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Sometimes I wonder
How much of life is free will
How much is predestined
If I hadn't said what I said
Did what I did
Would things still have turned out this way?

Self-Evaluation, Oct. 2018

x = yes, o = sometimes

Academic/Work
[o] Do you feel happy to go to work each day?
[o] Do you enjoy what you're doing?
[] Do you feel competent?
[x] Do you enjoy your work environment/the people/etc.
[] Have you been investing additional time to learning about your field?

Finances
[x] Do you track your expenses?
[x] Are you saving a portion of your paycheck every month?
[o] Do you spend more than you plan to?
[x] Do you spend on frivolous things?
    [x] If so, do said frivolous things bring you enough joy to be worth it?
[x] Have you been contributing to retirement plans?

Mental Health/Spirituality
[x] Do you feel loved?
[] Do you feel at peace?
[x] Do you take time to meditate and be quiet each day?
[o] Have you felt lost, out of control, depressed more than half the time?
[] Are you keeping relatively up to date with daily prayer?
[] Are you keeping relatively up to date with daily devotionals?
[x] Are you loving others?
[] Do you feel close to God?

Physical Health
[o] Are you in the habit of exercising regularly?
[] Do you eat healthily?
[x] Do you get at least 7 hours of sleep on average?
[x] Have you been responsible about personal hygiene?

Service/Volunteering
[x] Do you find joy in service?
[x] Have you been dedicating a significant amount of your time to service in some form (at work, at church, independently)?
[] Are you being honest with yourself about how much you can serve?
    [x] If not, are you serving too much?
    [] Are you under-serving?

Social
[x] Do you have a core group of friends upon whom you can rely?
[x] Do you find excitement in meeting new people?
[x] Have you been intentional in keeping in touch with old friends?
[x] Have you been intentionally vulnerable in your relationships?

Pokemon Go!

Just got back into this (rip productivity) but come play/trade with me! Also let me know if you used to play but no longer want your account and wouldn't mind me rifling through it for pokemon.

It's been so long, I'd almost forgot.

Things are hard.

There's been a lot of good in the past month+. But recently, I've felt so empty. Something about the crisp transition of fall just... brings sadness, and I feel so alone. I miss how things used to be.