If Death is the Coward's Way Out...

Then sometimes I seriously wish I were a coward.

So my mom got really mad at me for not studying and playing piano enough over break. Apparently I haven't been "taking advantage" of this extra time. -sighs- At least I'm sick, so as long as I keep my crying silent, you can't tell, because my sniffling can be totally due to my cold. But now I doubt I can go bowling with the rest of the Science Bowl people Saturday, but whatever. At least I got to hang out with friends and go to Great America prior to that...

But seriously, so according to her, I'm pretty much a failure at life. Expectations? Yeah, sure, but maybe it's something more. Usually if it's just expectations, you wouldn't talk openly about how even though someone's grades are decent, she knows pretty much nothing, how she's worse in basically everything than her sister, and how she spends way too much time watching dramas and talking to her friends. Yeah, okay, so maybe I do watch too many dramas, but it's not like I watch them when I have school. I've watched one drama this year, during the first three days of spring break. During which I also finished all of my homework, and successfully memorized three two-page Bach pieces. Guess I'm such a failure, huh.

And yeah, I COULD finish my homework really quick if I didn't talk to my friends. But then I would also be a loner. Of course, I doubt my parents would care as long as they had a smart, nerdy little girl to brag about and to force into an Ivy League. As long as you're smart, you don't need friends, right? Big whoop. If I didn't have friends, at this rate, I REALLY would have killed myself by now. Not that I haven't tried.

And I realized today that I haven't ever had anyone say "I love you" truly, sincerely, 100% honestly to me. I don't doubt that maybe deep down my parents do love me, if only on a biological/familial level, but sometimes I wish they'd be more open about it. But truthfully, sometimes I wish I could just feel more loved, you know? Sometimes when my friends aren't around, and my parents are yelling at me, I wonder why I'm still alive. I wonder why I put up with all this crap. And I wonder if anyone, in this whole entire world, truly loves me.

Sometimes my life is hell.

Great America! =D

So on the way there, Sling, Davy, Cory, and I just talked about some random crap, and fail-sang some songs. xD
Tons of people went; I don't even remember everyone... There was me, Davy, Sling, Cory, Simon, Minyoung, Nick, Chris, Desmond, Henry, Matt, Janet, Julia, Lijia, Fion, and definitely a few more girls, but I didn't really talk to them too much...

We went on Flight Deck like 3 times first. Henry was slightly creeped out, but he got over that after the first time, even though he doesn't exactly like roller coasters. -shrugs- I pretty much had to drag Simon up his first time. Like, I got up there, looked around, went "Where the hell is Simon?!?!" and realized he was being a chicken and staying at the bottom. What a wuss. But then he went on by himself the next time, so that's all good.
Vortex was pretty fun, but that's always sort of painful because my head always bumps between the harness. xD We stood on the bridge in front of the water slide or whatever too, and got DRENCHED. Then we went on Drop Zone, where the ten seconds they leave you at the top were like THE scariest moments of my life, but that was amazing. But at the top, Davy and I looked at each other, and we were both like, "I'm slightly scared of heights..." which was rather amusing since we basically told each other we had to go on.
Then Davy, Sling, and I got in line for Grizzly (where I saw Daniel Pok - for the first time, I saw him four times in total =P), but then Nick hadn't gone on the first time, since his shirt was totally wet and everything. So I went with him on Drop Zone (since he's too scared to go on by himself...) and we went on the Grizzly. Afterward, we just waited for Sling and Davy to get off and went to lunch.

Lunch wasn't too special, 'cept there were these bees everywhere, and people kept taking/stealing my food. Not that I really cared. xD

Then we just went to the Rapids (Matt and I got SOAKED), which had a pretty long line, but was tolerable. And we went to the Logger Run before Nick/Chris/Desmond/Matt/people had to leave, which sort of sucked. Then came Delirium (which was pretty damn awesome, even though Simon didn't chickened out again -.-) and Demon. I was talking to these guys on Delirium; one of them was like, "Don't scream until it gets to the good part," so I was all like, "Since when did these rides have orders?" just in a joking way. But it was amusing, and people laughed. Then I was trying to convince the guy to the right of me to go on Drop Zone, since he hadn't before (I guess he's sort of scared of heights too?). I wonder if he actually went... We rode on the carousel too, just for the kicks. xD
Then came Logger Run twice, once with all four people (Davy, Sling, Simon, me) since the line for singles/doubles was hecka long, then once split into twos (duh).

