My mom sent me kiwis and cranberries and a honey bear and congee and Godiva chocolate and I'm actually crying right now.

It's tempting to just stand outside in the rain and feel as though everything is being washed away.

Oktoberfest: Candy Apples, Beer, and Rubber Duckies

Went out with friends to get some Charter points. Basically stood around eating apples and caramel for half an hour. It was a good way to get my mind off of things though.

But now back to biochem.

God, please.

Grandparents ❤

Bouncing Back

Woke up at 11:30am, proceeded to devolve into a state of frenzy because I had completely missed my 9am econ precept, 10am physics precept, and was about to overshoot my 11am linear class. Plus we were getting quizzes back in both physics and math. Basically had a panic attack (funny how those seem to be related to school for me...).

But everything turned out okay. Econ precept never really helped me all that much, since he basically just goes over the solutions from last week's pset, which are posted online. I'll be copying physics notes from a friend, picking up my quiz in precept on Friday, and the wonderful Matthew Wang has offered to help with physics, which he always does anyways. Attended the 12:30pm section for linear, taught by the same professor, and picked up my quiz then (which I did pretty poorly on, but it could have been worse).

Have *so* much to study for biochem, but going to get through classics notes and hopefully WebAssign before then, and then meet up with Evelyn and Tiff late tonight to try to work things out.

Here's to a wonderful rest of the day.

Heal my broken spirit; mend my broken soul.

10/7 Today

I've made a decision and I'm going to hold myself to it. And if it so happens that I have to do this, I will, because in the end, it'll be better for everyone involved. It just sucks, because I never thought I'd have to consider the possibility.

I thought I was prepared. I thought you would care more, or that you would understand. I guess I'm just wrong about everything today.

Clubs

Been thinking a lot about clubs lately... I'm part of quite a few. And recently, I've had to miss a few meetings and delegate some tasks because I've been sick and feeling overwhelmed with upcoming tests. Danielle really reminded me on Thursday to let my yes be yes, and my no be no. I made a commitment to these clubs when I joined, and I have to keep that commitment. And if I can't, then I can't continue under the illusion that I will.

Honestly I can't really imagine not being a part of these clubs; not when I've met so many great people and felt like I've really been able to help. TASA, PEF, WCC, CCA, Innovation, PUCS, and of course the guard I'm trying to start... But I guess I'll challenge myself to list them in the order of importance to me, starting with the one I'd be least likely to give up. Hopefully it never comes to this, but if it does, I'll have a record of having thought about how much each one needs me, and how much I want to be involved in each, in case I do have to cut back on them next semester (especially since I'll be joining a lab).

PEF
TASA
Tiger Guard
PUCS
WCC
Innovation
CCA

On the sort of bright/future side though, WCC is a frosh/soph thing, so I am guaranteed not to be in it next year... God really blessed me when he didn't make me chair of the council - it would have been too much on my plate to handle. I'm really wondering if I want to run for presidencies in the spring. I absolutely love my clubs, but will I be able to give them the time, attention, and care they deserve?

Please pray for me.

Guess who's penciled in to join MacMillan's group in the spring?!

This made my day so much better. =]

An Hour of Sleep

Running off of an hour today. Not too bad physically surprisingly, but today was rough mentally.

The morning just started off horribly wrong. Horribly, horribly wrong. But I'm going to move past it. 
Went to physics, got my lovely 5/10 quiz grade back. To be (sort of) fair, the majority of the points I missed was for not showing enough work, which sucks, but at least means I know my physics...
Feeling screwed for the math quiz next week. This weekend's going to be fun cram time.
Missed tons of questions in biochem woop. Just like normal.
At least classics was fun. Roman emperors are insane.

Matt's on crutches. Poor guy. Kicked a tree and pretty much bruised his foot... =\ Praying for him and hoping he gets better soon.

Reading

I've been reading so much lately - classical history and biochem mainly - for classes, but I've been neglected to read what really matters.

At least half an hour before bed every day. I promise.