Insecure

Only the insecure people need to lie to make themselves appear smarter, more relaxed, less anxious/worried (or more so), and just better in general.

"I completely didn't read this chapter at all!" [Proceeds the ace the test, which DEFINITELY is not possible without reading the text]
"Oh, I'm not doing that, too much work." [Proceeds to do it, and claim that he/she had extra time]

I prefer to not talk to these people. Save myself AND them the trouble and annoyances.

I DO have a person in mind, although one of the examples didn't come from said person. Don't try to seem smarter or oh-so-chill all the time. I'm sick of you trying to put me down and make yourself feel better at my expense. If you want to think I hate you, go ahead. If it'll keep me from having to deal with you, then whatever. You can think I'm a b*tch if you want.

201/365 (This Bio Chapter...)

You can really tell someone's maturity level and/or certain aspects of their personality based on how they react to an "Animal Reproduction" chapter. The super immature ones refuse to look at the pictures diagramming the female and male reproductive systems, and burst out into nervous laughter whenever sex is mentioned. Which, in a chapter like this, is pretty much every other sentence.

On the other hand, the ones who want to seem better than everyone else are the ones who keep an absolutely straight face throughout the entire lecture, never laughing except for jokes thrown in by the teacher, and shoot disapproving looks at everyone when the laughter simply cannot be contained.

Oh, the things that can be learned from a bio lecture that have little to do with the material being covered...

200/365 (Yay. Tests.)

The chem final today wasn't too bad - I definitely missed a few, but I'm pretty sure I'm keeping my A. xD The bio test, on the other hand, SUCKED. The English quiz was just normal.

I'm SO not ready for AP testing... -sighs- At least my grades are doing fine. APUSH should be going up slightly, plus we have the presidents test next week, which should be super easy (need to remember events for random presidents though, that's the hard part). Plus it's on the same day as the AP Chem test, which is a bummer. =\ Ah well.

199/365 (Unseverable Ties)

I wasn't lying when I said I didn't hate you. Of course, that doesn't mean I don't harbor bitter feelings against you, or that you don't completely annoy me at times. To be honest, I'm absolutely jealous of the people who can go on with their lives and never see you again after high school. They don't have this tie with you that I do. They won't have to hear about you their whole life.

But you know what? I'll try not to care. Even when you go around telling lies and bragging about everything, I'll try not to care. I tell myself that having good social skills is better than being... the person you are. But you're so good at manipulating and tricking others, you'd go far anyways. You've still got people fooled, and it's not just a few. You have so many people fooled, it might even seem that people like me are the minority, that maybe we just have a grudge against you. Yeah, you're that good. Hell, you had me fooled once. So you'll go far in life. You'll be able to wean information from others and withhold everything from them. You'll be able to get the help you need and deny the help you can offer. You'll step on others and make lots of enemies, but you'll make it to the top anyways. And then you'll make it so that you seem like the victim in all of this. Everyone who has a grudge against you, everyone you've wronged... You'll make it seem like they have no basis for their feelings, that you're just this innocent who people seem to dislike. And you'll have kept enough friends, those who you felt didn't pose enough of a threat to your success, that they'll believe you, and keep following you. And like that, you'll have created your "perfect image" again. I know you. I don't know all of your tricks - I'm sure you have more - but I know quite a few of them. I know what type of person you are.

And even if I have to talk to you thirty years from now, even if I see your face on TV as one of the most successful and beloved (or supposedly, at least) people in the world, even if I end up not as well-off as you... even then, I'll still know what type of person you are. I spent four years waiting for you to change, defending you against those who had already seen through your mask, and you know what? I've discovered that that change isn't coming. So even if you end up on Wall Street or as a billionaire loved by millions, I'm not going to stand by and think I had it all wrong. You're a liar. You use others for your own benefit. And you won't stop at anything to get what you want.

198/365 (Deathly Hallows)

Instead of studying for my AP tests, or just my regular APUSH/chem/bio tests, I'm watching the Deathly Hallows, Part I. I don't regret it at the moment, but I feel like I will later. A lot.

197/365 (Cursor Change)

I changed my blog cursor to a Pokeball! Well, not a Pokeball per se, but you get what I mean. =D This makes me happy!

196/365 (I Know My Presidents!)

Washington, Adams, Jefferson, Madison, Monroe, Adams, Jackson, Van Buren, Harrison, Tyler, Polk, Taylor, Fillmore, Pierce, Buchanan, Lincoln, Johnson, Grant, Hayes, Garfield, Arthur, Cleveland, Harrison, Cleveland, McKinley, Roosevelt, Taft, Wilson, Harding, Coolidge, Hoover, Roosevelt, Truman, Eisenhower, Kennedy, Johnson, Nixon, Ford, Carter, Reagan, Bush, Clinton, Bush, Obama

195/365 (Egged)

On the way home from Chinese school, some loser threw an egg (or a few, we're not sure) at our car. Our moving car. I called the police on them. =P

Mood

You can usually tell my mood by when I go to bed. Well, not really, considering homework keeps me up, but if I go to bed before midnight (unless I've been out the whole day, NOT including school) that usually means there's something wrong. Even if I finish my homework early, I usually don't head off to bed until midnight. It's nice knowing I could sleep early if I want, but I like talking to my friends too - I don't want to be one of those people who barely has a social life on account of grades and tests and academic crap. But when I go to bed early, it usually just means I don't want to have to deal with life. Of course, it doesn't mean I fall asleep before midnight...

Today? I think I'm off to bed.

194/365 (Strangers, Again)

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193/365 (Grades Going Down =[)

My calc grade, English grade, AND bio grade all went down... -cries- At least my APUSH grade didn't as of yet... That's the one I NEED to keep up...

Chinese Speech Contest

I feel like a lot of my friends are talking about it; I believe it's the same one at least (April 30)? I don't even have any idea what it is... And I feel like an underachiever for not being in it, but screw it. I have better things to worry about I guess. And winning my school contest when I enter is fine with me. xD

192/365 (STAR Testing is Amazing)

Only semi-sarcastic on that... I know I missed a few on the English portion, but tbh, I really don't care... As long as I get in advanced, I'm good. xD I like having an hour left over to study and stuff - it's more helpful than Tutorial! Probably because it's longer. Aha. Well, it's nice.

I also found a replacement swear word! "Gliff!" I'm seriously using that from now on. (Just imagine... "What the gliff?!" "Why is my grade so gliffing low?" "Life gliffing sucks..." =D)

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And on an off note - I have no leadership positions to fill in for NHS, nor do I remember contact info for most of the volunteering I do, therefore those two sections are depressingly blank... Mainly the leadership though.

191/365 (STAR)

Yay for STAR testing! Semi-sarcastic, semi-not. I mean, we get shorter class periods (but less time for tests in those classes), and more time to study in school (assuming you finish STAR early). Ah well. We have to do it. Apparently the school is giving us "apples and bananas" for an extra boost. xP I love how they always make this into a huge deal... We have better things to worry about. Like AP testing. And SAT IIs. And my bio test tomorrow on the circulatory system + gas exchange. It's like a 40 page chapter full of terms and stuff that we didn't even finish covering in class.

190/365 (Polar Bear!)

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