JUST About to Sleep...

And I turned on my Touch and 感 情線 from Magicians of Love started playing. (By the way, that's the song that still makes me tear up when I hear it.) Then I started thinking about dramas and emotions came up again (see previous post), and now I can't sleep. Damn.

Emotional Me...

So anyways, I was perfectly fine until the car ride to my lit class, then I started thinking about dramas and how cute they were and all that girly stuff about guys being so amazingly sweet and everything. So the whole car ride there and back, I was like, "I really want a hug right now..."

Then my emotions tend to get really screwed up every time this happens, so lo and behold, I almost started crying when I couldn't get on a bike today. Probably because a garage with the floor lined with uneven cardboard pieces isn't exactly an ideal place for someone who just learned to ride a bike to try to ride a bike, but hey. Yeah, I spent like 10 minutes trying to ride the stupid thing and I finally gave up and went inside and up to my room and seriously started tearing up before I was like, "What the hell am I doing?!" xD

But yeah. I just love when I get emotional. No way to really resolve it either, unless someone makes stuffed animals that can give you hugs on demand. Ah well.

Kitten Love ♥

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Day 22 - Someone You Want To Give A Second Chance To

Dear Everyone,

Yeah, you're included. Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone screws up somewhere, sometime in life. And so everyone deserves a second chance. I'd like to say that you only get one extra chance, and once you use it, that's it, game over, but that's not necessarily true...
And yeah, I'm a person who has a problem where I keep giving people chances even if they stab me over and over again. I like to believe that even if you're on your 49th chance, maybe it'll be different this time. You can't expect people to only make one mistake in life. Maybe one a day. But getting only two chances seems sort of harsh. Some might say that people never change... But I'd like to believe that all of us can if we work at it. And people might call me naive... I'd like to think that I'm just hopeful. =]

Day 21 - Someone You Judged By A First Impression

I don't even remember... I tend to revise first impressions pretty readily, so...

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Dear _____,

I'm really glad I got to know the real you and didn't keep going off that first impression I had. Even if it was pretty spot on, everyone deserves a chance to let people know more about themselves, and whether you turned out to be my best friend, a study buddy, or a total jerk, I'm glad I have that opinion of you because I got to know who you are, and not because I saw you once and judged you based on the feeling I had then.

Pretty Epic Day Today!

So anyways, Cory, Ross, and I went over to Simon's to hang out today. It was pretty awesome; we played some pool (after I learned). Had a few really crappy games, and quite a few hecka good ones. I think everyone had at least one epic game. Mine was when I pocketed all the stripes in 3 turns. xD But Ross and I still lost to Simon and Cory, because we couldn't pocket the stupid 8-ball, and Cory caught up to us. xP

Played some video games; Super Smash Bros and the like. Kept dying in SSB (I never did learn how to play that game xD) but I owned Simon and Ross in Soul Caliber 2. Then got epically killed by Cory. But meh. =P Had DDR too, that game is INTENSE. Apparently three songs on standard is a mile? Crazyyy.

Then we had our sundaes, of course. Bananas, vanilla fudge swirl ice cream, chocolate syrup, and maraschino cherries. =] Then for some reason, Cory was trying to tie a cherry stem into a knot using his tongue, and failing epically. Dared me to do it, so I did; it wasn't TOO hard, but it was hella frustrating at first. Simon eventually joined in later, but he and Cory never did manage to tie a stem.

So after a while, we got sort of bored, and so I was lying on the couch and everything, and the topic of biking to the park/Safeway came up. Then Simon, Cory, and Ross decided that I needed to learn to ride a bike TODAY, so we spent a good amount of time doing that. Fell a ton, and it was really hard getting my balance at first, but I can ride a bike now! Still sort of wobbly and stuff, but the point is, I CAN RIDE A BIKE. =D Almost ran into this Indian dude at the park though, sort of swerved into the tanbark. And I fell into the bushes a few times. And biked into a pole. And almost hit some cars. No trees were involved though! xD

Anyways, it was a pretty awesome day. =]

Day 20 - The One That Broke Your Heart the Hardest

Dear Mike,

You're such a jerk. You have no idea what pain you put my poor heart through. Actually you probably do. You burned it and shoved the ashes into a bag of used kitty litter. -sighs- You know, I spent a lot of time making that origami heart. Bored as hell since Jinx was asleep. =P Then you had to steal it and put it through that torture. What will I ever do with you? xD

"If you knew how much he loved you, you wouldn't be so quick to push him away."

Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind

Dear Dawn,

Only one other person will really get why I'm writing to you, and it's not even you. Hah, well anyways, I guess we'll see what this is all about soon. Not giving away the surprise! =D

AP Chem Summer Assignment

Successfully finished in one day! =]

Day 18 - The Person You Wish You Could Be

Heyyy girl. Remember me? I'm the you from ten years ago. It's amazing someone like me turned out to be someone like you. You with the great job, WONDERFUL friends, and loving family (even if it IS just Quenti). You, who actually has a life, but still graduated top of the class. You, who stays happy and optimistic even when it feels like life is stabbing you with a blunt (sharp? blunt?) object. You, who people still look up to, but with good reason to now. You're amazing. And hopefully, one of these days, I'll be where you are.

This is Freaking AWESOME!!!

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Sometimes I just want to hole up with blankets and stuffed animals, and cry every emotion out of my body...

Day 17 - Someone From Your Childhood

Hey Brandon!!!