By then, it was like 6, which meant it was time to go. Which was depressing, since I wanted to drag Simon onto Drop Zone. =P But then it took Cory like, 13 (yes I counted) minutes to get his butt out here, so whatever. Ride back was pretty uneventful, except for a slight ambush by Cory (behind) and Davy (left) on me, which was amusing. Then I sort of dozed for the rest, since I was super tired.

Then we got to Sling's house and just hung around for a while, talking and watching TV. And I made a freaking retarded mistake, but I don't think it did any damage (hopefully). But I was just so pissed at myself, I couldn't believe I forgot. -sighs- Ah well.

All in all, it was a pretty awesome day! Slightly bummed we didn't get to go on Invertigo or Firefall (it was closed), but it was amazing nevertheless. I still feel like I'm on a roller coaster. xD

Such a Gemini...

Two different sides to me... One most of you will never know? Yep.

High School Relationships

...Are amazingly cute and everything, but I can't help but think that they cause more problems than they're worth. Of course, once (if) I get a boyfriend, I'll probably be appalled that I ever even thought about this, let alone blogged it, but ehhh.

For once, it's very, very improbable that you're going to stay with your high school boyfriend/girlfriend for the rest of your life (or even stay with the same person all of high school), so from a cynical point of view, high school relationships are pretty much test drives. Experience. Personally, I don't believe that, it's just something that could be said about them.

What do we know about love? We're barely teenagers. How can we even tell if we love someone? I don't doubt that it's possible, I just don't know how you could tell. -shrugs- I haven't personally had any experience with this, so I don't really have anything to say about it other than the questions I'm asking.

It's wayyy easy to get jealous, which I had a slight run-in with just now. It's not that we don't trust people, I think it's just that you want to spend all your time with the person that if they spend time with someone else, you feel neglected and sort of end up resenting the person for "stealing" them from you. (By the way, this has nothing to do with my run-in, that event just reminded me that I've wanted to write this for a while. xD) But at this point, it's hard for most of us to even develop trust, so that could be a factor too. Anyways, once one person in the relationship gets jealous, its usually harder and harder for the other to just hang out with friends without his/her partner tagging along. Which sort of sucks. For pretty much everyone.
I would be lying if I said I would never be jealous, because I'm pretty sure I would. I'm going to have to keep that in check though, because I'd hate for my boyfriend to lose time to hang out with his pals because of me. Of course, he's got to compromise too. =P

Too much PDA. Self-explanatory.

And there's always the chance that the guy you fall for is a jerk. Which has happened. It's not like we choose to fall for people, but most of the time, even if we could choose, girls might choose the guy anyways, because they always seem so nice and amazing at the beginning.
But then there's that whole issue with the girls/guys loving the chase. That's a main reason why everyone always falls for the bad boy who has a reputation instead of going for the sweet guy who loves you. I guess it has something to do with the fact that you know the one who already likes you will still be there, and its a "challenge" or "adventure" to go after one who doesn't like you yet. And even though it's always an ego boost to learn someone likes you (don't deny it, it's true), it's even more of one to realize you can make someone like you.
Personally, I think that's stupid. Amazing, sweet, cute, caring guy likes you? If you don't like anyone, fine. You can't really change that. If you already like someone else, you can't do much about that either. But if you're a free agent looking for someone, why go after the complete idiot and ignore the wonderful guy right in front of you? Major lack in reasoning there.

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But then there's all the upsides too, like having someone to confide in and lean on. Having someone to dry your tears when you cry. Having someone to let you know you're loved. Having someone to do littler, stupid things to make your day better. Having someone to protect you. Having someone make you feel special. Having someone make your life seem so much brighter.

