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There are some days where I really just can't deal with anything. Everyone seems to have problems, and I really want to help them, because I just hate seeing them like that. But then that old feeling comes up again... And I just can't. All I want to do is curl up and sleep. Or drink tea and cuddle with a stuffed animal. At least they don't have any problems that I feel like I need to solve...

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So apparently I'm under "house arrest" for all things non-academic until December 5th. Hopefully I can still go to the Harry Potter midnight showing or else I will be legitly PISSED. I'm still really annoyed though... -sighs-

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I've been having this really weird feeling lately. It's not bad per se, just different. I just feel like there's something I should know but don't... And I've felt like curling up with someone a lot too... -sighs- I don't know. It's interesting, but I have no idea what's going on. =\

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So I was waiting for my mom to pick me up after I was done volunteering and raiding the snack shack tonight, and the moment I get to the front of the office, this girl is being yelled at in Korean by this lady in a van, and so the girl slams the door and like storms off. Then the lady, who is her mom, speeds around the parking lot and pull over near the girl and starts screaming at her in Korean, and the girls just stands there and is like, "Shut up! Shut up! SHUT. UP! I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME!" Then some stuff like "I told you I was staying until it finished!" and "Do you want me to say I'm sorry when you're SCREAMING at me?" And yeah... She got in the car though, but when it passed by, the lady was still yelling and the girl was like, "Can you just shut the f*ck up?"

It was sort of scary. Anyways, I just found it amazing that people actually tell their parents to shut up. It's really crazy...

Cal High Band Review!

So since I slept on the couch, Ellen tried to wake me up at like 5, but that didn't go over too well, so I fell asleep again. Then about 15 minutes later, Tappy jumps on the couch and starts licking my face all over, so THAT woke me up. xD

We had a little bit of trouble getting to Bishop Ranch 8, and some more trouble doing our hair and makeup there (given the lack of natural and artificial light at 6:30 in the morning), but we eventually figured it all out. Laura started feeling really woozy though, so people tried to find a ton of sugary stuff to shove into her system. Then I started feeling pretty sick, but it wasn't TOO bad; I just had a ton of mucus in my throat and stuff.

So we did the runthrough, which was alright. No drops, but I didn't toss the second triple. =\ The actual show, on the other hand, was absolutely HORRIBLE. I caught the first toss, then dropped the next three. I'd like to think it's because (and it probably is) I was feeling so damn sick. At the second toss (don't read this if you get queasy easily; skip to the next paragraph xD) I sort of threw up a little in my mouth, so I dropped that one since I was like... yeah. So then I was all like, well crap, I need to smile and I have vomit in my mouth... So I tried to swallow it. But it came back up. Twice. Which was why I dropped the next two tosses. Then I gave up and just held it in my mouth. While smiling. Blegh.

We had pictures afterward, which was alright, but meh. Laura, Clarie, Ellen, and I all went to the Target shopping area for lunch, since we had a two-hour break before our band review shift, but when we got there, we found out the whole area had had a power outage and was out. =\ Except for a few places, so we got food from Target and Bagel Street Cafe. Then Ellen drove back to the school while Laura, Clarie, and I walked (Ellen can't give us rides yet =[).

Our shift as runners was pretty boring. We went from the Commons, to the band room, to the Commons, to the Event Center, and so on and so forth. Except there was like, a half-hour lull between packets/runs, so I slept on a bench during that time. xD Went home, took a shower, read stuff for English, and slept for a while once I got home; it was nice.

Laura, Clarie, and I sold some stuff during the field shows. Three shout-outs and a lollipop! But it was pretty boring - selling stuff, that is. Watching the shows was nice. I wish we were still doing field though... =[ I miss it a lot... But on the upside, we got free food after our shift/the review was over! Clarie and I totally like, raided the snack shack and got a big plate of nachos, a hot dog, and a bag of chips each. xP Hey, free food!

So yeps. A pretty good day except the actual "competing" part (I should mention that we don't get scored for trophies since we hosted the review - we DO get judged though), but once I started feeling better, my day got better too. Funny how that works. =P

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I was presented with a very awful circumstance/dilemma today - What the hell are you supposed to do if you start throwing up in the middle of a show? Like, you can't randomly spit it out onto the street; that's just nasty. People would step in it, and I could just hear the judge's tape now: "Feet timing could use a little bit of work, line are pretty - Oh god, a Colorguard member if throwing up into the street." I just held it in my mouth after deciding that trying to swallow it wouldn't work, and I can't see a different solution... =[

My Rifle Is Out To Get Me...

