car is, and the Lexus is like... blue/green/gray. xD So he then spent the next like 5 - 7 minutes trying to figure out what color the Lexus was by pointing out blue/green/gray cars. Then he started asking what he should call my mom, like "A Yi" or "Mrs. Tsai" and I was like... "I doubt she cares...?" Lol. Anyways, all in all, a fun day!

Lies of Love

Have you ever been in the predicament where you find out that someone you liked, as in truly liked, didn't have any feelings whatsoever for you, and only asked you out because they knew that you liked them, and that the person THEY liked didn't like them back? Has it ever happened that you're just so confused, and sad, and just befuddled on why? And has it ever happened that the very person who you cared for, broke up with you and is asking out your friend, who also likes him? Well, that's my predicament. I've accepted the fact that the guy's an idiot and unfit to be a boyfriend of ANYONE, and I've accepted the fact that my first ever like, possibly love (can't tell because I have no prior experiences), was one-way and idiotic, but I can't see how to get my friend to realize that sometimes you have to follow your brain and not your heart. If she's reading this, I hope she'll figure something out. I don't want to influence her decision, since it's a matter of HER heart, but if the same thing happens to her that happened to me, I'll just be pissed. Pissed that the guy would even DARE to do that to my friend, and pissed that I couldn't stop her from making a mistake. So even though its a matter of her heart, and I shouldn't even be involved in this crap, I'm just going to put the plain, truthful, PAINFUL facts that I just learned today, and, if she's reading this, I'll hope she can make the decision that she won't regret in the future.
1) He asked me out only because he knew I liked him.
2) He never liked me, not then, not now, not ever.
3) He throws around the word "love" a lot, of which I actually half-believed.
4) I've come to the conclusion that he just wants a girlfriend, no matter who it is.
5) He is a liar. This is not an opinion.
6) He has no feelings for my friend that I know of, even though he asked her out. Refer to comments #1 and #4.
7) It sucks like hell to find out that he never liked me, and it'll suck like hell for my friend to find out that he never liked her, if that's the case.
8) I hate myself for actually liking him, and believing he liekd me back, so if my friend does accept his 'offer' I hope she won't regret it.

P.S. Pink Bunny, this is what I do when I'm emotional, but I don't usually publish it. Even now, I haven't published the whole thing.

The X - Family

OMG The X-Family is AWESOME! I like watching with subs though, since there's so many names for the spells/powers they use and I never know if they're saying actual Chinese or if it's a power. And I can't find the subbed versions.

Anyways, yesterday I was at our Chinese celebration selling raffle tickets, so my friend and I harassed people as soon as they stepped out of their cars. xD Then there was this awesome kungfu show and the black and brown belts were awesome. :D The rest were amusing but not so much coolness. I so want to learn how to kill people. Not in a literal sense, but you should get my point. xD There was this magic guy too, with his ADORABLE pampion. The magic show was cool, too, but I liked the martial arts.

♥ Valentine's Day! ♥

Little lovey-dovey day tomorrow!!! I can't wait. Technically, all I'm going to do is give out Snickers and pass out Valentines grams during 8th period, but I'll hope tha my friends get their Valentine's Day wish. As for me, I don't really have one, seeing as my head is floating in clouds of Asian dramas, and those are virtually imporssible. I'll daydream though!

I started a new HNB. Haha, my old one was fit to burst and I didn't even fill up 30 pages.

W00T!

We had a Chinese New Year's Party that I organized yesterday! People were happy. :D Stanley wasn't there though, so it wasn't as wild as it would have been. It's the weekend and I barely have any homework! I just have to write something for the Mirrors Book and I'm done! Yay! I always have piano though, which sucks. Anyways, I'm watching Why Why Love now. It's so cute! I so wish I had an Asian drama life, and Sling, I don't care what you say.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Year of the Rat/Mouse! W00t! My year has officially ended. :( Oh well. Anyways, Happy Chinese New Year Guys! Remember to wear red and gold to be lucky and rich! XD Eat lots of dumplings and clean your house! If you're Chinese, remember to beg your parents for red envelopes! Lol. My parents never give me any, but whatever. Anyways, Happy Chinese New Year!

Gong xi fa cai! (hong bao na lai)
Xing nian kuai le!

