Why does it feel like I lost a friend again?

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Sometimes I wonder
How much of life is free will
How much is predestined
If I hadn't said what I said
Did what I did
Would things still have turned out this way?

Self-Evaluation, Oct. 2018

x = yes, o = sometimes

Academic/Work
[o] Do you feel happy to go to work each day?
[o] Do you enjoy what you're doing?
[] Do you feel competent?
[x] Do you enjoy your work environment/the people/etc.
[] Have you been investing additional time to learning about your field?

Finances
[x] Do you track your expenses?
[x] Are you saving a portion of your paycheck every month?
[o] Do you spend more than you plan to?
[x] Do you spend on frivolous things?
    [x] If so, do said frivolous things bring you enough joy to be worth it?
[x] Have you been contributing to retirement plans?

Mental Health/Spirituality
[x] Do you feel loved?
[] Do you feel at peace?
[x] Do you take time to meditate and be quiet each day?
[o] Have you felt lost, out of control, depressed more than half the time?
[] Are you keeping relatively up to date with daily prayer?
[] Are you keeping relatively up to date with daily devotionals?
[x] Are you loving others?
[] Do you feel close to God?

Physical Health
[o] Are you in the habit of exercising regularly?
[] Do you eat healthily?
[x] Do you get at least 7 hours of sleep on average?
[x] Have you been responsible about personal hygiene?

Service/Volunteering
[x] Do you find joy in service?
[x] Have you been dedicating a significant amount of your time to service in some form (at work, at church, independently)?
[] Are you being honest with yourself about how much you can serve?
    [x] If not, are you serving too much?
    [] Are you under-serving?

Social
[x] Do you have a core group of friends upon whom you can rely?
[x] Do you find excitement in meeting new people?
[x] Have you been intentional in keeping in touch with old friends?
[x] Have you been intentionally vulnerable in your relationships?

Pokemon Go!

Just got back into this (rip productivity) but come play/trade with me! Also let me know if you used to play but no longer want your account and wouldn't mind me rifling through it for pokemon.

It's been so long, I'd almost forgot.

Things are hard.

There's been a lot of good in the past month+. But recently, I've felt so empty. Something about the crisp transition of fall just... brings sadness, and I feel so alone. I miss how things used to be.

Hamilton!

Mind. Blown.

So thankful to be able to be in the room where it happens! It was a great weekend full of good food and friends, and now it's back to the grind!

Your math is off.

I've found it really bothers me when people take the "quick and easy" route instead of doing things properly, especially when the result seems unfair for the other people involved... At first glance, it seems like things make sense, but when you walk through everything, it's actually pretty off...

No one person deserves that much power.

My finances are so screwed up...

How much do I even make? ??

It has been *so* long since my last update!

I promise I'll put brief picture recaps here soon!

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June 2 - I moved into a new place! Right by the Cambridge Public Library (which is a huge plus, even though I've barely been), with bay windows and a *huge* walk-in closet (that looks like a mess because it's filled with way too much stuff and empty boxes). Completely redid the closet with new flooring and Con-Tact paper on the shelves, plus replacing the splintery drawers with a Sterilite drawer set and creating a new front to cover the gaps.

June 16 - NYC trip with the small group! Filled with so much food and fun, though doing a day trip to a city a 4-hour drive away was a bit crazy...

June 27-July 2 - Florida trip! Went to Universal (really just for HP World). So much fun with the rides and shows, plus just seeing Diagon Alley and Hogsmeade in "real life." All the butterbeer and magic!

July 7-9 - Back to Princeton for a wedding! It was great seeing college friends again, and being there for my best friend on her big day. Even if some interactions were a bit strange, it was a blessed time and I'm thankful to have been there.

July 11 - Finally got my AC unit installed! We're not allowed to install it ourselves, since the house is so old, but the units were provided and installation was $50, so it was a pretty good deal, honestly.

Three more years, here I come!

Hiatus: Life is too hectic. Regular updates to resume after orals.