What is it about happiness that breeds indifference to sorrow?

It's true, all I am is flawed.

I get angry sometimes for little to no reason.
I cry all too much.
It's hard for me to find motivation to do things that I should.
I judge people for things that are wrong in myself.
It's hard for me to forgive you.
The extent to which I'm insecure is laughable.
I'm too concerned with my own life to really worry and care about other people's.
I take you for granted.

The list goes on. It was never in the plan.

But I'm trying, can't you see I'm trying?

Spring Houseparties 2015

A little mishmash of photos for you all =]

At one point, I trusted you fully.

Some days are just hard.

This week is going to have me perpetually exhausted.

Regressing

Honestly, sometimes I just miss high school, middle school... So maybe I'll go back a little. Look at old pictures, rewatch some episodes of dramas I loved. Eat cup noodles at 2am. Maybe I'll miss you a little more than I should. Maybe I'll try to remember my login details for Neopets and AIM. Read FML and MyLifeIsAverage. Laugh at old blog posts.

Were you proud of me then? Are you proud of me now?

I have no idea what is going to happen. I have no idea if this was the right choice. Part of me doesn't want to care, but I know I should...

I would have forgiven you for so much. If only you truly weren't going anywhere. It's a thing of the past, yes, but how often does that come back to haunt us? How many worries and fears do I have now that I didn't before? How many promises were broken? How many scars are left?

Is there nothing I can do to change your mind?

How does it feel to be spectacularly unremarkable?

You know, pretty good really.

Dancing to Christ's Beat

I don't always dance (I really rarely dance...), but when I do, it's for God.

This is going to be outside my comfort zone, and definitely a challenge, but I'm excited. Here's a short clip/teaser from our first rehearsal today! (Also, I'm aware it's blurry. Probably a good thing.)

Is it wrong to feel guilty to ask for things you don't really need from people you know would help?