I guess it really just depends on perspective. As of now, I'm iffy on the subject. I guess that with anything involving love or relationships, Ill just have to wait it out.

Spring Break!

Finally!!

I'm SO ready for this! Heck yeah! No more getting up at like, 6:30 am for another week! And I can sleep whenever I want! No staying up to do homework, and I can FINALLY watch those dramas I've been putting on hold and try to finish Pokemon: Galactic Battles! Plus I don't have THAT much homework, just Euro notes and a decent amount of French for a week...
But on the other hand, I have to completely memorize 15 Bach pieces, and study for AP Testing (which I am SO screwed for... -sighs-), Then my mom wants me to study for the math/French subject tests too, even though I'm probably not going to take THOSE for a while.

Well anyways, today was pretty chill. Lots of talk about Spring Break during TA, chem test was pretty easy, physics quiz was horrible (but then we just did absolutely nothing for the rest of the period), and we didn't end up having a quiz in French (people studied the wrong stuff) so we watched music videos all period.
We had this sub in chem/physics with the awesomest accent ever! It was like British... but with an Australian ring to it? I don't know. It was just pretty sweet.

Zach brought more poppers to school, so during lunch, Robyn, Zach, and I just went around pulling them on random people. =P Then we played with the confetti. xD I swear, those things are so much fun, I am so buying a box if I find them. =P

And then I have some stuff planned over break, but not much, on account of the intensive studying/piano playing I'm bound to be doing.
But I'm hanging out with Davy for a whole day; we're going to go get kicked out of Walmart, do an Asian version of the Taylor Swift/T-Pain "Thug Story" rap, and then pig out on junk food while watching Disney movies. =D
Then I've got bowling with the whole Science Bowl team; probably midnight bowling, which will be pretty awesome, except I'll still fail at it...
And I'm planning on hanging with Clarie, Shannie, and Simon sometime too, just not sure when. So yeah.

Spring Break, here I come!!! =]

Happy April Fool's Day!

So yeah, today was a pretty awesome day! Well, except for the fact that I kept thinking it was Friday, and it wasn't. -sighs-

So TA was boring, like always. Except the office ladies REALLY like me. xD Too bad that doesn't mean I get donuts or anything... But anyways, so I was sort of looking over conics for the Calculus Readiness Test (there weren't even any), and some lady comes in and is like, "Are you... studying?" So I told her about the readiness test, and she goes out to the front desk all happy and is like, "She's studying for calculus! What a good student!" Then Lynette told her how they were lucky to have me, just because I needed to get to school early. xD

Trig was pretty boring; we just took the test. It was pretty easy, but I think I screwed up on the equation of a cosine graph, since I TOTALLY forgot how to do those. Ah well. I just want an A so my grade doesn't drop (too much) and that way, it can act as a buffer for when I completely bomb a test (I have a feeling it's going to be the one next chapter on conics. xD).
Then I played HeartGold on Sarah's DS. Agh, I SO want a DS and the new game now! The graphics are way better than the regular gold/silver, but I guess that's expected. Ah well. My GameBoy Color's pretty beast too. Old school FTW!

Break was pretty boring, I didn't do much. Talked to Tommy about fainting and marching band. xD

We TRIED to play a prank on Addison in English by switching her mouse with Shannie's wireless one, but it didn't work since even after I unplugged hers and plugged in the USB for Shannie's, she still couldn't control it. Then we were both like, "Aw sh*t" because we didn't know what to do to get her mouse back in and ours out (since it was plugged into the back of her computer). Mac was able to switch them back without her noticing though, which was good. Except it was after she discovered her mouse wasn't working and thought it was really weird. xD It was so nerve-wracking when I was switching the two mice though, since she was only like seven feet away. It was sort of like, "Okay, which one is it?!?! This one? -yanks- -plugs- -runs back to seat-" xD
Then we watched Defiance, which is a really good movie, and sort of sad at the same time... Sabretooth (from Wolverine) and James Bond are both in it! =P So yeah, we didn't do much.