Aha, hard to believe I've known you for what, almost 7 years? Crazyyy. Anyways, you're an amazing person, and I love hanging around you. =D Amazingly, I remember how we became best friends. Walked into Chinese school, saw you sitting there, and we asked each other, "What are YOU doing here?!" Pretty amusing, if you ask me. xD

I still remember all those handball games we played during recess, and you teaching me to shoot baskets. xP Then after I skipped, luckily 4th and 5th graders still had the same recess, so I still got to see you. And then I left you at Walt Disney when I went to Iron Horse, but we were like, whatever, there's still Chinese school! Then you left for a different Chinese school since they gave you credits... -sighs- I remember all three of us (you, me, Michael) were pretty depressed the last few days of class...

And then seeing you in the Cal hallway my freshman year? Made my day when I realized you'd skipped a grade and were in geometry, because that meant I could see you a year before I anticipated. xD Sort of awkward at first as we literally hadn't talked for two years, but hey, we're all good now. So just want to say that you're an amazing friend, and we're going to be friends forever, right? =D

*****

Lucy!!!

What can I say? You're AWESOME!!! You're amazingly nice and hella smart! It's crazyyy!!! So I've known you for a pretty damn long time too... Hard to believe we're going to be juniors/sophomores next year huh? Then we'll be off to college... Then to work... Or in my case, to the streets. xP I'll call you up and ask you to let me stay with you for a while. You'll probably have like 15 vacation houses around the world and be a trillionaire. By age 25. =]

Anyways, I never really talked to you all that much elementary school, huh? Like I remember we were friends, but not like, close friends. You were mainly with Jillian and Victoria. xD And I was off with Linda. At least, in 2nd grade. But anyways, I'm glad I'm closer to you now; I sort of wish I'd taken the time to get to know you better earlier since you're so amazing!!!

And thanks a BUNCH for helping me in math; I know I was hella annoying more than once, so I have to admire you for putting up with that. =D Anyways, you're an awesome person, and don't forget about little Erica here when you become rich and famous!!!

Enough is ENOUGH.

I get that I didn't do so hot on my tests. Yeah, yeah. I hate myself for it too. I know, I thought I'd do way better. Okay, I'll do better next time. Yeah, I know she got an 800. I'm sorry I didn't, okay? I'll take it again next year maybe. Okay, I'm sorry, I'll make sure I study more so I don't waste your money. Okay, I get that maybe colleges will want to see both. Okay. Got it. Okay. Wait... what? No! I won't fail my SATs! 800 on the math portion? Okay, I can do that. It shouldn't be TOO hard... 2150 total? Uhm, I guess. I mean, Jess only got a 2140... But... I'll go memorize more vocab and stuff. Sure.

Yeah. That's what I say. What goes through my brain is: Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?! Okay, I get that you expect a lot from me. But I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I totally bombed my French Subject, and didn't do that well on my Math IIC one either. I was hella disappointed in myself too. I looked it up and sort of just went, "Shit." But you know what? I get that. I don't need you to nag me about it. I don't need you to tell me about how I need a 2150 MINIMUM on my SAT. Okay, being honest, I can probably get that if I work hard. But seriously? Minimum? Jess didn't even get that. Why is my minimum higher than her maximum? Really? What. The. Hell.

Wow...

Such a failure. Seriously? Just... Blah.

Day 16 - Someone That's Not in Your Country

Hey Wayne ChiChi!!!

Aha, I don't call you ChiChi anymore huh... Anyways, way to ditch America for Taiwan. Sheesh, make us feel loved why don't you. It's been way too long since I've seen you; I can't believe you've only been gone for like, 3/4 of a year... It feels like forever.

But yeah, you're an awesome person, and a really cool guy. You can get sort of annoying sometimes, and you're also stupid sometimes too, but hey, aren't we all? =P You haven't updated your blog since like, you left though. Loser. And it's hard talking to you with the huge time change and you taking whatever classes and all that crap...

You're going to be here in 6 days though! I'll finally get to see you again, yay! We really do need to hang out and catch up before you ditch me again; you can tell me all about your adventures in Taiwan and mean stinky tofu vendor owners. xD I can't believe you actually tried though, that's really sweet...

Anyways, I'll see you soon!!! =]

Kevin Lien's Wedding Dress

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Day 15 - Some[place] You Miss the Most

I can't pick a specific person that I miss the most exactly. So instead, I'm doing the place I miss the most! xP

*****

Dear Taiwan,

I miss you like crazy. Even if you have daily 104 degree temperature. And lots of humidity. I miss your street vendors with yummy food like stinky tofu and zhu xue gao. I miss being able to walk a block and have tons of food to choose from, like sushi, yummy noodles, shaved ice, and boba! ♥ I miss the little road-side stores with adorable little gadgets and cute little animals printed on the sides of pencils, bags, etc. I miss 10 NTD stores with tons of random cheap-as-hell crap. I miss cute little shops with little music boxes, stuffed animals, stationery, hats, earrings, stickers, and pretty much any little thingymabbober you'd want.

I miss my relatives there. I miss my aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins... I miss Miki. I miss my friend, Wayne, who you stole. Psh. What a thief. xP

I miss your night markets with cheap clothes and cheap jewelry and cheap FOOD and basically cheap everything. xD I miss the random little games you could find there. I miss haggling with the sellers, trying to half the price of basically everything. I miss the mad, yet organized, rush of the unlicensed stall vendors when the police come by. 'Course, I feel like that's more for show now than anything, but hey. =P

I miss Breeze, and the huge departments stores with like EVERYTHING in them. Not that I usually buy anything, since it's pretty expensive, but it's awesome just browsing. I miss their HUGE food courts that are like heaven on earth. Seriously, the choices there are AMAZING.

I miss Taipei 101 and that one time I went up with Wayne and saw all of Taipei at night, with the pretty glittering lights and everything.

I miss the awesome waterparks and 10 story water slides. I miss swimming with dolphins. I miss the huge indoor swimming pools.

