Smiling Pasta

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I found a new favorite drama! Or it makes it into the Top 5 at least. It's so cute! =] And Nicholas Teo is amazing. Very complicated and even more unlikely than normal to happen in real life, but oh well. I still have Little Turtle stuck in my head. xD It's a good song - he's such a good singer!



Working on Corner With Love now. It's pretty good, but I still like Smiling Pasta a lot more.

Down With Love

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It's been a while since I've watched a drama. I loved this one - it's so cute!!! Finished in 3 days. =P Yes, I'm obsessive. Time for a little break before I start my next one! Kudos to Hsiang for finding me these. xD

222/365 (Chilling)

I like being able to spend a day just hanging out with people over the summer. I really shouldn't be, given that I have a shitload of stuff to do, but I finished everything for my online classes, so I thought I deserved a break. xD Yes, I'm ignoring all the packing for COSMOS (you need a ton of stuff o.o), summer homework, and college apps that I should be doing, but ah well.

Watched Kung Fu Panda 2 with Jennifer, Hsiang, and Mischa, then we sort of wandered around and played games at GameStop and Best Buy. Went over to Jennifer's (except for Mischa since he had class) where we watched Sorcerer's Apprentice and played some Brawl. It was a pretty awesome day - if only I had the freedom to do stuff like that every day during the summer... -sighs- Ah well. I had my fun. Back to working tomorrow...

Busy Busy Bumblebee

Online summer classes have a lot of coursework. It sort of sucks. I'm supposed to research and analyze Bush's Social Security program and write a 3-5 page paper on it in the next week... -sighs- Lots of chapters to cover and quizzes to take. It'll probably be worse when it comes to the finals and I'm at COSMOS though... Hopefully COSMOS is more of an exploratory program/summer camp than something which involves lots of homework. xD And I still need to get around to doing my actual schoolwork too! D=

Oh, the Doubt

I absolutely HATE it when I psych myself out over a question, change the answer, and then get it wrong... I did it twice today on my Intro to Business quizzes. UGH. Of course, I spent about 15 minutes reading each of the chapters, which are like 20 pages long, so... -shrugs- Oh well. As long as I get an A. But it's annoyinggggg. -sniffles-

Business Stat

So I got in. And already missed the deadline for two quizzes, two discussion posts, and choosing a topic for a project. GREAT. I've made up most of it though, except one discussion post and the quizzes, since I'm locked out of them. But speaking of the project, I will have a survey that I need at least 30 people to fill out (hopefully more), so when it gets posted, spread it around please! (But only high school students! Recently graduated counts, incoming freshmen do not. xD)

I also still need to get my Intro to Business textbook too. It costs like $110, it's ridiculous. I spent forever looking for one online with one-day shipping too. My fault I guess, not in terms of procrastination (I was added to the class yesterday) but because I wanted a hard cover... Loose-leaf textbook? With quite a few hundred pages? No way. It's apparently going to come on Saturday though, and I have a few quizzes due Sunday, so I'll need to read like 4 chapters and hopefully remember crap. Cutting it a bit close here...

I finished all my Criminal Evidence work though! For now, at least. I love this class already, although my mom insists I should have taken Criminal Law since I get UC credits and it "sounds smarter." I probably should have, on second thought, but ah well. Whatever.

Oh the joys of summer.

The Times When Summer = Relaxing Are Over

...Until next year at least. Let's see... Summer schedule...

~ DVC online classes (Criminal Evidence, Introduction to Business, maybe Business Statistics)
~ summer homework (APES, AP Lit, AP Econ)
~ COSMOS
~ college app crap (maybe)

Hm. Doesn't sound like much but I'm already drowning and I'm only dealing with Criminal Evidence and Intro to Business right now... I'm semi-hoping I can't add into Business Statistics. xD But seriously! So many quizzes and discussion questions! x.x

COSMOS will be fun but I won't have as much leisure time or freedom as at home, and depending on how rigorous it is, completing summer homework and online coursework on time will be a pain... Ah well.

Junior hell extends beyond the school year. =P

As A Source of Light-Hearted Entertainment

If that's what you find this blog, you might want to stop visiting for a few days. Or maybe a week. I don't think this is blowing over anytime soon. I just know not that of you read this, or else I wouldn't be posting about all this crap at all. Hsiang, joking or not, when you said that there must be something wrong after hearing me say I went to bed early, you're right. But going to bed early doesn't mean I won't spend the next few hours in bed crying.

Sorry guys. If you're looking for somewhere to spend a few minutes just browsing or whatnot, this isn't the place to do it. Not right now, at least.

Would You Rather...

Know that he doesn't like anyone, yourself included, or know that he does and have to face the possibility that it's not you?

221/365 (Being Annoying)

I guess it's an acquired trait... Sometimes I wonder how the hell people deal with me... And sometimes people don't. I think I'll avoid talking to certain people for a while, just to spare them the need to. Because no one should be a burden, or even just feel like one, right?

I tried to find out if you considered me annoying. He told me you did, and it's not like I try, and it's not like I want to. But in my quest to figure out if you did, you said, "How about if i say you're being annoying right now?" I think I'll take that as a yes. And it's a good thing you don't read my blog, or else I'd feel horrible posting this (actually, I wouldn't be posting it...), but that hurt more than if you would have just said yes.

Of Course It's This

No matter what my mom says about her being fine if I can't get into Harvard/Yale/Stanford and the like, I feel like her almost crying today when she found out my chances of getting in one of the schools are super slim say more than anything she actually said.

Sometimes I wish my parents didn't care that much. People are always like, well at least they have expectations, etc, but to be completely honest, those expectations aren't a help at all. I get my grades for me. Not for them. I try to do well in everything I take on for me. Not for them. It's nice knowing they care, but if they didn't, at least I wouldn't have to face their disappointment in addition to mine in the event that I fail.

Oh Erica, what have you done? What the hell are you doing?

Yay for Summer...

Sometimes I really can't help but think about how horrible a person I am. At least during summer I don't have to hide it for 7 hours Monday through Friday... And at least during summer I can not talk to people and they won't freak out.

Have you ever felt so lonely that you listened to a recording of silence for about half an hour just to feel like someone was on the other end of the phone?

Any seed of guilt sprouts a tree of regret.