Life is such a rollercoaster right now. Day to day, hour to hour, even minute to minute sometimes. I can't wait until this is over.

Not to be the better person, but to be a loving person in all regards.

I get so self-centered when I'm stressed or frustrated, and it's something that I really need to work on. Everyone's got their exams and other problems. What do they have on their plate today? How can I help?

Currently sitting in a room of econ, math, physics, and despair.

I feel so amazingly idiotic and unaccomplished sometimes. But then I think, this could go two ways. I'm either actually not that stupid, which is pretty nice, and/or I've somehow managed to be friends with so many amazing and intelligent people despite my obvious faults.

Loving Through the Stress

I can get so frustrated and I hurt those I love most... Please God, help me fix this. Help fix me.

I Don't Understand

Honestly, this is my midterms jam.

Honestly just exhausted.

Midterms week. I don't even know anymore, I'm just tired.

CLA - I should be fine. Hopefully.

CHM - No midterm during midterms week. One after fall break. Not on priorities list at the moment.

ECO - I literally have no idea what is going on in any regards to this class.

MAT - Someone save me.

PHY - Maybe? Maybe. Maybe not.

-sighs-

Since this is the happiness and joy that God provides me, should I not try my best to show others?

This guy.

This is the fifth flower I've gotten this year. I can't even believe him. I love you dear. ❤

If I needed any evidence that God does not abandon, today was it.

And if he tells me it's okay to cry, that He's there to comfort me, that He IS my comfort, then who am I to hold back?

Walls

There are only so many times you can break through the doors, wear down the walls, coax your way in, before everything is reinforced with steel. Before the door I had expected, wanted, to open is barred and barricaded. And maybe now is the time. Peace and happiness. That's all we wanted. Maybe I was chaining you down. Maybe you were chaining me down. Maybe it was both. Either way, we weren't set free to pick those chains back up again.

A deep-set sadness. And one I won't let myself be dragged into again.

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me today to chase after you and no one else. For giving me today to wait for you and no one else. For giving me today, and giving me freedom.