I miss eating shaved ice with mango, strawberry, kiwi, and pretty much anything you want on top. I miss eating tou hua, dan ta, and mian xian, and drinking bubble tea from the local vendors. I miss just strolling down the street carrying an umbrella for shade.

I miss you and all your awesome-ness.

Dance Battle!!! (After School vs. SNSD)

This is AMAZING. I wish I had a fraction of their talent... Anyways, this was pretty damn awesome. =]

Day 14 - Someone You've Drifted Away From

Hey CK! I remember way back when in 6th grade, we were like inseparable. With all our Kirby talks and Chicken language. =] And me naming Bidi! Sort of after Diddy, because he was always my favorite. Ah, well, we've both changed some, and I guess we just sort of found different friends later on, since we never had any classes together again... You're still amazingly awesome though, and it's great seeing you around during lunch! Just want you to know that I'll always remember you! =P

Because of You

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I Want Lunches Like These!

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Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You

Uhm... I don't really know anyone who needs to forgive me... Or rather, anyone who would have the choice whether to forgive me or not? But I guess there are probably people out there, so...

*****

Dear Everyone I've Hurt,

I'm really sorry for all of the pain I've caused you. I don't mean to, but I guess sometimes my mouth isn't attached to my brain, and I act before I think. I really hope you guys can forgive me for being an idiot, and if you need to punch me before you can do that, feel free. I really feel like punching myself sometimes, and to be honest, I think the occasional, good slap to the face would do me some good... So I hope you can forgive me and my stupid actions, and I'd love if we could continue being friends. =]

Day 12 - The Person Who You Hate the Most/Caused You a Lot of Pain

Hey, you there. Yeah, you. You know who you are. Why are you so amazingly stupid? Why do you keep doing things that will come back to bite you, again and again? Why don't you ever learn?

You need to use that brain of yours. I know you have one, you seem to use it fine when you dream of stupid things to do. All these elaborate schemes that just end up hurting yourself. Learned your lesson yet? All those nights you cry yourself to sleep because karma is a bitch? Decided to take life seriously yet? All those times you've wondered, "Why, oh why, did I do that?" Woken up from your dream yet? Every time you want to punch yourself in the face. Realized that if you do something wrong, it'll stay with you, yet? Have you?

Poor little girl. People look at you and think you're pretty amazing. But they don't know you like I do. They don't know your ugly side. You hide it pretty well, girl. But it's not fooling me. You're far from perfect. Far from good. Far from even decent. You know what you are? You're someone too scared to take responsibility of her actions. Someone who doesn't use her head. Someone people look up to when they really shouldn't. Yeah, that's you.

Every time you decide to do something stupid, you'll get caught. You will. You'll get caught and you'll hurt those around you. It'll all be your fault. Yours alone. And maybe you'll remember this letter and cry again, because you weren't smart enough to listen. Weren't smart enough to learn from your mistake. Weren't smart enough to realize that you shouldn't do it. Or are you? Are you smart enough to heed this message and remember? Remember that stuff doesn't always end well? Remember those times you went to bed in tears? Remember the people you've hurt along the way?

Wake up. Stop dreaming that dream of yours, and realize that the world isn't going to care about one little girl who gets burned by her own actions.

Funemployed!

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Crazy Piano Judges...

So I had my Guild testing for my Advanced Bach medal today. Ended up getting a Superior, amazingly (middle step in the top tier). I'm getting my last plaque! Plus I don't have to take a test next summer since I already have the ten years required for my Paderewski medal. I'll just be prepping for my high school diploma (which will be taken my senior summer, duh) during that time... It's going to be weird not taking any sort of piano test during the summer though...

But anyways, I thought I played pretty crappily in general. There weren't many major issues (except for my fourth piece, when I skipped like, half of the song), but I had minor errors in about half of my pieces...

Anyways, the judge talked to me A TON before I started playing, so much so that I was sort of like, "Can I just START now?!" She told me about her profession, and how she teaches voice in addition to piano, and how her husband and children are engineers, and how she's from Florida, and how she has a voice teacher convention in Colorado... It was just menial small talk. Then she asked me about Bach and why I like Bach, and quite frankly, I don't particularly like Bach that much... This is just sort of part of the testing I need to do. But I sort of BS-ed it and talked about how it's very technical and orderly in a way, then said some stuff about how Bach pieces weren't composed for the modern piano, since she asked about style. And she commented like, "Oh, that makes sense, you seem very math-oriented. My husband is that way, and he likes Bach as well." xD

Oh, and she got mad at me for not sitting on the piano bench right. -sighs- And apparently I was playing the wrong cadences according to the Guild Syllabus, but that's how my teacher taught me, so I didn't really know what to do. She wanted me to play simpler ones in three positions (basically the ones I did before I learned the more advanced ones). But whatever, I ended up doing the more advanced ones just because she was like, "I know you haven't practiced these, and it's not your fault."

Then she kept talking to me after every piece I played for the first four, and even interrupted me and rambled for about a minute or two between my second scale and the actual corresponding piece... All while she was talking, I was trying to remember what song I was getting ready to play.

So as I was saying, in between my third and fourth pieces, she was talking about the cadences again, so I got totally distracted and screwed up my fourth piece, and paused for a while, when she told me to move on. Since I was only about halfway through the piece, I asked her if I could start a few measures after where I messed up, and she said that it would "break up the flow" of the piece. Then I asked if I could start over again, and she said that "we NEVER start over again!" So basically, she was telling me to scrap that piece, which made me hella nervous since it was actually one of the pieces I usually play the best. So I basically played the last line, since she wouldn't let me do anything more than that. -.-

But anyways, the songs I usually have the most problems with, I actually played pretty well. Which was ironic. But overall, from my point of view, I did pretty crappily. But according to my score, I did well. So whatever. xD

*****

On a different note (haha, get it? Note? xP), even though I usually spend most of my time in my room, there's a slight difference between wanting to stay in my room, and staying in my room because I don't want to go out. Bleh.