Lunch was hecka fun. Zach tried to prank me by sneaking up behind me and pulling a popper, but it didn't work since I just happened to turn around right as he was about to pull it. So he tried to hide it behind his back, but I'd already seen it (it's hard to miss when it was aimed straight at your face previously) so he sort of gave up and just pulled it. =P Then he pulled one on Robyn, which was amusing. Then I did it to Lucy and she FREAKED. It was hilarious. xD Then we had this blueberry/Tater Tot food fight. Like, the ground was COVERED in mashed blueberries and pieces of Tater Tots... And we stole each other's stuff, so we were all half-wrestling each other (and I was pretty much getting picked up), and trying to sneak pieces of food in each other's hoods. It was pretty awesome.

We had a fire drill right after lunch too, which was probably an April Fool's joke, but I'm not sure. But that ate up some time from AP Euro, so I have no objection. Although I would've liked to not have had to walk all the way to the basketball courts...

Then we had a practice DBQ in AP Euro, which no one wrote, so we got it assigned for homework. Which is actually better, because then you can type it and take as long as you want. I just finished mine. =P So we pretty much just talked and did whatever for that whole period too.

So all in all, a pretty amazing day! One more day before Spring Break! Heck yeah!

Afraid to Love? (Or Like. Whatever)

So anyways, tons of people are matching up lately, and its ADORABLE! But then I got around to thinking about exactly why I haven't really been into being in a relationship myself. Don't get me wrong, being single's pretty damn awesome, but I just feel as if there's something bugging me about dating, I guess? I'm not really sure. I'm probably just overthinking it. (Oh and for those of you who might know, it's got nothing to do with that thing in middle school. That was lame, and totally shouldn't even count. Actually, I don't think I'm even going to count it. -shrugs-)

But then I guess it's probably because of all these dramas I watch and, indirectly, my sister's exes, which (most) all seem amazing. I just feel like maybe I'm waiting around for a guy who'll never come? Like, I really, sincerely doubt there's a drama guy in this world. But then I swear I've met a few... Ah well. I don't know, this is confusing.
I feel like maybe I need to see how sweet and caring a guy is before I'd consider going out with him though... Like, I'm just such a mushy romantic that if a guy has no tact or whatever, I'd probably be really really disappointed, even if I did like him...

Then there's that whole insecurity thing too. Mine, I mean. (Surprised? Every girl's insecure, trust me. At some level. xD Maybe deep deep DEEP down inside.) Like, I'm generally perfectly fine with who I am, and I figure my friends are too (I hope?). But I've been told by people I know and love that I'm not good enough, and that's what kills me. If I don't know you and you insult me, screw you b*tch, who cares? But if you're someone I trust and count on, and you tell me something like that... It really hurts, you know? And sometimes, if I don't do well at something or am just down that day, just sometimes I start to believe you. And it doesn't help much that it usually rears its ugly head every time I'm disappointed in myself. This kind of stuff can really scar a person. You've got to realize that. Maybe I just won't be good enough for someone. They've only known me from a distance, who's to say they actually know anything about me?
And that's one of the main reasons that I probably won't ever go out someone I barely know. I won't do that to get to know them. It's not so much for my benefit (although it is too; I just feel weird if I was to be dating someone I rarely see before) as it is for theirs, to sort of see that I might not be the person they think I am.

But yeah... I don't know.
Well, in the end, it'd not like I can choose who to like. So, I guess I'll just wait and see...