The Meaning of Life

Now it's time for my daily philosophical dose. :D

What's the meaning of life? Why are we placed upon this earth, if in the end, we all die? What's the meaning in thinking that life is just a series of events: being born, education, getting a job, retiring, and, eventually, dying? Is that really all there is to life? What about the happiness encountered on your journey to the grave? (ok, that sounded weird) What about the pain and frustration endured? Is the world becoming too materialistic? I see classmates treasuring their cell phones and Ipods, whilst ignoring or maltreating their friends and feelings. Has it become so that the word now relies upon material things, so much that many now shun the memories and moments that made our life worthwhile? Given a month to live, and 3 wishes, what would YOU wish for? A trip to the moon? Maybe a new computer? Or would you think about the world, be less selfish, and wish for world peace, for cosmopolitan joy, for universal, unending love? On Facebook, there was a quiz in which they asked you what you would do if you had 30 days left to live. I scanned through the answers, and guess what I found? All of the answers provided had something to do with ME. With what I, personally, without consideration for others, would do. There was nothing about trying to make world peace, nothing about trying to stop global warming, nothing about helping everyone around the world live a better life. In my Call of the Wild response written a couple of weeks ago, I responded to a trio that displayed all of these selfish, ignorant, obstinate qualities as seen today, albeit in a different setting. What has the world become? Are we relying on being selfish, and having materialistic things to survive? How many people would, if presented by a choice, choose something that would benefit everyone in the world besides themselves, as opposed to something that would only benefit him/her? Although this may be cliche, money really, truly can't buy happiness. The best things in life ARE free. You're closest friends pick you because of your endearing qualities, and with them, you share the moments that all should treasure - the moments of joy, of sorrow, of knowing that you have someone to have fun with, to stick with you through the times. Has everyone really forgotten when we relied on each other? Has everyone now become self-centered, wanting only happiness for themselves? What would happen if you were given one wish? Sure, some "smarter" people might wish for an intangible thing, like wonderful beauty, athleticism, intelligence, But how many would think to change their wish to unending beauty for myself, and everyone else in the world? For a universal intelligence, or worldwide athleticism? How many would find a way to help others in the world be happy, regardless of the boundaries given? How many, when give the chance, would truly put others before themselves? How many are truly good, unselfish, and kind? And how many would take advantage of these people? So tell me, what is the meaning of life? Because I have yet to discover one person who truly knows the answer.

Updates!

OMG I haven't written here for a while. Anyways, TIME FOR UPDATES! I totaly bombed my math quiz, but that's okay, because it's just a quiz. The science test was easy, and crepe day yesterday in French was AWESOME! Ross (dubbed Rossy Luo Luo by Pink Bunny) fractured his wrist when he tripped chasing Justin Dearborn around during PE. :( Poor him. I tripped during PE too, but I just skinned my knees, thankfully. I seriously can't run though, which sucks since we're playing softball. Anyways, HNBs are crap, and everyone wants to burn theirs! W00t w00t! Except Mrs. Goodhue. Like, I had her grade mine yesterday, and today I was like, "Do I have to turn mine in again, since you graded it yesterday?" and she said, "You can, but you don't have to right now. I need to save up for color copying." So I was like.... ok?
As of love, I still haven't found my fairytale. :'( Oh well, I can't be impatient, so I'll just be watching awesome Asian dramas since they're so cute and romantic and stuff. :D
Laughs are cool. I totally cracked up when I tripped during PE, which is a really weird reaction since my knees hurt like hell. Then I was totally hyper during lunch, so when Kevin came in he's like, "What's wrong with her....?" Haha. But anyways, I have the district Spelling Bee, ugh, and a history test tomorrow, more ugh. Life's cool like that though. I'm in a happy mood now, even though I have math homework, spelling homework, math olympiad, and Chinese homework! Back into the world of pain!

Yay!

Black Angel's birthday party was AWESOME! We played random games and the Wii. Then we took pictures of people jumping into the air. xD Go see them on Facebook. Plus, we watched Over Her Dead Body. It was hilarious. We were like the only people in the theater though. I loved the ending, it's soooooooo funny. But yeah, the party was awesome. This is going to be a short post though, I have to do Chinese homework.

P.S. Lisa, I think I'm going to watch Tokyo Juliet next. I want to rewatch Hana Yori Dango, but I don't know where I can. Send me a link? xP Thanks!

The Truth About Time

As we progress through life, sometimes we feel as if we have all the time in the world, whereas other times, we feel as if we possess no time at all. But as we very well know, we don't have a unlimited period of time, but neither do we have no time at all. We possess as much time as we allow ourselves to have. If we organize and plan, using our time as efficiently as we can, we can always feel as if our time is unlimited. Within the span of time granted to us in our lifetime, we can accomplish anything we set our heart to. We fall in love, laugh until we feel as if our sides need stitches, cry until we have no more tears, and become hurt so miserably that we'd rather be dead, trapped within the cold embrace of an eternal sleep. The time given to us is only a minuscule fraction of the infinite line that extends for forever. However, our lives are limited, the time granted to us is of a certain quantity. We must spend our time wisely, not only upon assignments and the occasions throughout the days, but for the many events that transpire throughout our LIVES. We only have a specific amount of time, and only so much time that we can spend upon each person that passes through our life. How much time do we have to grant to a person who has repeatedly betrayed us? How much time must we waste before we are convinced that our attempts are futile? It's only with decisive judgement and careful planning of the time we have, that we can determine the amount of time we should grant each person with whom we associate ourselves with.