Yummy!

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This makes me unbelievably happy. I have way more than two popsicles, but I wasn't about to empty four more boxes to take pictures of them. xD


Guess this is what happens when you freeze a Jamba Juice, and the lid is still attached. Call me weird, but I thought it was amazingly cool.

Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To

I really have nothing really meaningful for this letter, nor do I really even have someone in mind that I would want to talk to at this moment (I'm sure I could think of something, but I'm lazy). So...

*****

Dear Amelia Earhart,

I really admire your daring and bravery. And I have one question. What the hell happened to you?!

Day 10 - Someone You Don't Talk to as Much as You'd Like To

Dear Slingy,

Hey! I know we don't talk much anymore... =[ Partly it's because we go to different schools, and we've both undoubtedly been hella busy with school and all that crap. Anyways, I feel like we have TONS to catch up on; I can't remember the last time I actually talked to you, isn't that sad? I was hoping we could catch up over summer, but what with all the summer homework and SAT prep both of us are probably doing (or putting off, in my case), that might be sort of hard too...

I feel like my main connection with you right now is reading your blog. Daily. xP Yes, your meimei has turned into a creepy stalker. But only for you! ♥ I still remember me wanting to climb that weird archway in the Marketplace and you telling me to not be stupid. And use my common sense. I've taken that suggestion to heart! Err... -coughs- -finds and dusts off common sense- Partly. Sort of. Maybe not as much as I should. xD

Uhm... I know you're hard on yourself (aren't we all, really?), but just to say, you're a really amazing person and there's never going to be a need for you to feel badly about yourself. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise! I love you jiejie!

On a different topic, four months!!! I'm happy for you, you guys are definitely one of the most perfect couples I've ever seen or will seen. =]

Anyways, it's good to know you're doing well, and I hope you're having tons of fun in Malaysia/Singapore!

Love lots,
Erica ♥

KPop Mash 2010

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^ That's pretty damn awesome. =]

Kitten Love ♥

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Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet

Dear Drama Boy,

Yeah, you. The guy in dramas who girls always wish actually existed. The one who protects and loves his girl more than anything else in life, even more than life itself. You have lots of faces, but it's always you. I really wish you'd turn up in MY life, and bring back some lost hope for the girls I know. You're so amazingly sweet, it's hard for any girl to not love you.

I just want to meet you. I don't care so much if the one you love isn't me, but just to meet you and know there are still guys like you in the world... Wouldn't that be ideal? It's just... There's been so many cases where my friends have been hurt by jerks and losers, it'd hard to believe that someone like you would still exist. You really should just turn up and prove that you're still alive. Bring back some hope!

But you're the guy who would give a shoulder to cry on. Someone who would listen to his girl fume over the same, tedious dramas. Someone who would hug her tight and never want to let her go. Someone who would brighten up her day, and bring a smile to her face even in the worst of times. You're the guy who would give all of us romantics some hope. The one who would spontaneously think of some little thing just to make your girl's life better. The one who would randomly pull her in for a hug, whisper "I love you" in her ear, and send shivers down her spine.

You'd be the one with the charismatic charm. You'd be Richie from "Magicians of Love," Domyouji from "Hana Yori Dango," Quan from "Hana Kimi." You'd be the one staying up late to talk to your girl, the one who'd pick her over sleep any time. You'd be the one she could call at any time, and you'd listen no matter how sleepy you were. You'd be the one to sort her out when she's so messed up, she can't tell up from down. You'd be the one to love her without losing the playful touch that exists between friends. You'd be yourself, and not go with the flow just because it's expected of you. You'd love her like she deserves to be loved, because you know she deserves it. You'd be the one to run a mile in the rain to give her a hug and make sure she's okay. You'd be a drama boy.


...And you would be perfect.

Day 8 - My Favorite Internet Friend (The Friend I Talk to The Most Online)

Dear Zachary James Straus,

You're a loser. But it's okay, because you're an awesome loser. =D Uhm... I love our random conversations. And your topics, since you always end up choosing them. xP You're a really easy person to talk to, so that's pretty awesome. It's good knowing you'll be there when I need to talk to you. And when I need help on physics homework. Which I won't anymore, because I am DONE with physics. FOREVER. Yay! Although I'll probably bug you for help in calc next year. Uhm... Conversations at 4am are pretty cool, even though by then we're either completely delusional (no change there for you) or have passed out (heehee). But it's cool knowing I can call you at pretty much any hour of the day and you won't mind. xD And yes, talking to you DOES make me happy.

But I'll go through Zach withdrawal for 11 days soon. =[ Actually, what am I saying? No Zach! Heck yeah! xP But really? I'll miss you while you're off in the Galapagos. Loser. Ditching me to go have the time of your life. xD You need to have another party!!! With more water balloons; those were pretty fun indeed. And poppers. And nerf gun fights. And me owning you at Blockus, because I'm just that awesome. =]

I love how we're always such idiots. Awesome typos and acronym fails. (I forgot the word for an "acronym," the word that kept coming up was "anagram." xD) But one day, I'm going to give you an insanely hard test and surround you with glaring parents/teachers, girls, and failed assignments. =D It'll be payback for scaring me so much during Higurashi. Loser.

But anyways, you're a really cool person, and I'm glad I met you. You're amazingly nice and helpful. But you're still an insensitive jerk. So nyeh. And you're a creeper. Walking around in a heavy duty black coat. And standing at people's bedsides, watching them, while they sleep. And hiding out in a box in the bushes. Glad I know a stalker. Hard to believe you're shy, Mr. I-Hang-People-Upside-Down-Because-I-Feel-Like-It. Not to mention your other annoying habits, like poking and tickling people. And picking them up randomly. Jerk. So yeah, in fear of constantly repeating myself, I think I'll stop here.