Friday ~ Schoolgirl (Uniform)

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Today was pretty fun in the dressing up aspect. Actually, today was pretty fun overall. So, first comment I get at school is (from Lynette, a office lady I TA for), "Oh my gosh, you look so cute! You look just like a schoolgirl!" I was so amazingly happy, because that meant my outfit actually works. =P Then we got into a discussion about plaid skirts and how they're cute, but people don't usually wear them because they're more like uniform-cute than just going out cute. SO that was pretty interesting. TA wasn't too busy today either, so it was nice. =P
Math was hecka easy. Reviewing permutations and combinations. =D It's sad how I did my Turbeville project on them last year, yet don't even remember the formulas. xD Oh well. So I got to finish all my math homework in class, and just talked to people and texted during tutorial.Break was pretty awesome. I ate three cupcakes, because Clarie made a huge batch for Mindy's birthday. Then I saved one for lunch. =P I think vanilla works better for cake... I don't really like chocolate cupcakes... Brownies are good though! I guess it's just the texture and stuff.
English was boring, like always. We did these grammar worksheets and talked about initiation rites, then read a story about a sort of self-initiation. Ah well. I finished my grammar worksheet that was supposed to be homework in that class too.
So during lunch, Clarie was talking about how her friend thought she looked like someone in a drama, so we took our regular spirit week pictures, then we took fail drama pics. Clarie's actually really good at posing for drama pics; I just look... weird. xD Oh well. It was fun. Then Shannie and Lisa and I waiting around the library a little bit to see if the stupid loser who was teasing Lisa would show up. Obviously didn't. Coward. -.-Euro was boring; we went over the test, which I didn't do TOO bad on, though I wish I could have done better. I DID barely get an A- with the weird point add thing he does though, and so now I have a 90% in the class. Just in time for quarter grades. Which are more like progress reports, but whatever. Then we watched "Saving Private Ryan." =D Interesting, but I was more preoccupied with chucking around paper airplane notes and talking about hermaphrodites and "the first thing that pops up." I love you Shannie! =P

So anyways, I have no homework for odd days! Just physics (-sighs- just...) and French!

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Chinese school was pretty awesome. It's always amazing because every Friday, I don't want to go to Chinese school, but then afterwards, I'm so glad I went. So we read some lessons, which was boring, then took a test. Open-book, thank goodness. But I couldn't get some of the fill-in ones, so I asked our (substitute) teacher, and she basically just gave me all the answers. xD Then I -cough- "helped" -cough- Michael and Kim.
And Stanley kept bugging me to give him some of my chewy SweetTart minis, which he so amazingly referred to as "balls," since they're shaped that way. So it was like, "You don't need that many balls, give me some!" and "Give me your balls!" Yeah. Oh, and when I was playing games on his iTouch, he went, "You have like 50 balls in your pocket, you have enough games to play!" Amazingly disturbing, but that's just Stanley for you. xD
Then afterwards, I played (and beat) Stanley and Daniel at Tap Tap on medium and extreme respectively. It was pretty cool, even though I totally failed at extreme. I beat Daniel by about 5k and Stanley by 50k (what a fail). And Lance found this block of something (presumably lead?), and handed it to me, but since it looked like plastic and not all that heavy, I only reached out with one hand... And when he let go, my arm literally just started lowering to the ground. Rapidly. xD Then Daniel came over and I did the same thing to him. And for some strange reason, we washed our hands near the end of class. Don't ask me why, I have no idea. xD

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So yep, my day was pretty damn awesome! Great way to end the week. =D

Thursday ~ Nerdy

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Well today was interesting. I got my suspenders snapped quite a few times from myriad people. But it was amusing.
I got an A on my physics test! Well, an A-, but it's close enough! I was so happy! Nerd vibes from my outfit for the win! (Even though I didn't do so hot on the French test... Ah well, ignoring that...)
Not much happened today; my nerd outfits just warranted quite a few weird looks, both from people I know, and people I don't. But people are FINALLY realizing that I'm dressing up for a personal spirit week, and not just because I'm weird and felt like it. I had a few people ask me what tomorrow was going to be. I guess they'll just have to see. ;D
But tomorrow's the last day of the spirit week; it's sort of depressing... Back to normal outfits next week... Ah well. But after tomorrow, one more week until a WHOLE WEEK of freedom! Heck yeahhhh!!! =D Peace (Spock) out!

