A little bit of luck and a lot of love

They always talked about 

The right person 

The right time 

Like people don't grow 

Like time doesn't continue 

Like love isn't a decision

Like you and I were immutable and unmovable

I never liked the idea that

We would be by chance rather than choice

And I strove to

Impose some sense of control

Exert some form of agency

Over who and when

I thought I could think through it all

Like love would be 

The ultimate thought exercise

But here I am

Here we are

And I can't deny the

Unexpectedness

Craziness

The ~story~

Of it all

And even if this is something surprising

Something I

Never would have thought

Never would have foreseen

Never would have planned

I do, in fact, choose it

Erica (pronoun)

Isn't it nice that you can just decide to redefine yourself? Every so often, just make the choice to refocus on different aspects of yourself, whether it's a reimagined emphasis or something completely new?

I oftentimes just sit and think, and overthink, about how other people perceive me, but I sometimes forget that I have ownership over my own story and their view of me as well. We're all authors and storytellers and we can will things into being by believing and working towards them. And while others might be quoted or even editors, no one can solely decide for you what your story says.

Isn't that just such a beautiful reminder? You're a masterpiece and a work in progress all at the same time.

Sometimes I sit here and just marvel at the beautiful souls I've been blessed to get to know - what a wonder

Do I ask for too much? I'm tired of telling myself it'll all be okay

Snippets from the adventure of a lifetime