I love you loser! But positively, negatively, or neutrally? That is the question. ;D

Day 7 - Your Ex-Boyfriend/Crush

Hey Kevin,

Hm. Not really sure what happened would even define you as my ex-boyfriend? I'm thinking most probably not; we didn't really do much. xD Well, you're a really cool guy. I have to say I had some suspicions/doubts about you, considering the end of the whole thing, and I guess I might have sort of shown a bit of animosity towards you even without meaning to. But hey, we're all good now.

So yep. I don't see you around much anymore; it's sort of sad. Maybe we'll get some classes together again next year? And what's up with you and your consistent late-ness to math? Westley's class is pretty much one level up, a few doors down from Shack. Meh, whatever. You just have problems with time. =P

But yeah, not much to say on this topic. Normally, I would probably be like, glad we can stay on friendly terms after a relationship, seeing as lots of people don't, but then I don't think what we had qualifies as a relationship. So meh. Well, I'll see you in the fall, and have a great summer! =D

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni

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So yep. Three-day anime marathon. Probably closer to two days though, seeing as we started at 8pm Friday and ended at 7pm on Sunday. Anyways, the anime was pretty creepy at times, but not even close to how creepy I thought it was going to be. It was good though. The beginning was definitely weird, since you had absolutely not idea what was going on. I was able to figure out the general gist of things, but it was still sort of like, "What the hell is happening?" There's actually still a few things that I can't figure out but meh.

So I slept over at Clarie's the first night, and it was awesome. Girl sleepovers normally consist of gossip and boys and stuff right? At least one would assume. Ours consisted of Ya Tou's amazingly high voice, how we blow our noses, and how pregnancy lasts for 9 (not 10) months. Got to say, that last thing was such a fail on Clarie's part. xD

Second night, we ended up sleeping over at Zach's place. Uhm... Clarie and I were both pretty tired so we talked for a while and then I sang some random songs and then we both passed out. =P Then apparently Clarie woke up three hours before me and just walked around, then tried to wake me up by poking me and stuff, and I didn't wake up at all until like 12:30, which is actually a decent time for me.

After we finished Higurashi, we played some Blockus, which was pretty fun, and Zach and I had this mini Nerf gun fight. Which didn't turn out well for me, because every time I tried to shoot him more than once, he'd just sort of tackle me and wrestle the gun away. Loser. -.- Clarie didn't want to get involved (smart), so she just sort of sat to the side.

Anyways, it was fun. Good way to start off a summer, even if that summer is full of homework and SAT prep. xD

Kitten Love ♥

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Day 6 - A Stranger

Heyyy, what's up? I'm Erica. Guess you don't know me huh? What type of question is that, of course you don't know me! But hey, now you do. =D So yep, you're probably thinking I'm really weird right now, but whatever. Anyways, interesting way to have met you huh? Sort of wonder how crazy you think I am right now, but I assure you, I'm perfectly sane... In medical terms at least. Well, I hope I see you around!

Day 5 - My Dreams

This is a day late; I was at my friend's house all yesterday having an anime marathon. ;D Anyways, are we talking life goals or like, comatose hallucination dreams? Meh, I'll get to both.

College: You're coming up! After I get out of high school, here you come! Probably Berkeley at this rate, but meh, you never know. At any rate, I'm going to get into a good college and continue being awesome! =D

Future Job: I currently have absolutely no idea what you are. Hopefully something I'll love doing. Although with my indecisive nature, I might have multiple. Hm. We'll see about that. xP

Family: I'll find a guy I love, and that's about the farthest I've gone with that.

I don't have many like, specific life goals in mind. Pretty much, all I know definitively about my future is that I want to be happy, but doesn't everyone?

As for my comatose hallucinations, a single comment. You guys are SO weird.

Day 4 - Sibling (Sister)

Dear Jess,

I've got to say, you're one of the most AMAZING people I've ever known, and probably ever will know, in my life. Even if we did argue and fight like crazy the first... 9-ish years of my life, I love how I can tell you anything now. I know that you're always there for me. You're seriously my role model. Even though I know you weren't happy with where you were in life a while back, I have to say that you're amazingly determined and motivated, and you can help your hobo little sister in the future. xP You're amazingly pretty, smart, and considerate of others; I really look up to you.

I love how much fun we have together; I still remember that fail rendition of "Lord of the Rings" way back when, what with me and my fail memory and "intermission" song... ("It's Gimli, not Gomli!!!" Remember that?) I don't see/talk to you nearly enough now; I guess that's college's fault... I really doubt I could live without you though; you're such an integral part of my life. You're an amazing person, and I love you forever!

Gotta say, guys may be idiots, but they're so amazingly cute and sweet at times...

Kitten Love ♥

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Summer... Is Here?

It seriously does NOT feel like summer! I'm seriously in the mindset that I still have to go to school tomorrow. Well, I still have all that summer homework to finish. Which I will try to do all the week before school starts. It will not end well. xD

So Ross, Peter, and I went to visit teachers at IH today. There was like no one there though, on account that they got out at around 11:40... Ah well. Then Tommy showed up, so we ditched him to go to the new playground. xP That place is amazing. Peter, Ross, and I just sat on top of that geometric shape thing with the ropes. Met a kid I used to tutor, Calvin, and his friend Nikolai. I was sitting on top of that same weirdly shaped object thing with them, and this little girl climbs up to us, and almost falls through the middle of the structure, since it's not solid, and is just some ropes. I think my heart almost stopped for a while there before I was able to pull her up into my lap. I think my thoughts went about like, "Oh SH*T!!! -grabs arms-" Like seriously, I was SO scared she was going to fall. Then I played tag with Calvin and Nikolai. =P It was pretty cool. Apparently Peter thinks I now have Pedobear's stamp of approval? Ew.