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How pretty, right? I also have some very nice bruises on my right knee too. And it hit me in the neck today as well. Keep in mind that these look about 5x worse in person. xD

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You Have GOT To Be Kidding Me

I walk downstairs to get my damn chem book so I can do my damn chem homework and my mom starts lecturing me about how I don't manage my time well, and how -someone-, who happened to be in the newspaper, "manages her time way better than I do." Screw that, I just walked away. This is getting on my nerves. Stop freaking comparing me to everyone. Sheesh.

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I find it rather amusing indeed how I can legitimately scare some of my guy friends. Who are about a foot taller than me. But we all know that it's only because they're gentlemen and wouldn't hit a girl, or else I would be dead by now. xD

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This Mandelbrot crap is impossible.

That Was Just Rude...

So Mr. J was asking guard where one of our members was at the beginning of practice, since she's always late because she's with her boyfriend. But even so, we don't bring it up because that's just rude. Then this other girl in guard just says, "Oh, she's outside making out with her boyfriend. She'll be here soon since we told her practice was starting." Laura, Clarie, and I were all like "...WTF." I mean, yeah, we all know where she is, and we aren't happy with it, but we're not going to tell Mr. J that. If you wanted to complain about her consistent late-ness, just say something like, "Oh she's running late as usual, but she'll be here soon." You still get the message across that she's always late, but it's not outright rude... Then when the girl came in, Mr. J was like, "Get in here and sit down. You can make out with your boyfriend on your own time, not on my time." I felt SO bad for her... It was sort of mean for Mr. J to do that too though; that's not something that should be discussed/brought up in front of the whole band...

Then when I tried to talk to the other girl (the one who told Mr. J where our member was), it went sort of like:

Me: Uhm, in the future, you might not want to tell Mr. J something like that, because it's a bit rude.
Her: Well, it doesn't matter, it's a problem.
Me: But still...
Her: I mean, if this gets her to practice on time, then I don't care.

Then a bit later, she comes up to me and says something along the lines of, "And I don't appreciate you talking to me like that. I've been doing Colorguard as long as you have and I know how this stuff works." And then some other stuff; I sort of stopped listening since I was pretty pissed that at point. Like seriously, I don't care if you've been doing Colorguard as long as I have, or longer even. It's just plain rude. It doesn't even really have anything to do with Colorguard, it has to do with manners...

Anyways, that just sort of pissed me off. I have to keep myself from punching something for about 10 minutes after that. This is also the girl who usually acts like she knows everything. And the girl who got kicked out of practice once for talking back to the instructor. Or so I hear, but I'm pretty sure my source (ooh, so secretive) wouldn't lie. But yeah, whatever. I don't care. I just thought that was amazingly rude, and then the fact that she wouldn't even consider how mean it was to say that to the band director, who then humiliated the girl in front of everyone. I'm not saying that it's right for her to be with her boyfriend during practice, but seriously? Please learn some manners...

Happy Halloween!

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Stay safe Trick-or-Treating on the horrifyingly hazardous streets of San Ramon!!! =P

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So trick-or-treating was amazingly fun. Lots of candy and cute doggies. And cute kids. =P Clarie's and my pokeballs kept falling off their chains and rolling down the street. xD We're lucky they didn't fall into gutters.

There was this one rather creepy house with huge figurines of like witches and stuff in front, and it was bathed in rainbow light. It looked hella cool, but it was sort of scary, so I wanted to go, but not alone. And Clarie and Laura didn't go. So I ended up going alone, and this guy meets me at the front, and tells me I need to go around the house (on this porch thing) to get my candy. Oh, and he called Clarie and Laura weenies. So I walk around the house, turned a corner, and there's like a SAW dude right in front of me, holding a (fake) sword thing, and so I scamper past that and there's a mummy with a green light backdrop behind it. Then there was a very warm-looking kitchen with nice, friendly people and big candy bars. =P And then I had to go past all the creepy stuff to get out. xD

Then we took random pictures with people's decorations and stuff; it was rather amusing. We also found a glow-stick necklace thing that we gave to Ross later on. =P

So we trick-or-treated a bit more, and passed by these who guys who thought we were middle schoolers, and one of whom pretty much was absolutely floored when he heard that I was a junior. Why he would be surprised by that, I have NO idea.

Then Clarie, Laura, and I all went to Ross's house to bother him and take more pictures with Mr. Waddles (!), so that was fun. xD I'm sure Ross was regretting the time we took from his SAT II Chinese study session. But ah well.

Anyways, it was a hecka fun Halloween! Hope everyone else had a great night as well!