Running out of Time

I feel like I'm running out of time. Ugh, this always happens near the end of a break, and sometimes as an aftereffect of watching a drama.

So for the break part, I feel like I have so much I need and wanted to do, but haven't gotten around to actually doing. it makes me stressed. I still need to memorize piano pieces, practice for the Chinese EP contest, and study for Science Bowl. I just feel like I won't be able to finish! And I so wanted to learn the dances to a few of my favorite songs, sing the (personally customized/created) versions of my favorite "You're Beautiful" songs (with piano), and a ton more...

And then the aftereffects of dramas is that I undoubtedly go look up the actors/actresses in the drama. And then I find out they're like, my sister's age. Then I go on YouTube and find out they're amazing at not only acting, but singing and dancing too. And they all started at my age, if not... 10 years earlier? And they're so good at what they do! So I look at myself and think, "What the hell am I doing?" I can't act, sing, or dance. I'm not particularly good at anything. I keep telling myself I want to do something, but then I lose interest. I have tons of things I planned out for myself that I haven't carried through with, and by now, it's too late. I guess I could try to do some stuff now, but... Ugh, I just hate this.

But on a happier note (well, potentially dangerous note), I really can't get over "You're Beautiful!" It's not like it's amazingly outstanding. I mean, it's really REALLY good and all, but it doesn't blow all the others I've watched away. But I don't know, I just can't get over it!!! -sighs- So I don't think I'll get around to watching more dramas this break. Maybe if they're short. It depends. I think I'll go obsess more now, and put my life plans on hold. Again. Like always.