Went to the Marketplace after, more specifically RoundTable, and ate pizza. Yum. We sort of had an interesting time examining all the grease and crap though. That stuff would probably give a five year old a heart attack if he ate it enough. Yeah, scary. Oh, and Ross signed my yearbook. "I am stupid. -Ross" He's going to regret it. xP

So yep, I have some stuff planned for over the summer; trip to SF with Clarie, watching some apparently really scary/gory anime with Zach and Clarie, hanging out with Wayne when he finally gets back. Checkpoints to look forward to while I'm suffering through my crapload of summer homework. =P

Day 3 - Your Parents

Dear Mom and Dad,

So... Bad things first? You always point out my faults, and I have to say, that's not exactly the best type of encouragement one could receive. I can say truthfully that I cried for a full day after I found out I had a B in Euro. The grade, part-wise, and also because that day was just me being stupid. Your criticisms have really lowered my self-esteem; I can't tell you by how much, but I would be lying if I said I can accept compliments from friends/teachers readily. Every time I hear one of those praises, I think about the negative things you guys have said. I feel like your expectations of me have totally shaped my own goals in life. I want to make you guys happy, but it seems to me like no matter what I do, it's never enough. There's always someone else out there who will be better than me, and amazingly, you always happen to find one of those people, and compare me to them. I'm sorry if Jess is better at piano, if she's more determined and motivated. I'm sorry if some whiz neighbor of one of my friends got into UPenn or Yale. I'm sorry if someone has a 5.0 right now, whereas I'm stuck with my lame 4.5 when I should have a 4.67, just because of that one B. I'm sorry I'm not good enough, okay? You guys always seem to bring up things I'd rather forget about. Things I've done that I hate myself for. You'll bring it up in passing, and then what? I feel bad for the rest of the day, and go cry in my room for it. You guys don't notice the scabs I have on my hands from punching walls because I get pissed at myself for how stupid I can be. You don't notice the nights when I just lay in bed, crying, until I pass out. You don't notice these things. I feel like I'm just not good enough for you, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm me.

But even with all this crap, I still love you guys. I love you for making me who I am today, for having expectations of me. I love you for raising me well, even though I make amazingly retarded decisions sometime. I love you, because I know that you'll still support me in life, whatever course I decide to take. I love you for wanting me to do well. I love you for the care you've given me throughout my life. And I love you because I know, that no matter what you guys may say, even when you call me a failure, you love me.

It's damn hard trying to get over something when the only people you've told keep bringing it up...

Day 2 - Your Crush

Well, uhm, hey there. I guess I don't know who you are yet, but you must be pretty special indeed. Hopefully you're a nice guy, and I didn't fall for a jerk. You probably love helping people and are generally awesome. You're kind, funny, smart, witty, and care about others. Hopefully you actually know who I am and can deal with my craziness, and hey, maybe something will happen between us. Hopefully you'll like me back too, because that's always nice... There's probably plenty of people with the same characteristics as you, but they wouldn't be YOU. There'd have to be something special about you... I guess you'd just be you.
You'd love me for who I am and know exactly what to say to make me feel better. You'd be the person I run to when I need a shoulder to cry on, or just someone to rant to. You'd be the one who brightens up my day. You'd be able to cheer me up, even when I'm feeling sad, because you just have that happy aura around you. You'd be the one everyone knows and loves, with the amazing smile and twinkle in your eye. I would talk to you forever and never want to end the conversation, just to hear your voice. A single text or call from you could put a smile on my face. You'd be the one who I could always pick out in a crowd.

How can you expect people to not hate you for something you did, if you hate yourself for it?

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Dear Courtney and Robyn,

Whenever I'm having a crappy day, hanging out with you two always cheers me up. It amazes me that I have such great friends as you; I would've thought you guys would find someone better than me to hang out with. Seems like yesterday we were in Foss' class taking orthographic spacials and being called immature kindergartners, and insane pen spinners (doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results, right Courtney?). Junior year's almost here; I hope I get some classes with you guys (not having any this year SUCKED). Two more years, then off to college. Different ones, probably (I say we should all go to UCBerkeley), but we'll still be amazing when we get together (and we WILL).

Courtney, I've known you since 7th grade. Sixth, if you want to get extra technical. Fun times in band and Goodhue especially, right? Those civil war projects and mirror books were pretty fun... You started out like the quiet girl in the corner, but you're SO much more than that. You're crazy smart and funny, and you're a great person to hang around. I know you feel invisible and maybe even neglected sometimes, but remember, I'm always there for you. You're an amazing person, and no one can refute that. You're way too hard on yourself, but I guess that's what makes you, you. You're determined to achieve what you want in life, and nothing could stand in your way. You're quiet, sure, but you say the funniest, most amusing things sometimes. I'm still waiting for you to go on that murdering rampage by the way. It's always the quiet ones... I'm sure Robyn and I top your hit list.

Robyn, you have WAY too much energy, and I love that about you. You're always happy and hyper, and you could make anyone's day. You go a bit too far teasing people sometimes, but I know you don't mean it. You make up for your shortness in personality; you're seriously one of the most optimistic, happy-go-lucky, inspiring people I've ever met. Not exactly the MOST responsible person in the world (losing textbooks and furiously doing homework during lunch), but you know what matters in life, and you'd never give that up.

I love you both. You guys are amazing, and I couldn't ask for better friends than you.

This Will Be Interesting.