Wednesday ~ Pajamas

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Sadly, none of my teachers found my awesome pajama outfit particularly amusing, and so none of them let me sleep in class... -sighs- Ah well, I didn't really have to get dressed today! (By the way, I don't actually wear that eye-cover thingymabobber when I sleep. xD)

Tuesday ~ Preppy

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So anyways, here's my preppy outfit! Apparently I'm better at being gangsta than preppy though (my friend so graciously said I look like a seven year-old). Oh well, I'm fine with being more from the hood than from the mall. =P

Monday ~ Gangster

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So yeah, this was definitely fun. I had a few of my friends actually come up to me and say, "You look gangsta" so I guess I didn't do half bad. xD This whole spirit week thing is so much fun; I can't believe I never thought of it before! But anyways, the rest won't be so exciting except for Thursday, and maybe Friday, depending on how well we do this. So yep, this brightens up my test-riddled week!

Personal Spirit Week!

Clarie and I are having a personal spirit week this week, and it's going to be AWESOME! Here's our schedule:

Monday ~ Gangster
Tuesday ~ Preppy
Wednesday ~ Pajamas!
Thursday ~ Nerdy
Friday ~ Schoolgirl

It's going to be awesome! And now I need to go watch New Moon with my sister. And listen to her obsess. xD

San Francisco!

So anyways, I woke up at 5:00am this morning to go volunteer. xD It took us a while to figure out how to use the BART ticket machine; it was sad. And then both Clarie and I got $3.90 in change. Like, in quarters and a nickel and dime.
So it was really interesting, because the first person we see when we get off BART at Powell and head towards Glide is this obviously drunk woman staggering around, so everyone moves to the right side, and she stumbles past us, saying rather loudly, "I'm not drunk!" SO yeah, that was... interesting.
Glide was actually pretty fun. It felt nice to be helping people, although it was slightly depressing to see how many poor/homeless people there are in a single city. And they probably don't even account for half of the actual homeless population... I felt so bad when I saw little kids getting served there... Like there were two seven year olds (or so) and I was just so depressed that they would have to grow up without a home... And I saw a ton of homeless people when I wandered around SF later on, and I gave a dollar to this one guy with a sign, but I sort of think I should have given more...
But I was happy to be able to serve them. And it's amazing how grateful they are when you hand them a tray of food (even if it's not exactly... appetizing? They just got a piece of fruit, eggs, bread, and I think grits. And the eggs were obviously made from a powder). But they usually thank you and everything, it just made me so happy to be able to see how much they appreciate everything when most people who have a home, good food, family, and everything other basic need take it all for granted.
So today, I basically just served a ton of food, prepared trays, and cut up carrots. Carrots were by far the most fun aspect, but definitely not the most meaningful. It was pretty enjoyable though. =P

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Clarie and I went to Chinatown afterward. We went to Quickly's, but it didn't open until 11am (an hour and a half after we got there), so we went to the pet store (which didn't open until 10am), and hung around there for a while. They had chinchillas! They were absolutely ADORABLE!!! And they had bichon frise puppies, and tiny little baby Robo hamsters, and lots of really pretty fish, and colorful (albeit annoying) parrots.
Quickly's was good. I'm getting Jasmine Milk Green now. It's so yummy!
We saw these sunglasses too, but the lady was selling them for a ridiculous price, especially since they probably weren't very good quality, so we just left. Then afterward, we realized that we should have bargained, so we headed back, but along the way, found another stall with the same style of glasses, but they were like, half the price. So obviously we bought them there. (And I pretended to "steal" Clarie's black glasses later on and she got SO pissed.)

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Then we decided to walk to Japantown, but it took a while since we sort of overshot it. We didn't even know how to get there at first, so we asked these people with a map, and they had an extra one, so they gave us a map! It was pretty awesome. It's so sad though, we live near there yet don't know how to walk from Chinatown to Japantown... And on the way, we saw Pink Bunny, Terry, and Kevin sitting along, and they wanted to go too, so we decided to go together. But then they wanted to take a cab, so Clarie and I ditched them... And STILL got to Japantown before they did. To their credit though, they walked too. But I guess they were tired or something. So Clarie and I sat under the peace pagoda for like, 10 minutes waiting for them. And meanwhile, we just took off some layers, since we were both wearing two actual shirts (plus a cami for Clarie). But they decided to go eat once we got inside, so we ditched them again.
So we just wandered around Japantown for a while and looked at the stuff there, which, by the way, is adorable and so freaking awesome, but amazingly expensive as well. They have awesome stuff though! Like their pens are amazing, and everything is SO CUTE! Like their stuffed animals/cartoon characters, and T-shirts, and everything! We're going to go back and buy crepes and take pictures at PikaPika over the summer. =D