The Ignorance of Living

We can never proceed through life knowing everything there is to know. There's always a morsel of knowledge beyond our reach, in the corners of the world that we may very well never discover. Our ignorance sets us up for embarrassment and hurt. Is ignorance a virtue, or a vice? It could very well be a little bit of both. Could ignorance ever be a virtue? Not knowing about things of which we were never meant to learn... but is there ever anything that we, as humans, should never discover? Is there some secret hidden from us by the superior force that commands this earth, a secret of which we would be better off being ignorant? However, not knowing things that our instinct should tell us would be an even bigger catastrophe than learning about things that we shouldn't know about. Discovering unknown secrets can be one thing, but secrets can be hidden, and the pain and hurt they cause can remain unrevealed. However, ignorance towards something we should all know can never be redeemed. If a close companion is furious with something you have done, but believes that you should have prior knowledge as to what triggered their fury, not knowing could very well mean the end of that relationship. We've all heard the quote, "Ignorance is bliss." However, I have yet to see this statement be proved. But are we to live our whole life ignorant, believing that it will lead us to be happy? Is there any way to LIVE without being ignorant? Or are we doomed to spend life being ignorant, leading us to the most miserable times of our life. As stated by Martin Luther King Jr, "Nothing in this world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance..." This is proved over and over in the events which occur during our lifetime. How many times have friends been split due to one's ignorance of the other? How any times have feelings been hurt because of a person's ignorance towards emotions? How many times have lives been ruined due to ignorance? But just the same, how many lives might have been saved during war, had a spy been ignorant of enemy positions? "A man's ignorance is...useful," quoth Henry David Thoreau. It could be that sometimes ignorance has saved lives, and also embarrassment. It is more often than not, however, that ignorance leads to suffering. Had the Americans not been ignorant of the revoking of the law that allowed impressment, the War of 1812 might never have occurred. If the British had been aware of the Treaty of Ghent, the Battle of New Orleans would never have been fought. For, "real knowledge is knowing the extent of your ignorance." ~ Confucius. No matter is ignorance is beneficial or malignant, one thing is for certain. To live, is to be ignorant. To be considered a human being, one cannot possibly aspire to acquire all the knowledge in the world. So, is ignorance bliss, or not?

Bravely Into the World of Trust

We can never determine whether a person will turn out to be our most trusted, loyal friend, or whether he/she will become our worst enemy. As Pink Bunny said, there's no precise method of drawing a line in real life. We can't put mathematical values or symbols on the vague, indecipherable truth. So, how do we get through life? The best we can do is to draw a faint, fuzzed line, the boundary of which we can appooximately tell if someone has betrayed us. It's like the lights of an underground city: there's no precise place where the light ends and darkness ensues, but we can know if someone has ventured completely into the void. However, given the sense of attachment we have entrusted to a person to call them our friend, regardless of whether or not they truly are, I believe that we'll always have a small rip in our heart due to their betrayal. It's like cutting a piece of string with blunt scissors. Instead of a clean, no-looking-back separation, you end up with shredded edges, desperately clinging and searching for the relationship that we have held for so long. As it is with a companion journeying into the unknown, we futilely cling to them, refusing to let go although we know it is hopeless. Sometimes, we go as far as to venture into the darkness, chasing after them, trying to drag them back into the light. However, due to the blindness of trust we place within our friends, ho can we ever determine if a person is truly bad, and a lying cheat, or if it was a slip of the tongue, an unconscious revealing of a secret? Is there even such a thing? How can we determine whether or not a former ally deserves a second chance? Do we have to abide by the rule that everyone deserves a second chance, setting ourselves up for another betrayal, and more pain? Or should we pick the hard way, saying that once trust is broken, it can never be repaired, even though we know that we would probably spend the rest of our lives wondering, what if? What if we had given them a second chance? Also, I've granted unlimited chances in the past, only to be hurt over and over again. Once we've experienced that situation, we place our trust in a container, unlocked only by both key and combination. As I begin to reopen that chest, I wonder, what if it happens again? I resolve to never blindly trust, to trust, but to trust with the knowledge that you can be betrayed. It's this knowledge that dulls the pain. It still hurts like crazy, and you still wander aimlessly, wondering why, but you know for a fact that it was your fault to trust the person, so you can't blame them, nor the world around you. So, the best that we can do to get through this world without completely shutting out the people around us is to make that fuzzy line, that blurred edge, and enter bravely into the world with the knowedge that, yes, I can be betrayed, but I'm not going to wallow in fear of betrayal. We have to go int the world with the knowledge of what pain is, the knowledge and idea we have for a true friend, and go from there. We have to travel into the world, aware and unafraid of disloyalty, and valiantly face the consequences of trust.