30 Day Letter Challenge

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Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Kitten Love ♥

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Pretty Cool Day Today!

So I had to wake up at 6:15 for the SAT Subject; it sucked. I saw Sling there though! Math wasn't too bad, but French was sort of lame. Too much vocab I didn't learn. Then this random guy came up and started talking to me. Tom, I think? Might have been Tim. Not really sure. It was weird, I was sitting on the wall eating Ritz, waiting for my dad to pick me up, and he just walks up and is like, "Hey, what's your name? Were you here for subject testing? Which subjects? Where are you from?" Meh. No idea where he's from, but he apparently took math IIC and chemistry. -shrugs-

Fell asleep on the ride home, but then we went out again to get the car alarm installed on my sis' brand new Polished Metal Honda Civic! It's pretty awesome; it's a small car with a low roof, so I feel tall sitting in it. xD SO that took a while; I got bored, so drew on their granite countertops while talking to Zach. =P

Then we went to Great Mall, which is HUGE. Seriously, I feel like I could have a good day hanging out there with my friends. I don't like shopping or anything, but it's so big, we could have fun randomly walking around window-shopping. xD But with my sister, we spent like 4 hours at two stores, plus the food court. The food court is AMAZING. It reminds me of the department stores in Taiwan, I love it! I was in like food heaven. =D But yeah, I got a top and a jacket, which is really nice. And my sister bought like, a bagful of clothes; I don't even know what she got. Lots of flowery stuff. xP

Passed out on the way back. But yeah, a pretty cool day. Tomorrow will be English homework (for once!) and my math notecard... And that's about it. And maybe studying for finals, but the only big problem is probably physics. Should review for math and French though, especially given how horribly I did on the French Subject today... Meh. I'm in a happy mood right now, so not going to ruin it doing homework. ;D

My sister has this ab belt from her boyfriend, like one of those belts you put on and it vibrates. I tried it on just for fun; it feels weirdddd. But you can feel your muscles tensing, so I guess it works? xD

Boat Races Part II!!!

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So the boat races today were AMAZINGGG!!!

Did nothing in TA, and signed yearbooks in chem. xD I left a bit earlier than the rest of the class to go change, since I was going to jump in the water to help stabilize boats.

Anyways, our boat was, in my opinion, the most decorated one there. Except maybe the pirate ship one; that was pretty epic too. I still think ours looked the best though. We got tons of compliments from everyone; it made those countless hours over two whole weeks seem pretty worthwhile. =D So we didn't win, but we got across, and we looked amazing while doing it. ;D I was in the water pretty much the whole time, just getting the boat by the edge to help people get into them. It was pretty hot today too, so the water felt nice. =D
A lot of boats sank; I think Ron's was EPIC. We were afraid of how good his was going to be (hey, it's Ron!) especially since he just happened to have the same theme as us. But it went like, a foot, then totally came apart. It was HILARIOUS. I think that was the best part. Some of the people with the highest grades in the class sunk; it was surprising. Like Brian He, Steven Lau... Yeah. Steven sunk! I think everyone was amazed...
So we got across, and we got however many points extra credit. xD No fastest time or anything, but we're hoping on "Best Design." We need this extra credit. xP

Didn't do much in French either; presented more businesses and then just signed yearbooks again. xD

Ahhh, I have SAT Subject Tests tomorrow!!! I'm so scared. I hope I do well... -cries-

Boat Races Part I!!!

Anyways, TA was pretty boring. Not going into detail; there's more interesting parts of my day to get to. xD

Math was pretty cool; we just watched a movie all class ("Proof"). It was actually really interesting and I liked it a lot. Then afterwards, we asked Mr. Shack if we could go see the boat races for Sater, and he said yes. I was literally so happy I was skipping down the halls and through campus on the way to the pool.

So the boat races were awesome; the ones during tutorial/brunch were for Sater Honors Physics. Quite a few boats flipped though, it was funny. xD Then Jesse/Ramsey's Mushu boat was EPIC. It was so amazing!!! I got to watch Zach and Eric too; it was pretty funny. By the time they got across, their boat was pretty much filled to the brim with water; I think a whole corner of their boat ripped apart. Once Zach got out, it started to sink, and Eric was sort of scrambling to get out in time. I'm sort of disappointed neither of them shouted, "Abandon ship!" at the end. Seriously, if the pool had been 5 feet longer, I don't think they would have made it. =P

English was annoying; we finished Cyrano and discussed it. We also wrote questions for "The Dating Game: Cyrano de Bergerac Version," and my section of the class got Christien, so we had tons of crappy answers to Roxanne's questions, since Christien gets all tongue-tied around women. So it was like, "Can you please write me a poem on how much you love me?" "Roses are red, violets are blue, I love you... a lot." We added "... a lot" to most of our answers; it made for HILARIOUS responses. xD Then we had one like, "How many letters would you write to me daily?" "...By myself?" (Since Cyrano wrote all the letters and Christien just delivered them.) It was pretty amazing.

Then during lunch, we had a Science Bowl meeting, which was sort of pointless. We basically agreed to keep our officers, and to have parties over the summer. Zach seemed really out of it basically the whole time; maybe he was just tired... I was going to give him a hug afterward, but he walks so fast! Or maybe he just takes big steps. But anyways, by the time I'd gotten all my stuff and was out the door, I didn't see him anywhere and had no idea whatsoever where he went. He hasn't been online or in the usual places during brunch/lunch, I'm sort of wondering/concerned about if he's okay... =\

Euro was boring. More Monty Python, which is so ridiculously stupid, it MIGHT be funny. Then we went to watch more boat races; I have to say, the regular Sater physics classes are WAY more creative in general than the Honors class... But lots more capsized.