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Afterward, it was already like, 3pm, so we decided to go to Westfield Mall, and this was the point where Clarie got hella pissed at me for "stealing" her glasses. It was more just like we switched. And the glasses are the exact same except one's blue and one's black. I just wanted to see how pissed she would get, and how long it would take her to calm down. And she got REALLY pissed and wouldn't have calmed down if I hadn't told her I was kidding. Like I said we'll go back to Chinatown and switch the blue ones for black ones, and walked off in that direction, but after a while, she didn't follow me, and I went back to look for her, but I couldn't find her because apparently she walked off in the other direction.
So I crossed the street and found the BART station first, just in case she actually did ditch me and like, left. (See? I do have some street smarts! I can fend for myself! Sort of.) Then I tried to find her again and was freaking out because I had the map and she doesn't have the best directional skills ever. And she doesn't automatically ask people for directions if she needs them. So I slightly panicked for a while until I calmed myself down and just waited at the street corner by BART, because I figured she'd have to pass somewhere near here. And I saw her pretty soon, and you could tell she was still pissed at me. =P But after I got her to cross the street and gave her back to glasses, she calmed down. It was amazing how mad she got over a pair of sunglasses (not even, just the color) though! xD

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Then we went down to BART and entered Westfield Mall that way. We sort of browsed a tiny bit, but it was getting late and the mall was huge and we didn't know where to go, so we just decided to come back here when we came back over the summer, and left.
So on the BART, it took us forever to find two empty seats by each other. Like, I found a pair of seats, but as we got nearer, it smelled weird and I realized it looked like someone puked on one of the seats and the floor. It was disgusting. But we found some nice, clean seats, and I proceeded to fall asleep until we got back to Dublin/Pleasanton.

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So all in all, a pretty fun day, and I can't wait until we go back over the summer!!!

Dang... I Haven't Updated in FOREVER!

Well, ten days, which isn't that long if you think about it, but I usually update my blog every few days. I guess I've just been way too busy lately. I'm actually busy now too, but I don't want to write an essay on choices in French, or do a lab conclusion for chem, or do my homework for physics. xD

So anyways, life's been pretty good. Not too many rough spots lately. Trying to pull up those stupid B's in euro and physics. Ugh. We're starting to have our little French after-school AP exam prep things on Wednesdays now. They're fun, but yet not fun, because they make me realize just how royally screwed I am for the AP exam. -sighs- I just hope I pass...

Brittany, Alex, and I spent like 12 hours (legitimately) doing our physics project yesterday. It took us FOREVER to find the materials and stuff. -sighs- Oh well. I learned how to play pool! =D Even though I still suck at it. =P

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Anyways, we've had to make course selections. And with the classes my parents want me to sign up for, I am going to be screwed next year. At least I'll have yoga (probably) or TA as a chilling class though. If I didn't and had some other AP/Honors or even just a regular academic class in place of that, I think I really might just die. So anyways, so far I have Mock Trial (yay!), Honors English 11, AP US History, AP Biology, AP Chemistry, AP Calculus AB, and yoga/TA. So yeah. I think I'm screwed.

So yeah, I'm just sort of taking life as it comes and trying to remember that even after I turn in my course selection sheet tomorrow, I can still go to my counselor and ask for course changes, as long as it's before the summer. It's not a permanent decision. Hopefully. xD

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Anyways, for now, I'm taking things one day at a time. I would totally say that this summer, I'm going to cherish my freedom before junior year, but I have SAT prep and all this other crap. High school is amazingly annoying. -.-