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Worked more on the boat with Alex and Brit today; I didn't have piano since my parents had to go buy my sister a Honda Civic. =P Anyways, our boat looks AH-MA-ZING!!! I LOVE it! We're going to take pictures tomorrow, so I'll upload them then. =D I'm so excited! And our boat is going to be so stable, there's like, pretty much no chance of it flipping at all. And we've covered it in so much duct tape, I will be amazed if it springs a leak. I'm still getting in the water just in case of the like 0.0000001% chance of it flipping, plus the water feels really nice. =P We made Batman shirts too; apparently I can fit into a kid's medium (guys). I was amazed. And it's not hecka tight or anything either; just a bit short. Our shirt's look pretty damn awesome too!

Then I learned how to iron a shirt today! (We ironed on letters/numbers for decoration on our shirts.) So basically, our shirts look like the pictures below (same front), but with Alex/Britt/Erica, and 09/05/07 respectively. =P

AstroProfile

Gemini is the third sign of the zodiac, the sign that is characterized by communication. Geminis are very intellectual individuals, and are forever interested in broadening their horizon – they are eternal students! Mercury, the planet of communication, rules your sign, and makes you an articulate and versatile person. You are outgoing and sociable, and due to your lively attitude, you are the born entertainer. Clever and ingenious, you usually get what you want with your charm and wit.

First of the three air signs, you are a dexterous, multifaceted, and flexible individual. As the most diverse and eloquent sign of the zodiac, you crave mental stimulation above all. Your curiosity, combined with your ability to synthesize information, makes you the messenger of knowledge and information.

As a Gemini, you rule the third house, the sector of your chart that describes how you perceive, process, and communicate facts.

You are a mutable sign, responsible for keeping information flowing. You are gifted in adapting to situations and making compromises. Of all the zodiac signs, you are the peacemaker and troubleshooter who actively finds solutions to tricky situations.


GEMINI PERSONALITY

As an Air Sign, Gemini is concerned with all aspects of the mind. Like fellow Air Signs Libra and Aquarius, they need to use their minds not only to form ideas, but to experience the world around them. Geminis in particular need to ask themselves some of life's more difficult questions to develop and grow.

Gemini is ruled by the planet Mercury, which governs communication, writing, and teaching. This is a fast-moving planet, which can sometimes mean that Gemini's attention span is very short. They are in love with words and ideas, so you may need to put on your thinking cap to keep up with this curious sign! Almost everything about the world fascinates them, and they may not feel that there is enough time to experience all they want to see. As such, they make greater artists, writers, and reporters.

Gemini's symbol is the Twins, meaning that sometimes, people born under this sign are twins themselves, or may feel that they are forever searching for their twin soul, in the form of a mate, mentor, or best friend.

The parts of the body associated with Gemini are the arms, shoulders, and lungs. Gemini natives should pay extra attention to these areas, and make sure they keep them safe and protected in this incarnation. The lungs, in particular, should be kept open and free, so Geminis can enjoy long and healthy lives.

Because Gemini can be so versatile and curious, it's important to make sure you're not taking on more than you can handle. Sure, you want to experience all there is out there, but you can't do that if you're sick or tired. Challenges arise when Gemini is two-faced, or unable to commit to one idea, belief, or person. Rather than scattering your energy, try to pull it in and focus.


GEMINI IN LOVE

Fun-loving and always up for an intellectual challenge, the Gemini is a spirited lover. The talk that precedes the interlude is just as important as the actual contact for this sign, and when it comes to wit, this sign holds nothing back. Flirtatious and curious, the Geminian will spend time with a lot of different lovers until they find one that can match their intellect and energy level. Touch is a very important sense for this sign. The casual hug can send shivers down the Geminian spine. The Gemini needs to experience excitement, versatility, and stimulation to feel fully satisfied. Once the perfect match is found, though, the Geminian can settle into a lifestyle for two for the long haul.


FRIENDS AND FAMILY

Geminians are social and love spending time with friends and family. There will be times when this outgoing sign would want to go bungee jumping, and there will be times when sitting at home playing cards will suit them. Either way, friends are plentiful. Those who can match the Geminian intellect and love of variety will go the distance. One quality they seek out in others is communication. The Gemini loves to talk and gain insight from others. Without a clear flow of talk, the Gemini will lose interest pretty quick.

Family is important, especially those of like mind. Friendship with siblings is quite common for the Geminian, and time spent together is cherished. Meeting responsibilities with family can pose a challenge at times, but almost always, the Geminian comes through.


CAREER AND MONEY

The best-suited careers for a Gemini are those that stimulate the intellect. "I think" is the key phrase for this sign. Geminians are inventive and often literary. It's important that the work they commit themselves to doing is dynamic and challenging so boredom doesn't set in.

Careers as a teacher, debater, reporter, writer, preacher, or lawyer are all well-suited to this sign. Any platform that gives the Geminian room to talk is best! A sales profession is another excellent choice. You can expect to see many tools for communication around this sign, such as PDAs, laptops, and cell phones. Generating new ideas and problem solving are other areas where the Geminian will shine.

Deciding between practicality and pleasure can be a tough thing for a Gemini. While money is a necessary evil, most don't spend a lot of time worrying about where their next dollar is coming from. They don't put much thought into balancing their checkbooks, yet they manage to get by just fine. This is largely due to the flexibility Geminians have.

Wowww...

Well, I'm just slightly annoyed and a TAD concerned about the future right now. Whatever, it's stupid, and none of my business. Won't write too much about it here, since apparently people actually read my blog. Guess I'll just have to deal with it. However petty I think it is. I'm seriously thinking about like, avoiding them as much as I can, but it's not like I'm going to avoid everyone I hang out with that they do too. Whatever, I don't even care anymore.